Mistress says I must jerk off every hour ... Get to the brink of cumming and stop. Rest for ten seconds and do it again. This'll be hard to manage for any length of time. Not cumming will be a serious challenge. A very serious challenge. So serious I'm very very nervous about it.

another dream i've had … this occurs at the club i work at. i do the "ticket booth", which means i take the cover charge $ and i also do the coat check. these are real things … not just in the dream. sometimes i'll wear suggestive clothes(which can be hard for a male to do). skimpy tight shorts. wrist cuffs. tights with no pants … just tights. it varies with my mood.

in this dream, i was wearing my littlest black vinyl shorts. tight … big mondo exposed zipper … on a girl they would be very tiny "daisy dukes". a few friends have seen them and commented "how do your balls stay in there? … they should be falling out". and truth be told, things can and have fallen out. when it's busy, i don't always have time to keep checking to see that everything is "well contained". so in this dream, it's busy. i'm running back and forth between the cash register and coat check … and there's a line … that just won't slow down. but i'm catching up slowly, and the line is getting shorter … and i get to the last person … a girl who i've never seen before. thinner. blonde curly hair. average figure, nice face. she's wearing a nice dress, not too revealing, something she could wear pretty much anywhere. she hands me her coat through the window, it's a bigger quilted coat(i am in minnesota, after all), and i turn to hang it up, and she says "sir, just a second … ". I turn back and she's looking down and she reaches through the window and latches onto my exposed dick(yeah … it fell completely out which it has done in the past), and she's got a very hungry look in her eyes. and i wake up. i wake up extremely turned on and frustrated that NOW is when it starts to get "good" and i won't get to see that part.

there are some curious things in this dream … it takes place in a place where this sort of thing might actually have a chance of happening. i HAVE fallen out of those shorts. and i mean COMPLETELY out … entire dick, balls and everything. perhaps the thing i find MOST curious, is the girl … who is, generally speaking, pretty ordinary. i'm hoping some day, that i don't wake up and that i get to see what she does.

another recent dream

i've had this one a couple times, most recently perhaps two weeks ago … also with kendrA in it … it's very short

i'm sitting on the couch watching tv dunno what's on … doesn't matter. so i'm sitting on the couch watching tv. she comes over to me, fully nude … god i love her body … and she climbs onto my lap. again, my clothes disappear, and she pushes me back into a reclined position. she's already very very wet, and my dick responds quickly, rising to the occasion. she holds herself open, parting her lips with one hand, steadies herself with her other hand against my chest. she slides her held open pussy up and down, against the length of my cock. it never enters her. each time her clit touches my piercing, she twitches a little and her eyes glaze over just a bit more each time. i can tell this is for her. not for me. i screw up my control and know i will let her use me as she wishes. i try NOT to cum … and during the dream, i don't.

i wake up quickly from this dream, never getting very close to cumming … tho if this happened in real life, i would be hard pressed to last long without cumming. as sex dreams go, this one is not satisfying … i mean … i never get close to cumming. but i like this dream a lot. a very alot. when i wake up, i feel very good about myself. i feel like a real man. and that i behaved like a real man should, putting those he loves before himself. perhaps this isn't a sex dream.

regardless, the glazed look in her eye as she uses me is exquisite

been dreaming a lot of sex dreams lately. haven't cum in any of them, but been very very close.
a recurring one
it's short, but i always wake up very hard and on th verge

i'm driving down the road, going … somewhere. KendrA is in the passenger seat. so, i'm going along minding my own business, and she reaches over and takes my cock in her hand. i was fully dressed a moment ago, but she has this power over me, and my pants disappear on her demand. she takes my cock and just holds it. fingers wrapped around it, palm against the underside. slowly she starts just squeezing it … increasing the pressures each time and it responds quickly and gets hard.her grip lessens and she starts smoking it.with a light touch that is so light it's hard to even tell.she leans over and wraps her lips around the very tip … so the tip is in her mouth and she runs her tongue over that area just under the head.

now … (pause) … i've had one girl go down on me in a car many many years ago … and what i just described is nie about impossible to actually DO in a moving car. the steering wheel is in the way and the angle is all wrong, too. but dreams don't care about that and so they just go on

so anyways, she has her tongue on my dick. she increases the pressure from her hand and starts stroking in increasing vigor. she reduces her grip to just her thumb and forefinger. she starts sucking with her mouth … she doesn't change that part much … she still just keeps the head in her mouth and her tongue on that post just under the head, but she adds suction. she shifts her gaze to look me in the eye and i can see that she is intent on MAKING me cum. she speeds up her stroking with her thumb and forefinger. faster and faster … i start to tremble and i have to concentrate harder on the road, but i can't … faster and faster she goes with her fingers around my dick and an impish look appears in her eye. she KNOWS she's got me right where she wants me … i struggle to maintain control. faster and faster she goes … never doing more than what i've described … just fast and faster with increasing pressure from her fingers.
i know i am going to cum … i can't hold back any longer … my whole body is shaking … and i wake up

my cock is hard at this point and throbbing.

Many years ago I was in a long distance relationship. In order to help deal with the hormone build up that can occur, I came up with the idea to make a casting of my cock and then sending it to my girl. I researched and procured necessary supplies and was on the verge of making the casting. The relationship ended (badly I might add) and I set aside all my supplies. Years passed. I moved a number of times and relocated to a new state, found another girl, and that ended too, moved a few more times. And today ... Unpacking from my latest move earlier this month ... And what do I find in a long unopened and crumbling box ... My cock casting supplies.

Well I'll be darned.

most of everything is there ... The low melting point wax, the "crucible", the accurate temp controlled heating plate. I could just about do it today(tho I am missing a few things). I've got no one to send it to , tho , as I've been single for some time with no real prospects and no real time to look for one either since I work 13 and 14 hour days all week

But still

The idea is inviting

Found my favorite cock ring last night

I guess I better take some new pictures now

stayed home from work today. went to take some pictures. got myself so worked up, I put the camera down and just brought myself off. good intentions, tho ... perhaps I'll manage it next time.

bleh. they've been decidedly strict, lately. not even regular emails allowed. i came within a whisker of being fired. times are tough. i'm managing as troublesome as it is. time will tell.

at ground zero now ... ready for the doors to open. I wonder what debauchery there will be tonight. if any.

well. my premium membership is up for renewal in just a few days. the bank says "no way". guess I'll have to let it slide for a while.

(sigh)

i'll re-up as soon as I can.