my younger daughter graduated from the nursing program at the University of Miami today. I'm so proud of her. I'm so proud of all my kids. they have all done so much and have gone so much further than I ever did.
My kids are the one and only true success in my life.

"That all I gotta say about that... ". Forrest Gump

NN is like a big BOOB pit I just want jump into and play around. lol

well. its been a real busy year for me. as some my know, I was having a lot of personal issues the last year and ultimately left for 6 months. like everyone these days I had my fair share of ups and downs I managed to get things settled down with work and my house. the govt assistance made a world of difference. like all good things though it came to an end. but not before my job situation cleared up. so that was a good . my health has improved in some places and not in others. my weight is going down again.... (slowly. lol) . I would like to get back down to a place where I feel good enough about the way I look to post a new picture for the first time in almost 2 years.
my love life needs a major overhaul. just caught the woman I was dating foe the last couple of weeks cheating on me with another guy. its not so bad though I guess. My heart was somewhere else anyway. but I don't have to worry about all that silly romance any more. I gave it all up. I blocked it out and I walked away. its just better that way. its the only way to keep me from closing myself off from the world again.
I have lost connection with many wonderful and sweet people both here and elsewhere.. I hope to work on that now.
I hope to spend a lot more time here over the holidays but it may take me a bit to get my mind on track. I'm still having issues at moment. hopefully I can block out all the other pain soon and get back to a good place.

I guess that's all for now. later gator xxxxx icsstt

I have been meaning to post an update about everything going on for the last few months while I was gone but that will have to wait
so for now... just something brand new. about month or so ago I started going to social night at my community center at my daughters suggestion. I met a lady there and after 3 dates we took things up a notch last night and slept together. its my first time with a woman in over a year. it was very nice. I realise now that some dreams are meant to stay that way . now we went out again tonight.. we went forvpizza and a walk and ended up skipping the walk. lol. dreams are a great thing but reality can be just as nice

time to get some rest. goodnight everybody. xxxxzz

I just thought I would share.


see ya later alligators xxxx

hello everyone