I posted the pics of my new tattoos.



and here's them up closer:

is kicking my ass. And I ran out of medicine, so I had to trudge through the rain to go to my car so I could go to the store and get some. And the walk back felt even worse.

Then I had to edit two stories today for my writing class. One wasn't all that bad. It was about two guys in ecstasy and they were seeing all sorts of crazy shit, but the author managed to incorporate (I don't think that's the right word but I am so out of it right now) small things from everyone's stories into it. Like there was one girl who wrote a horror story about a deer head and the m.c. though it was trying to kill him (it was a really good story too) and so he managed to put in a deer head that mocks a dude. There were greek sirens and documentaries about gods (I think that was for my story, nifty) and grand marquis and all sorts of great stuff.

The other story was awful. I personally believe you shouldn't be permitted into a creative writing class until you've mastered basic punctuation and the differences between 'to' 'too' 'two' and 'there' 'they're' and 'their.' End of story.

*Collapses in bed*

It's the weekend. I got to sleep in to about 10, though dad called me around 8:30 to ask me how I was doing and how money was. The answer is that money is super tight. I HAD to get groceries yesterday and hopefully I've got enough to last me through Tuesday, and enough cereal to last me through to December (I really like cereal, it's totally good for a snack or a meal). It ran me about 30 dollars. Mom was asking me last night if she wants dad to transfer money and it's like 'no, thank you though.'

I know I could use the money, but one day when I'm really out and on my own there's no guarantee they'll give me the money or be around to give me the money, so I don't want to get into too much of a luxury with it. Besides, they're trying to pay off bills, and I'm already 100 in debt to my mom when we went shopping on my birthday xD so no more!!

Last night was nice, even if I was sick. After my romantic love class I took a nap and tried to sleep off some of the cold, went shopping, nibbled on dinner, and spent the rest of the evening watching movies. I watched Jaws, American Beauty (cried), and The Green Mile (cried). After the few tear jerkers my makeup was a gawd-awful mess and it was 1 in the morning and I went on to bed.

I'm just so happy I don't have to be anywhere. All I gotta do is relax, sleep, work on a paper, maybe practice my speech a little, but not much else. I'm *highly* anticipating it.

So my teacher in romantic love made me feel like a bit of a douche. We were practicing 'soft start ups' for arguments, which is when rather than just come out aggressive, we practice to open more carefully with "I" phrases and whatnot. So mine was that I've noticed my partner flirts along with other women at parties and I want him to stop. So my attempted soft start up was:

"I've noticed you flirt a little with other women and it makes me feel really bad. Perhaps when we go out you could no do it so much."

And my teacher responded with that it wasn't a good start up, it makes me seem needy and that he personally wouldn't want to be with a woman like that.

Wow. I feel a bit shitty now, totally what I need before going on a date with a guy I like.

THEN the teacher had me do another one, which went better I suppose, but it could be because he could tell I was getting embarrassed. Oi. And allllll the other girls had excellent start ups, which made me feel worse.

Now i'm going to curl up in bed and not do a damn thing the rest of the day or night, except perhaps go out in search of chicken noodles soup later. This cold needs to be nursed.

I might be coming down with something.

HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES!!!!

I just emailed that sexy tattoo artist and asked him if he wants to go out for coffee. AUGH!

What happened to the good old days when boys asked girls out? When did it become 'sexy' for a girl to ask a guy out? When did this happen? Who held that meeting? *I* wasn't invited or else I would've voted NO.

I'M NOT BUILT FOR THIS STUFF! I'M TOO SHY! TOO MEEK! TOO AWKWARD!

AAAAAARRGGGHHHH!

And worst! If he says NO (or God-forbid EW) then I gotta go BACK to finish the tattoo and face him awkwardly like that. FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?!?!?

A pair of Ben Wa Balls xD My former sutiemate, Nicole, got them for me for my birthday lmao I love being that age and being close enough to a person that we can get each other toys for birthdays and christmas and whatnot.

Anywho, they're pretty. Glass with little flowers in them. I'm a little shy to use them, considering I don't usually put things in my pussy. I've always been more of a clitoral stimulation sort of gal. But I'll probably give them a wild shot anyway. It might be fun to get really good at holding them in to the point I could try and go to class with them in one day. That sounds like fun actually lol

Now I gotta think of something good to get Nicole for Christmas! Hrmmmm

It's been a REALLY good birthday. I woke up and dad and I met mom at a local mom and pop, hole-in-the-wall restaurant. It's really great there and the owners are super nice. I had three cups of coffee and french toast and the 'mom' of the place even put a birthday candle in the french toast lol I got to open my "serious" present while there and it was a bottle of my FAVORITE perfume Intimately Beckham.

After that we hit the stores for fun, I found some nice sweaters and a nice pair of jeans and asked mom if she could get them and I'd pay her back (I literally only have enough money to get me back to St. Aug, home for thanks giving and back to St. Aug after that, no more lol). Mom said sure and then we stopped at Yankee Candle and I got a Basalm and Cedar oil and sticks to make my room smell nice. We hit AC Moore and I snagged a little Indian necklace thinger (that, as I've just discovered, is missing FOUR beads that I need ffs...) and then we went to Kohls, where I found some REALLY nice tops.

Anywho, by that point the three cups of coffee I had earlier were starting to hit me HARD and not in a good way. I don't drink that much coffee often. I usually have only one cup in the morning or afternoon (depending on when I get my breakfast) and that's it. But never 3 or more. So I was shaking super bad and I just wasn't feeling at all good, so we went to Ruby Tuesdays for lunch/dinner. I've been wanting steak for a while and I haven't had steak in...oh... a few years. So =3 yey! I was starving so I scarfed it alll down. Yum ^^

We headed home and I got to open up my 'joke' gift, which was a fortune teller with YoYo and Hoops (they're on those talking cards, but it's a cat and a bunny and they're fuckin' HILARIOUS).

Now we're just relaxing until church. Then dad and I will stop and an art store and find this four damn beads i need and get a bottle of wine for me, since I'm out of my other.

All around (besides the fact I'm now about 100 dollars in debt to my mother xD) it's been a REALLY good birthday and I'm so insanely glad to be home. I got a week of school and then, wellies, back for thanksgiving =3 Good birthday, feels like the start of a really good year at being 20

Well, I turn 20 tomorrow =)

I came home for my birthday and it's been really nice so far. I hung out a few hours with that teacher of mine and most of the time I've just been hanging with dad and really talking about my future. It's still all up in the air at times. Sometimes I think I totally know what i want, but then I think 'well...what about such-and-such' or 'what about so-and-so.'

It's frustrating at times.

Tomorrow will hopefully be fun. We're going to breakfast and then probably whatever I want tomorrow, though I'm not sure what I want to do. Definitely I wanna stop at Yankee Candle and get something for my room to make it smell like Christmas. Mom and dad got this awesome 'Basalmic and Cedar' thing and it smells just like Christmas. So nice.

My brother gave me a phone call and wished me a happy birthday and all my friends are lettin' me know. It's nice =) This weekend has been worth skipping classes lol