Bit snug! But surely no tighter than my beloved yoga pants which girls wear everywhere. If I wore something as tight as this, I'd cause a scandal! 😂

I know that dates and years are just something we have made up to record the passage of time. And that the ticking over from 31st December 2018 to 1st January 2019 really signifies nothing. All the same, I can't wait for this horrible fucking year to be over.

Monday, September 10, 2018, 4:08:47 PM- 40 odd things.....
1. Do you like blue cheese? Yuk.
2. Coke or Pepsi? Diet Pepsi
3. Do you own a gun? Nope
4. What flavor of Kool-aid? The what now? .
5. Hot dogs? Beechwood smoked franks
6. Favorite TV show? Band of Brothers
7. Do you believe in ghosts? Nope
8. What do you drink in the morning? Coffee
9. Can you do a push-up? Yup
10. Favorite Jewelry? I have a nice wristwatch! On girls, simple, understated.
11. Favorite hobby? Gaming
12. Do you have ADD? No, I just like things organised and routine
13. Do you wear glasses? Yup
14.Favorite cartoon as a kid? Tom & Jerry.
15. Three things you did yesterday? Cleaned my house, went a walk, watched football
16. Three drinks you drink regularly? Coffee, beer, water
17. Current worries? Catching up with my rent, upcoming car MOT, personal shit...
18. Do you believe in magic? No
19. Favorite place to be? In bed
20. How did you ring in the new year? In my local pub
21. Where would you like to go? Italy (again) and Australia
22. Name five people who will participate in this? Pass.
23. Favorite movie? This week? Probably Jaws
24. Favorite color? Hot pink!
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Don't know!
26. Can you whistle? Yes
27. Where are you now? At home watching football
28. Where would you rather be right now? Rather not say...
29. Favorite food? Pizza and chips
30. Thing you hate most to do? Working
31. Best job you can think of? Porn star! Job I'd most like to to? Car restorer
32. What's in your pockets? Nothing
33. Last thing that made you laugh? An old episode of the Simpsons
34. Favorite animal? Cheetah
35. What's your most recent injury? Back spasm
36. How many TV’s are in your house? 2
37. Worst pain ever? Broken leg
38. Do you like to dance? No
39. Are your parents still alive? Yes
40. Do you enjoy camping? Never really tried it but I doubt it!

Now copy and paste and update with your answers if you’d like.

I miss you.
I miss us.
I miss all the things we had - the all-day texting, the banter, the fun. The someday list...
I miss all the things we were going to have, and all the things I wanted us to have.
I miss the "goodnight" Snapchat selfies and all the random filter selfies you sent just because you looked cute.
I miss spending time with you, even if it was just a wander round the shops.
I miss taking you out for lattes and Maccies and "accidentally" bumping into you. Literally and figuratively.
I miss making you smile. I miss seeing you smile. I miss your smile.
I miss being the first person you thought of texting whenever anything happened, even if it was just finishing work.
I miss sending, and receiving, "saw this and thought of you"
I miss you thinking about me.
I miss being able to tag you in random stuff on fb.
I miss being able to ask you about your day without the risk of you telling me something I didn't want to know.
I miss taking 90 minutes to watch a 45 minute program, because I kept pausing it to reply to you.
I miss making plans with you.
I miss being able to open fb or Snapchat without seeing a reminder of what I've lost.
I miss being able to drive through your town without fear of seeing something I don't want to see.
I miss feeling happy...
I miss stalking your fb profile.
I miss sitting up til midnight looking for nearby lightning.
I miss you slamming my car door!
I miss flirting with you, and you flirting back...
I miss threatening to send you rude Snapchats, and occasionally doing it!
I miss being the most important adult in your life.
I miss you putting xx at the end of messages.
I miss being able to talk about anything and everything with you, and mostly nothing.
I miss feeling guilty looking at porn and posting new pictures!
I miss seeing our best friend heart on Snapchat.
I miss seeing your messenger chat-head constantly on my phone.
I miss being your "special friend".
Most of all, I miss my best friend...

I remember mentioning to people at work, years ago, that there were websites where people uploaded their own pictures for the world to see. The reaction from most was "why would anyone do that?!" I wasn't sure myself, but I was certainly curious!

I'd taken nude pictures before, but they were on film, and I wasn't brave enough to get them developed. And when camera phones came along, I had pictures but no outlet for them.

Then, over the course of my Internet rummaging, I stumbled across a pic sharing site and wondered... So one Sunday I thought, "what the hell", created an account, took a picture, and uploaded it. The feeling of exhilaration was incredible! Excitement combined with real fear - how were people going to react?! Would they laugh? Would they be rude? Worse still, would my view count just stay at 0?!

I probably spent the next 20 minutes hitting refresh, constantly looking at my view count. I have to be honest, when I saw it finally tick over to 1, I was shaking, my heart was pounding! You have to realise that IRL I have no self-confidence, and I'm ridiculously shy, so this is way out of my comfort zone.

Eventually, after around half an hour I saw "Comments (1 new)" and the rush was amazing! To click on the notification and see "xxxx commented on your picture 'nice cock'" felt unreal. Turns out it was a revenge porn profile, but at the time I didn't know that and didn't care.

That first rush got me immediately hooked! I uploaded as many pictures as I could over the next few weeks and couldn't wait to see the reaction. Of course, as with any adult site, the dick pics are absolutely everywhere, so it's easy to get swamped. I did still get views and comments, but eventually that site became almost nothing but revenge pics, Web pics and dick pics.

Since I've come back here (I was here 4 or 5 years ago, very briefly under a different username) I've rediscovered my love of sharing pics! Some people will never see the attraction, but I'm happy to admit "My name is Mr_Vein and I'm addicted to sharing dick pics!"

Someone told me at work today how pleased they were at my new found confidence, having asked out (and been knocked back by) 3 different girls in a week, one of whom is widely considered the prettiest girl in town. Unfortunately it's not confidence. It's having nothing left to lose and deciding "fuck it, why not?"