I am horrible at putting words on paper, so if you chose to keep reading, don't judge )
Many thoughts have passed through my brain today and they all sound great, but not sure they will come out the way I want.
I have been on this site for about a year but just recently started really using it and interacting with some of you. I love hanging out in status and sharing some pms. If we have chatted casually or more, please know you matter to me. You matter in ways that you may never know. I believe that my life is one giant puzzle, and whether you want to be or not, you are now a piece of it. Some of you are BIG pieces that are in the colorful section and for that I am grateful. I will say it again, YOU do matter to me.
In choosing to participate on NN I have opened myself up in ways that I haven't done in a long time with anyone. I have shared pieces of me that I didn't know I could share again. I have been lucky enough that some people I chose to share with have respected that trust and treated me amazingly. Others, this wasn't the case. In either situation it was my choice to share so I don't fault anyone for hurt that may have been a side effect of my sharing. Two people here have become very important to me. Every day in one way or another I have had an interaction with them. They have gotten my drunken messages and my tears when life got really tough last week. I love them, in the most sincere way possible. I love them as my friends, this does not mean that I in any way think of them romantically. Hell, I'll perv with both of them but c'mon it is NN and I am human ) They have changed me for the better and I only hope that in some way one day I can do something for them. Now, I just hope they realize who they are when they read this )
Some things happened in my life yesterday that caused me to take a step back and re-evaluate choices I've made and choices I want to continue to make. I know that I want to continue my journey here and continue to share and get to know many of you. At this time though, I need to take a step away. I don't know if that will be for a few days, weeks or possibly hours... lol I just know that it's something I need to do. I need to put up some walls that I had torn down, not to keep any of you out, but to find out who wants to get through them. I'm not putting this out here as a means to get empathy, but it was just easier than trying to explain over and over again. I'm not one to be all "woe is me" so if this is turning out that way, my apologies. I'll be around this evening for a bit, but don't be surprised if I fade out without a goodbye...
hugs kisses licks and for those that want some, inappropriate gropes

Remember you do matter to me and I'll be back )

Thinking it looked better in black and white though...

and one other....


Big thanks to TWL for this amazing idea!

Be sure to check out all the other players!
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The players are:

hernhim1996, lovemybabygirl, MrCoverYou, Whispermyname, BuxomXhunter, guitartxn, MissOwl, MieleGattina, bighoss2, Hillbillys_Pride, Howlin, Bigtex0087, amancalledpony, bound_sighs, needsithard, curious48, ali_dee, 12gaugefan, nudiebare, unicornsam, Cotton_balls, Catastrophic, Safire13, Northern Star, nickey69, masterstoy91, milfmuffin, Army_brat_uk, Oceangirl, kricket187, arabella_topaz, Wrigley, fluffydawg, peachy keen, angelindisguise, sidders73, rockhard6isback, onib28, BBWBrook, petiteprincess, redvs4u, celticone, Uschi7337, ThicknHard1forU, and tight_wet_lips

one of my 'go to' songs when i decide to use the cords...

just reminding myself tonight......

thanks for the kind words friend... you know who you are )