After a month of being here I’m just realizing there’s a blog. So here I go.

I’m old enough to remember the earliest days of chat so this is weird to be coming back into it. It’s great to find a place that has still essentially the same feel as the old days with more modern bells and whistles.

This crossdressing midlife crisis thing has felt super exciting but also super awkward at times. Sometimes I’m thinking who am I kidding? Why am I doing this? This was really just meant to be a way to explore a different side of myself and let out some sexual frustration. But sometimes it leads to more frustration. Such is life.

I will say that surprise is sexy and what surprises me here is all the other men that are into this kind of thing too. And also many “100% straight” men that have fantasies about fucking a guy or even being fucked themselves. Also couples wanting to try it out with a fem boy. All different ages too. But at other times peoples’ same old biases and rigid gender norms come out and the vibe is that’s just weird. What I haven’t seen though yet is solo/unattached women who are interested in a guy who dresses up – other than just a casual curiosity. It’s disappointing but I guess it makes sense.

So for now, I’ll keep on doing my thing and see where it goes. I’ll grow out of the phase eventually, right??