handm's blog post - a little more about me....

........I'm from the southern hemisphere - stubborn, loyal, big, bubbly brunette a bit of an honesty freak (ironic considering.....I know) and I enjoy being outdoors and in particular love sunshine especially in the summer when it warms your skin but also on frosty cold crisp winter days too when it just makes you happy.

I live with A I've been with him on and off for about 14 years. 6 years ago I found out that not only had he been sleeping with a girl he worked with but that he had multiple affairs and that he had been meeting transexuals and tv's as well as other girls and guys throughout the time we'd been together.

I was gutted I thought we were exclusive and had been faithful (that's the kind of girl I was) particularly as we'd been trying for a baby.
I guess the biggest problem for me was not that he was doing it but that he lied and that he wasn't particularly interested in sex with me but seemed happy to put it out there with lots of other people. When we did have sex it wasn't brilliant and no matter what I tried - role play light bondage, dressing up none of it seemed to make a difference, I could have run through the streets stark naked and he still wouldn't have shown any signs of interest.
In fact in 14 years I've probably only cum 4times and I've never squirted, touching myself during sex or infront of him is not acceptable to him so probably not the most compatible mix.

We split up and a year later got back together, after he begged me to forgive him and on the understanding that if he was going to see anyone else he'd tell me. I believe in honesty and would prefer to know than not... I found out 2 years on that he was still playing the field and so we split again. Then I found out I was pregnant typical after all those years of trying!!

I now have an amazing small person who makes me laugh every day and thankful that I've been given such an incredible gift.

So I guess I need to explain about H and I next