gonedogcrazy's blog post - Facts

There seems to a theory going around that because I was on NN having a joke when silent had his heart attack that I didn't care.

Can I just say this theory is untrue and not at all based in truth. If I could have gotten on the plane I would have, if I didn't have 3 dogs who do not like other people I would have, if I didn't have 2 houses open and strange people going through our stuff I would have. I have never been so scared in all my life as when silent rang and said he was getting flown out and that he had had a heart attack. He is my world and the thought of him never being here with me is my worst night mare. We have been through some bad patches but have come out of it stronger than we had ever been. I never want to feel like that ever again, helpless, lost and so very scared.

I always make light of things sometimes. That was my way of coping with every thing. I was alone, scared and I put on a brave face and was removing myself into my make believe world for a little while to cope. I was trying to deal with a difficult situation and the black whole I saw before me if something bad had happened.

So silent don't ever scare me like that again. I love you with everything I have and I never want feel so alone and scared ever again.