WendySilvia's blog post - Just a vent-e

*alert... not trying to upset anyone!!!

Sometimes... I am able to shake off the negativity.. and of course being as super sensitive that I am... I am hurt a lot more easy than others.. or so I have experienced in the past... Anyway.. my venting today comes as I have now had a third person tell me that they thought I was a fake account... sigh.. I guess that the other assholes of NN have made it so people actually think I AM A FAKE!!! What the fuck!!!
Now the only one that made any sense to me was being told that they thought I was my ex.. posting revenge pics... now that one I can understand as a possibility.. ( instead of my token response... if I was a fake.. I would not post fat girl pics!!!!) With all the interaction I have done with fellow NNers... it begs my mind to wonder WTF!!!
I am not fake! Nothing on me is fake!! Heck I dont even wear makeup regularly... only if it is a fancy date... or else I am getting pics taken... NO OTHER TIME... I dont have fake eyelashes... or false teeth.. haha... I am a fucking real woman who is fucking pissed off today!!! I know I should just keep it to myself... as anytime I tend to open my mouth.. aka fingers typing... I offend someone.. or all of you... Today... I care that I dont offend anyone... but if I did... I Will say Sorry to you via PM... just let me know what offending words.. or feelings I have used to make you just as sad as I am now...

Onto another point of sadness... and this one might sting the offending party... not my intention.. I am not naming names.. and never will share who this was... but it has sadly added to my NN sadness this week... I was sent a voice message... so sweet... as being online all the time.. it is rare that we get to hear the voices of the other friends you make here... and this voice was a sexy as fuck voice... telling me that I am so sexy.. that he loves my lips... my tits... that everything on me was perfect... now come on.. as if that would not make any woman with slightly low self esteem feel pretty dang special!!! I listened to it first when I was in the car.. and could not make out everything that was said (cause it was too loud in the car) so when I was in the house.. I listened to it again... and sadly... it was meant for someone else.. lol... now that is an honest mistake... and kinda funny... So I share with him he sent the wrong one... or else he thought my name was a different one.. haha.. He was mortified... and said sorry... he still had an old voice message on his phone and must have sent that by mistake... he was so so so sorry.. and he sent mine to me... I giggled... listened to it... This is where my giggling stopped... it was just a monotone message... telling me that he wanted to fuck me... nothing about how hot I might be... or how much I make his dick hard... nope... just your generic message... sigh... THAT HURT!!!
I am not so naive to believe that I am the most beautiful woman in the world... nor would I want to be btw.. haha... I realize that being a BBW is NOT going to get me LOTS of attention.. LOTS of men hard... or LOTS of comments like he made to the previous womans message... BUT... it still fucking stung!!!

Onto another sad point... I was friends with someone... had been for a while too.. and sadly... without notice... they deleted me as a friend... and blocked me... ah.... what happened?? Did I do something here... and no one is telling me??? Have I truly offended said person so much that I needed to be blocked???

Anyway... I am fucking sad today... I dont have my chipper self activated what so ever... So.. I shall just try to find other things to keep me distracted today...

I dont mean to be a spoil sport here... I just wanted to vent this out... hope it dont fuck up anything with anyone else.. And also the hope that my sadness over these three points will go away.. I feel there is not real need for me to feel this way for long... just too much piled up on each other for me to breath...

Hugs to you all...

Wendy