hottlavender's blog post - SURGERY tomorrow........

as i am trying to break my nerves down and get to bed, i cannot help but think how did i get here and why....

i will try to take pictures from my day surgery room. i am nervous because i am getting an implant in my right breast after i decided not to with the first reconstruction...of course, naturally all the men are suggesting that i get 38DD or 38DDD...ummmm.... obviously men do not know what it's like to have breasts....of course they look gorgeous to look at and occasionally suck on but for crying out loud....they strain your back after awhile to the point of no return...

i will be resting for a whole week until my next break down happens....i will be turning 40 on december 15 and i am having a midlife crisis in return. when does this all end (my grey funk) and get a good break to turn my life around and live productively.

i appreciate all your love, dedication and support! much love and i love you