Everyone has common sense (that doesn't mean everyone uses it of course) but common sense says if you look out and see smoke billowing out from the trees, there is a fire. It also says when you see warning signs, there is obviously something going wrong.

You can't judge someone just by their words, or actions that can't be seen. You have to sit back an listen, see, and watch what is being done, and watch it unfold, to either be seen as it being real, or find out that it was all just a dream/story.

The statement "the eyes are the windows of the soul" is something that has been said for hundreds of years, and has been said to stem from the bible. It is true that you can look into someones eyes, and see their soul, what type of person they are. Just as if you look into my eyes there are many things you can see,.. you can see the pain of my past, the scars that it has left behind that still come to the surface and reopen. Yes it's tragic, and all I have to do when it happens is talk about it. You will also see the compassion I have for those that treat me well, and in return I treat you well. You also see the strength that has come from rising from the pain, and suffering, you will see the healing of the previous abuse, as well as the love that I have truly found. I know there is plenty to see in my eyes, the mistakes I've made, the choices I made when learning from them, the path that I have been on in my life. There are very few people who have actually looked into my eyes, to actually see my soul. There are plenty of people that have seen them, but maybe the next time you see them, look into them, see what they are really saying.

So the hillbilly, gosh I love him so much but sometimes, when he gets into one of his projects he doesn't notice all the little nicks and cuts he causes to himself! ... So, he is out in his garage, it's a hot day out of course. He is working on his new project, he has a bobber project in the works, parts all over the floor in the garage. There is just one that is giving him a hard time. (he is at this point tearing the motorcycle apart) he's getting aggravated, doing everything possible to get it apart, and he's banging on it, twisting his hands up and around it trying to get tools around it etc. So I bring him a cup of fresh brewed ice tea that I had just made, and a pack of his smokes and look down at his hand. He had manage to cause some cuts on one, but the other one had a cluster of blood blisters on it. So later of the evening I took a sterilized pin to them and popped them and washed it up. Upon going out and sitting on the porch I look back down at his hand ( as always trying to make sure its clean lol ) .. and oddly enough after popping the cluster of blood blisters on his hand, cleaning them up and such, the cluster became the shape of a heart!*chuckles*

^^^ awesome

till next time
Sug

It's kind of been a long day but it wasn't to horrible. We had wonderful weather sorta! lol it was 86 degrees out today which was awesome, and sunny, so I got to lay out on the porch for a bit in the sun! YAY! .. but the calm times don't always last long (not complaining it's just how it is) everyday is a new adventure when someone has dementia. My neighbor is going through rough sorts, so when I got food out of the way I had hillbilly sit in the house so I could give a little help with mowing her lawn and fixing up her rose bushes (she cant get to her lawn care items nor can she afford to have the work done) so its been a hot and FULL day, but hey I have awesome tits, so I always win!


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Sug

Life is tough right? So many things to do, and so many mistakes to learn from right? That's life, you determine what you want by the decisions you made in previous years. Eight months ago I made a huge life changing decision, it was one that was hard, and that I knew was going to be hard before deciding on what my answer was going to be. I made the choice to give up a job that I loved, and knew I could do well with, to stay home and watch my loves mother who has dementia, dealing with all the chaos, the confusion, and the all night battles. Could she have gone to a nursing home? To a place where she didn't know anyone? Yes she could have, but rather then putting her in a place where she was scared, where she would never be able to enjoy the last years of her life, I agreed to take her into our home, and take on the job of taking care of her, helping her get dressed, bath her, feed her, and do everything for her that she can't do for herself. I took on the job that is 24 hours a day, every day of the week, every week of the month, every month of the year. That's life, that's making a choice regardless what the outcome may be, but that choice made things better for someone in my life and I feel it was the right choice. Throughout these past eight months I have come to realize that with making ones own decisions/choices in life, it is ultimately the best thing for them. It's even better when you have the ability in life to make those choices for yourself, like I now can after so many years, instead of knowing it doesn't matter the choice you make, because either way it wont work because you don't have the means/ability to put it into effect because your choices and decisions were made for you. The "it's my way or the highway", is no longer a protocol/rule in my relationships. Looking back throughout many years of my life, I realize that I let people make my choices for me, especially in the previous relationship, and family members. I can say that the only choice that was made for me by another that truly benefited me was when my previous relationship was ended for the second time almost two years ago, by the other person because it was what he wanted, which I then made the choice to move on with my life. That choice being the first that I made for myself in a long time, and the best one thus far. I made the choice to better myself, have a life where no one else decided things for me. It's like a breath of fresh air to look at life and think, ... FREAKIN A THIS IS AWESOME. I love my life, it is at times tough, .. and tiring with the decisions I have made, but I feel I'm good with them, I feel I made the right ones and couldn't have made better ones for myself , and I know that, that can not be taken away from me. I have earned my happiness, and I bask in it.

Till next time Sug

So spring has sprung, and so I have been planting bushes and flowers and making flower beds. I am grateful for knowing a thing or two about it from my grandfather, he was an amazing man. Howlin has been busyyyy!!! Poor guy is always working on something or going to work, or helping me because he can't wait to see the yard when it's done. We don't get much free time, but when we do we pack it with so much stuff by the end of the day we are dragging our butts behind us lol. The weather had been alright, raining or blistering sun out, ... working on a bit of a tan It's supposed to rain this afternoon, and my stomach is a bit twisted up, so I might just curl up on the couch with sturgis and watch some TV until it's time to make some dinner.

well that's all the babbling I have for the moment, I hope you all have been well, smile, it's contagious


Admit it, you giggled when you saw that photo

Sug

I have a wonderful photographer! I love it! Yeah just sharing another photo!


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Sug

Having some free time is something doesn't happen often around here, so Howlin and I try to make the best of it when we do get it! like stuffing a weeks worth of things into one day! It always manages to be the best day ever too! He got a new camera so we spent a night playing with it! Here are two photos from that night



Try to make all your free time worth it

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Sug

Just thought that I would share some photos that hillbilly took I loved em and it was a FUN night, we explored a lot heheh,... anyway,.. here they are



Hope all is well with everyone, got more snow ...yaaaayyyyy (not)
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Sug

Figured I would update my blog, well because I can The day was pretty nice, that SNOW stuff came back last night, but this time, it was just a little but the huge snow flakes were beautiful. They just seem to fall to earth like little angels. Only about and inch, but it didn't stay long. Today was fairly busy, cleaned around the house as usual. Got cleaned up, but some makeup on as the hillbilly likes it, and slipped on a little dress just to look good for HIM when he got home. Even took some updated pictures ( nothing graphic or shall I say NN style graphic ) just cute little photos .. I liked a couple .. might share one or two later in blog

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Sug

It's been a great weekend! Went out with the hillbilly for awhile Saturday, enjoyed a great dinner, went to Charlie's Harley Davidson for their anniversary sale but didn't find anything to actually buy. I know strange right? The weather was alright, but it's getting cold again! O well maybe I'll play outside in the cold,hard huge nipples are always sexy right?

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Sug