so been a while since i last wrote anything and tonight i think i hit a low point in my life when im listening to music drinking and feeling like i have no one to love me.all i ever wanted was to have someone to love me bck ,what the fuck happened to that when i got married i have no clue but this is not working for me i think im gonna start a new chapter in my life tonight find love even if im about to get a divorce.ok let me know what u think of my rambling

well woke up today and in that mood still that way but i shouldn't be,i got 2 of my boys over and fucked me good for 30 mins. i just hate when i have a big dick thinking im gonna get pounded all day and all i get is 30 min.so disappointing.well the first on big guy muscles every where and a 8 inch cock ate my pussy more that he fucked which was great but needed more cock after he left younger guy 9 inch cock skinny body mmmmmmmm just love the skinny guy.maybe i`ll find a guy close to forney to fuck me right.

so i havent been on here in a long time i have a good reason lol been busy and we moved out of the city which is really nice but also a problem im so faraway from my subs now but if the adore me like they say they will find a way to come make me happy. so i still have the same problem with my husband but he accepted the fact anout me being in the lifestyle much better and that good with me.i have 5 subs now and having lots more sex now yay lol i will be posting some of my vids of my subs soon and pics as well so that if for now.sub R is gonna be here soon so wanted to get this done before i get started.

ive been gone for a bit but now im bck,been busy finding subs which have been intresting and fun.many of my pics i`ll post when i can but i have lots more.it been the same at home no change with my husband but thats not a problem for me any more.i`ll be going to sex fest in a few weeks,im so excited and ill take lots of pics for u guys.also been shopping i think i went a bit nuts cuz i have so much toys right now but i get to use them all so its cool well thats all till next time

ive been gone for awhile and i havent updated this in a few months.so here gpes lol.i had to cheat on my husband cuz i just couldnt take not haveing any sex any more.i feel really bad about this but sooooo fucking good at the same time.i have a friend thats willing to give me as much as i want which is what i need but a few weeks after i did that my husbnds says he would like to have a guy join we and we did we had this 22yr old and my god i fucked him so good.he was willing to do whatever we wanted and me being the nasty freak that i am i did everything i wanted.i had him tied and rode his face and his cock over and over agian,i have no clue how many times i came that night.after that i fucked his ass whith my strapon,the lile fucker ket screaming for more that just made me more horny so i sucked his cock as i fucked his ass then rode him agian.made him cum so hard with my toys in his ass and and my cum drench pussy sliding up and down his cock.that was the best night of sex i ever had.it felt really good to just let loose and do as i like so now im getting sex its still not enough cuz im always horny and i dont want to cheat but i have to wait on hubby to fine time to let me play with others.but its better than no sex at all.ill post pics of our playmates us and i`ll tyr to update my blog as often as ai can

for all the people that gave their advice i wanna say thanks but i have talked to him about this many times and tried so many diffrent things to help with the problem but nothing helps and i would really like to have a real cock agian.Ive been trying so hard to stay faithfull to my husband but it seems that if i stay faithfull i will never have sex agian just thinking about that makes me wanna go mad.but i think about ready to find someone to make me go bad in another way lol so i guess i can say im looking for a new sex toy mmmmmmmmmmm.i`ll let u guys know how my search is going

so i`ve been married for a year and for 8 months now my husband refuses to fuck me.im a very kinky and openminded person and joining this site has helped me to c some of the things i might be intrested in doing.ive tried to talk to him about this but that hasent worked out too well.does anyone here has the same problem as me? I know women withhold sex from men but i never knew guys do that stuff for no reason.i may have to find me a boy toy which i feel bad about doing but this is driving me crazy.well i think im going to stop now just needed to vent for a bit.plzz leave any ideas u may have.thanks