Well if you couldn’t have guessed life ain’t always the best of places at times, lots of bad so I’ll always say that those little moments of joy and happiness you gain celebrate and relish in them
Right now frankly I’m just tired of everything and anything really, of yes a few little moments of joy or whatever but at what I’ve had stolen from me a few years back and I constantly have on my mind kills me daily if not hourly in many a way and leaves me wanting to take something back in the vilest of ways possible at times, frankly il not say openly or maybe not privately but fucking hell
My main reason for breathing was taken away, not through my own stupidity although maybe a touch in places but mainly through the evils done but someone I thought would not consider or do such a think but even after one person said is that possibly happening I dare not believe it true and now hindsight making it a glaring obvious thing I missed due to me thinking not badly if someone in my head well you may guess we’ll at this point
Nope, I’m human so I’m about as far from perfect as il ever be but inside I try, Ok could do harder at times admittedly but il not be a cunt to someone unless I see it and hold in anything until my nerves are truly frayed but il still not be that kinda person as best I can as I’d rather not lower myself and my way to be that bad really
So again I still sorta try but I keep myself to myself while everything inside is just as close to dead as possible really
Yup not the best but il always say if you don’t have hope it’s frankly the end more or less as without hope you have nothing and well I don’t much care for chrimbo and this year has been nothing but a fucking shifty piece of crap
So maybe someone like me doesn’t either belong here or need to be here or mostly of late care to be here really
Take away what a man cares only for and he is nothing but destroyed so while il be me to the best I can be while riding the shitty waves that wash to me from a cunts actions, I don’t think much of me really can be fucked to be here much longer
Yes I could try to be nice and befriend and see but if that inner voice says “don’t as it’s unfair to bring it try to bring anyone into this shitshow, sorry life of yours” that you just can’t be arsed to try or want to try
Sooooooooooo maybe a big bye soon from me so be well, live your life to its best and for fucks sake don’t be a count to anyone as it’s not nice