honeyme's blog post - Time

A year ago I was at the height of my photo posting frenzy. It became almost an addiction. I was never before quite as aware of my body, it's curves, it's sensuality and even its flaws. The summer of 2015 will always be a period of enlightenment.

And then one day, I stopped just as suddenly as I started.

Is my life so dramatically different now than then? Not at all. Certain areas are better. I've more real life people in my world. I'm happy and fulfilled and content. But I'd not say I was uncontent or unhappy last year.

One thing I do know, 2015 was a year of massive change. I left the world I'd known for so long behind, I had a number of concerns I was hiding from and I think what I'll now call my NN summer was a hiding place where I gained the confidence to face life head on again.

I took some pictures yesterday. I'm fascinated and amused at the change in my body. Losing significant numbers of pounds brings a healthiness all of its own. I'm still curvy, I'm still big boobed, I'm still me and I've still an eye for the artistic. But something seems missing currently. There was a braveness, an openness, a sassiness about me that isn't there now. With my calm and my peace with the world I've lost a little 'Fuck You world this is me'

I will decide one day to come back with fresh photos and a fresh perspective, but for now I'm happy in my world with nothing to prove. But I'll never stop being proud of who I was last year, and those photos deserve to be seen as a period of my life where NN gave me something special, the power to just be me.