I miss having my hair pulled.

not gonna lie, I also miss the hot, humid darkness of my hometown. having almost 24 hours of daylight (or almost daylight) is interesting as a novelty, but just doesn't feel the same.

I miss swallowing cum.

and I miss McGriddles.

you see, I am a simple creature with simple desires. give me hot sex, an Ontario summer night sky, and a delicious sausage patty and egg between two pancakes and I'm set for life.

http://galadarling.com/article/100-ways-you-can-start-loving-yourself-right-now



I've been meaning to take some wilderness pics, but it would be a lot more difficult since I use the self-timer so much and there is a dearth of furniture in the woods on which to prop my camera. also, a plethora of gigantic mosquitoes and horseflies. and bears. naked Sara would be a tasty snack!

going on a three week training course out of town next week. will this be the culmination of all this sexual tension!?!?!?!

... somehow I doubt it.

maybe I should bring extra massage oil with me and start finding reasons to offer massages. oh you opened a door for me? how sweet. let me reward you with a massage. a full body one. a naked full body one... with a happy ending.

I have had a few offers lately. being a single 20something female in a town with very few (or none?) single 20something female has certain advantages and disadvantages. I have to be careful though. I have been thinking... with my brain this time, not my pussy.

I just got out of an "involvement" a few months ago that was somewhat traumatizing and shook my faith in both humanity and myself... so gone are the days of no-strings fucking or FWBs. I thought that would work for me, but it didn't. maybe it will one day, but I am just not up for it.

my next "involvement" needs to be as drama-free as possible. I want my sex life to be thrilling and adventurous, not emotionally damaging. I am gonna need to build a lot of trust before I go letting anyone into the VIP area again... so I'm okay with taking things reeeeaaallll slow, even if it means all the things in the toy drawer are gonna get worn out.

I used a cheap plastic jelly dong the other day, after using nothing but glass and silicone for like a year and a half.

I was only a few minutes into my pleasure when I felt BURNING AND HURTING! happening in my vag. I stopped using the toy right away but the sensation persisted and didn't fade for several hours.

I am upset because the shape of that toy was perfect. also, burning is an adjective that should never be applied to a vagina, so I am pretty unimpressed with that too. so now I don't know what to do with the toy. I am gonna post a pic of it today. it's very pretty, but I can never use it again. so what do I do??? use it in an art installation? or as part of a practical joke? our love affair should end with a bang... pun intended.


I am still not doing too well with this "constantly horny and aroused by everything" state of affairs. I went with a friend on an overnight trip out of town this week (separate beds!) and I gave him a back massage. I was so wet by the end of it and could barely walk because I was literally weak-kneed. then again, I suspect he was hard, because he was lying on his stomach on the bed and refused to get up for a long while...

oh goodness.

the photos show up in my Photo Manager, but not on my profile.

here are my favourites.























in other news I got my silk panties in the mail today! shipping was super fast... but I accidentally bought a few thongs in a ridiculous style. I didn't know they made thong granny panties!

for anyone who cares, I added photos to the flickr site with the photos of my mountain home...

bitches deleted my pics of me with panty-boy *shakes fist*

I am starting to replace all my cheap, worn clothes with new higher-quality things. most importantly, lingerie. cheap lingerie can be fun to wear for looks but I don't have anything really nice to wear, nothing that makes me feel and look divine, nothing I'd be happy to show to someone new and invite him/her to touch. so I spent a bit of time shopping online yesterday and purchased about a dozen new pairs of panties... all silk, all thongs, in various colours.

then I got to thinking about my friend panty-boy who I met on NN early in 2007. I was intrigued by panty-boy's long, sexy, fishnet-clad legs and gorgeous ass and, since we used to live rather close to each other, we started exchanging pms and the rest was history. I haven't seen him for several years now for various reasons, namely that our respective significant others weren't too pleased about us playing. I regret never getting to use my strap on in panty-boy's virgin asshole but I still do have some delicious photos as... momentos, shall we say.

I have obtained permission from panty-boy to post these pics. I hope you like them as much as I do. they are a bit blurry because they are not carefully posed like most of what I post; they were taken in the heat of the moment. in the meantime go check out panty-boy's pics!!!

a freak wind storm swept over the bay and drove the heat from it. at once the mountains were shrouded in fog, the sky went dark, and the placid water erupted with whitecaps. I chose that moment to go outside for a "cigarette break" so I could be in the middle of it with a giant smile on my face. it was awesome.

a lady who works with me said she hasn't seen one thunderstorm in the twelve years she has been here. not a one! I don't know how to feel about that.

before that, I spent a half hour talking to an extremely attractive man who then gave me his number. too bad he lives four hours away and I don't have a car.

then I got home and began my weekend (today is my "friday". I got naked in the kitchen and left my clothes wherever they fell. then I grabbed a dildo (named 'Havana') and got busy with my removable shower head. I had an intense, long orgasm... then ran a bath and splashed around and shaved and moisturized and gave myself a pedicure. now I'm all soft and smooth and feel like I used to after a very very good lovemaking session.

and, for those of you who seem to want to believe that every girl on NN is a size queen:



now I'm going to bed! goodnight, pervs.

it has a mind of it's own.

2010 has been an interesting year hormonally... twice, now, in five months I've had menstrual cycles of 7 weeks or so. scary, when you're sexually active. now I'm not anymore, and so it's just odd.

the doctor took blood samples the other day to see what's goin' on with my estrogen. low estrogen would explain a lot actually...

except my raging libido!

it's starting to get distracting at work!

so I have been noticing that some of my recent pics already have the 'alert moderator' button greyed out! goodness gracious me! it's understandable though, since some of the pics already have the NN stamp on them from the first time they were posted (there are many pics where I only have copies, not the originals). not that I was prolific under Saravin or anything, but I know people recognized the pics after two years of me posting regularly. as well, I know people here are vigilant about fake posters (as they should be). so I totally understand.

however, my friends here know who I am. I plan to keep posting because I enjoy it, despite what anyone says. I'm only concerned about NN pulling my profile or specific pics... that would be a shame. so, since I am already verified, I decided to post some pics here that might help people see that the old pics are mine too. it's difficult to take pics in the same setting, since I've moved a bunch of times, and my 'scream' poster got lost when I loved across the country.

so I decided to take pics of my infamous toys.


this first pic is of my top drawer of the Toy Chest. the accessories drawer, if you will. notice the roll of pink bondage tape nestled in with nipple clamp chains.
(I'm including the link instead of showing the pic, because I was too lazy to resize them and they're huge.)





the next pic is of my silicone drawer. you might notice some familiar items. my Ann Summers rabbit thing lives here too even though it's not silicone. they are lying on plastic bags because I hate how silicone is prone to picking up lint, dust and random debris.




these are the contents of the third drawer, which broke apart when I tried to open it the other day. now they stay in a tupperware thing till I can fix the drawer or find a new place for them. this mostly consists of toys I don't often use or lower-quality toys I bought as a starving student. notice how Carleton gets his own bag? I try to keep them all separate so the Cyberskin toys keep their texture, and so the cheaper plastic/rubber toys don't leach chemicals and colour onto each other.



the other two drawers hold my wigs:



and this is my bedside (this would be on a bedside table if I owned furniture):