WendySilvia's blog post - My NN Testimonial

Good day..

When I arrived here In September of 2013.. I was looking for an outlet to share the pics I had been taking.. Being in a family where weight mattered more than acceptance.. I was always shown how "fat and ugly" I was.. Told many times.. both mean and in cruel ways..

To say I was a broken egoed soul when I arrived, would be a massive understatement.. I knew that my insides were already kick ass.. I am sweet.. kind.. thoughtful.. silly.. and down right amazing! I needed help with my outer shell.. I needed to be told that the people closest to me were WRONG!

When I posted my first pics.. I was impressed that there were other men out there thinking I was amazeballs on the outside.. I spent a lot of time sitting in disbelief that I was getting votes.. and comments.. at the same time feeling more and more confident..

Fast forward about a year.. My confidence was through the roof.. I was getting followers on this site.. I was getting votes.. comments.. on not only my pics.. but my blogs too... That was where I was able to share my thoughts of serious natures.. and be my silly self with my naughty Lego series.. The Blog challenges we used to have.. It was all fun..

Then I stumbled into Status.. This is where the Family and magic occur.. You would think when I post a status, like you would on that other site Fb.. your status goes into the unknown.. Here.. there is always someone there to read it.. For the most part.. you get a silly response.. This is where all the F*&kery happens.. and this is also where you will meet the family..

A family on a "porn" site.. yes.. you read that right! This place has a wide variety of people who come here for unknown amount of reasons.. Mostly to see the lovely nakedness, sure.. but others come here just to interact with some of the most amazing people in the world..

There are so many other areas of the site to eNNjoy as well.. like the forums.. all the reading alone in there.. would take you months to get through it, plus all the possibilities to interact with other NNers, is endless.. How about the chat section..I feel that is more for the aroused people.. but I have had some amazing conversations with NNers about Hockey, weather, photography, and all around normal stuff..

I am here posting pics to help my Ego shed away all the years of the WRONG words being said to me.. My ex husband was going on about how I was not pretty anymore.. and how I let myself go.. and how he was disgusted by my outer shell.. That showing off was wrong.. and that no one would ever get aroused by me.. that I should NEVER ever show off for others.. Big girls are never to do that!! Before him.. my mom would say the same things.. "You are fat Wendy.. you will never attract a man ever" and so on.

After I had been here for a little bit.. hearing those words made me just laugh.. and think.. "HA.. you dont know what you are talking about!" NN did that for me!! The many faceless men helped me gain that confidence where no one could convince me that I was fat.. Truly! I would get trolled here (cause that happens everywhere sadly) and I would just pass over those mean spirited men and women because I did not believe them.. I did not believe those harsh words of "fat and ugly" anymore.. NN did that for me!!!

Fast forward again.. I meet a man in my real world... Fall deeply in love with him.. He joins the site.. encourages me to keep posting.. and even joins in for some joint pics.. It only took a month or two for me to feel less of a woman than I am.. He had a nasty way of making me feel that I should be ashamed of my looks.. not because he would tell me.. but because he would point out the other ladies who were hot.. and they were all of a skinnier nature.. My ego thought.. oh.. well.. I guess we are not that hot anymore.. and I really am just a fat girl.

WIth that ego loss.. I stopped coming here.. I stopped interacting with my NN family.. and I stopped taking and posting pics.. Once again.. My ego was bruised and feeling like there was no way in banana cakes I was going to feel the way I did back when I started here..

I came back anyway.. knowing how it helped me before.. I decided about 6 days after I split from my last ex... I needed to do something to help me.. I posted a pic of me that was just a fluke shot.. it looked fantastic in my eyes.. and I thought.. lets let that pic be my "Hi, I am back pic" The response was overwhelming.. it became and still is my most rated pic! After that.. I took a few more pics.. shying away from the full me pics...

The attention was there... like I had never left.. It took a few more ego strokes for me to get my full body in front of that camera again... Once I posted the first one.. and got the likes.. votes and bookmarks that I did.. I started to get excited.. I started to feel that ego repair..

72 days.. that is how long it took me to get what I refer to as my "snappy suspenders" Imagine me wearing some suspenders.. and I have my thumbs behind the straps on my chest.. and I pull them away from my chest a couple times.. not snapping them on me of course.. ouch.. haha.. But in a confident way.. 72 days!

Now like I mentioned before.. people come here for a unknown amount of reasons.. I feel that people stay here because of the Family that NN really has created and maintained.. I know for myself, I WOULD be that miserable fat girl still.. and I would never ever be able to say with confidence that I am a fat girl, yes.. but it is spelled with a PH.. PHAT!!

I will leave the best for last... the Green Shield.... That is a gold mine! Without being a paid member of this site.. I would not be able to post as many status messages as I do (my silly nature comes out here).. I would not be able to chat with the other members in PMs as I do (I take great joy in helping the other members with all sorts of things.. from photo suggestions.. to personal issues, good morning and just plain human interactions... a limit of these... would make helping others a lot harder!).. I would also not be able to watch videos (sometimes I like to see the vids)... or make the pics big when I want to see that tiny detail.. Then there is the notifications.. This is how I know how many people have liked my pics.. who commented.. How many liked my status updates.. Blogs.. and so on.. This is how I know at a glance what has been going on in my profile... without having to see each picture again in your gallery.. also nice to see.. "you have 99 notifications" when I have been away for a few days.. When you have that green shield.. you have all the freedom to move about the site without being told NO.. I hate being told no.. haha

After all this rambling.. I hope I have made it clear how this site has helped me become the snappy suspender PHAT girl I am today.. Can this also happen for you? Come on over and see..

Welcome to the NN.. we dont bite..