foxylady 123's blog post - 2011

Well its nearly hear.
Taking stock of this year does not make me happy.
Its beeen a long hard year. Lots of things gone wrong, lots of things not right.
There has been some self discovery along the way but thats not really helped me yet, though I am working on it.

I find that I am a much sadder person than entered 2010.
I lost the one person who was keeping me going through all the shit and I have still not worked out why I desevered to be treated as I was.
I know now that I didnt loose much and it was best to loose him before it went any further, if things had been different I could have ended up making a far bigger mistake than I did.In retrospect he lost far more than I did; he lost someone who really loved him not someone who just said they did.

As I have been told and as I know there are people far worse off than me, I will get by.
But I want more than to 'get by' I want to be happy again and at the moment there is a chance of that, if only I can put the past and the present behind me enough.

As the year ends I would just like to thank all those who have taken the time and the trouble to help me, I wont name names because I would be bound to miss somone out but Thank You all of you

Suzzy
xxx