Ltdan's blog post - so i had ann appt at the VA today.....

for a whilenow i have been in touch with a patient that i took care of..... he came in intoxicated (two admits in a week). he admits that he has been drinking more since his time in iraq. something i can totally understand! well, they went at him pretty hard and he "ran"...he left against medical advice because they couldn'tleave well enough alone....they tried ganging up on him, scaring him, etc. what they didn't try to do was ask questions and then....LISTEN!!!!!! i did and we have been keeping in touch. i finally talked him into going to the VA to see what they can offer him. he was excited because he was able to see that there are others like him and there are people who will listen (they are hard to find)....the VA has come a long way. so i at least left my appointment today a little fulfilled. hopefully he follows through with his visits and gets the help which he needs.
with my issues, we finally got around to my trust issues today. the point of the type of therapy i am doing is to feel the events and process them with the help of the therapist. well, i finally admitted to mine today that i may very well never get to the point that i feel comfortable enough sharing my emotions. i have been hurt'disappointed way too many times in my life to share with someone who i have known for 4 months. that may be why NN is an escape for me as i can share without really "knowing" any of you. i admit that there are a few that i wish to know and i have had the opportunity to meet one man in particular, but there is a safety net with the internet. for all i know, i could be talking to one of you every day at work....and neither of us would be wiser. please remember that this long-winded blog is on 24 hrs without sleep and a couple of 7&7s....lol. i am still waiting for my sitdown by the way, because it will be on MY terms!!!!!!! have a wonderful NN day!!!!!!