Probably the lowest form of life is the liar, you know the type, the one that will promise the moon, or say what you want to hear knowing full well whatever it is it wont be delivered or cant be or say whatever someone wants to hear knowing full well it isnt at all true

Then theres the fool, now dont hate the fool, they believe the liar and have no reason not to, they become blinded with words and false promises and when the liar pats itself on the back so does the fool
and when the liar needs protection from its own tangled web the fool becomes the shield of protection
Be careful the liar is ok with being caught and just moves on in search of new fools, its the fool that has to carry on in shame for looking stupid and being the shield

One year ago today Sugar came here to be with me, and SHE STAYED!! lol thats right folks the girl has put up with me for 365 days now how awesome is that, Seriously though its been a great year and I can only hope for many more....Happy Anniversary Sug

12 years ago today I was sitting in a local diner when I got a call that would change my world forever the voice on the other end simply said 'hey did you hear big R died this morning', now to say I was in shock would be an understatement, to this day I remember not saying a word just closing the call getting up and walking out of the diner I have no idea of who the caller even was I dont remember driving home the next thing I remember is walking into my parents house as if it were a dream, I yelled for them and they immediatly ran into the living room to see me standing at their front door my Dad asked me "son whats wrong" I remember hearing myself say " its big R dad hes dead" then dropping to my knees crying like I never knew possible, later they told me the two of them sat in the floor with me for about 2 hours the 3 of us cried and tried to make sense of it all. I was raised hard and taught some very dillusional lessons one of them being that men dont cry I found out on that day how wrong that lesson really was sometimes its all we have to help cope with such things and its better than some of the other options as a young man I did as an escape from pain and suffering. lifes short and can end in an instant and if I could talk to R one more time I know the first thing I would want to say to him is I love you my brother, dont let friends or family leave you before you end up like me tell them now, just do it, pick up the phone or send a text, e=mail whatever but do it now and dont wait another minute I wish I hadnt so now all I can do is regret it....to my brother "Big R" I love you my dear friend and always will until we meet again RIP....Hillbilly

As some of you might already know Sug LOVES Halloween and everything about it the spiders (fake of course) ghosts witches you know so in the spirit of all the hoopla she decided today that it would be (her opinion not mine) Awesome to paint Sturgis' toenails ORANGE!!! thats right Sturgis my little 4 pound pure hell mess with the bull get the horns biker pup now has painted nails >.< and in true Sugar form as soon as she saw the look on my face she giggles and says ''OOH wait till Christmas I ordered him some antlers''......*facepalm*

16 Days from today will mark a major milestone in my life, October 12 will be Sug and myselfs 1 year Anniversary one year she made the 14 hour journey to be here with me and to also escape the hell she had previously called her life,I'll not waste my time or energy touching that vile subject as its nothing more than lies deception and habitual denial on the other partys part I'll also not refer to that as a person nor a man its just not proper or fitting, lets just go with disgusting that fits, recent decline in responses to blogs statuses etc shows Im not the only one to see it for what it really is, small weak and at its best and roaring the loudest when cowering behind its computer screen...pfft pathetic little creature, others may find your words intimidating but rest assured Id go through 3 of you just to get to a good bar fight...thats a fact. now on to the present,I had no idea what true love was until Sugar came to me, I had heard people talk of feeling loved but really never felt it until now,I never had the desire to put someone first in my life before all things and people until now, Ive been very blessed in life and please dont take this as me bragging if you know me you wont anyway but Ive been fortunate in life to have a very successful bike business and also a home improvement business,my home is paid for and also a home in the country,Ive been able to afford a home for my parents as well but all this means nothing to me now that I have love and a special lady to be in love with, My happiness before her came from looking at bank numbers but now Im at my best on the porch sharing a cup of coffee with her or taking a long drive to nowhere, This site is made of some very amazing folks and Ive been blessed with some of them calling me their friend Ive also lost some friends met here yet their not forgotten and thought of often and to them I also hope for nothing but the best for them, Love me or hate me thats not for me to decide, friend or foe better or worse it all comes down to choices we make good or bad but I believe peace cant be found until peace is made just like love cant be had until love is shown. I love Sugar now and for eternity I will always be at her side ready to fight for and with her thats me, Friends never hesitate to call text e mail whatever if in anyway I can help you or if you just want to chat about all the finer points of nothing Im here waiting to hear from you all.until next time this is the ol Hillbilly sayin peace love and laters to you all

So over the last few weeks Ive been getting to know someone, Ive known them for some time now but never really taken the time to stop and really listen to the story they had to tell until recently.
Seems that his life has been quite interesting or at least I think so, He told me of a time in his life when he struggled long and hard with a terrible addiction but somehow managed to beat it,
Survived a stroke,beat some pretty slim odds of a normal life from early childhood,has seen extreme highs in life as well as devistating lows
If youd ever see him in public youd occasionally see him look down at his feet as he walks or notice a slight limp now and then, its not from habit or the feeling of intimidation by people around him,no its because he has lost all the feeling in his right leg and most of the feeling in the left foot as well,can you imagine walking with your feet feeling as numb as your face does after being at the Dentist?,must be tough but he'll tell you 'hey at least its not my hands I can still work'
One thing he loves is his motorcycles and he even figured out a way to somewhat hook his toe under the brake pedal so his numb foot wont fall off the foot peg and maybe cause him to wreck
He doesnt talk much about traveling but did mention he had once gone to Canada and spent much or should I say ALL his time there in Customs but thats a whole other story lol
He lost his Dad to cancer in 07,has whats left of his Mother after she basically gave up after losing the only man she ever loved
He'll tell you he has no siblings but his Mom has 2 daughters,go figure
He'd give you his last dollar if he thought you needed it and at the same time wont hesitate to put a pool stick to the side of somebodys head
He has a certain circle of friends that have a zero tolerance for bullshit and that seems to fit him well too
Tell him he 'cant' do something then get the hell outta his way and watch him go,an exwife said that once when he said he was going to build a house,he still lives in that same house today,was told about 6 years ago due to his medical condition he'd never work again by a Doctor yet he still owns and operates two pretty successful businesses, I wonder what the people that told him as a kid growing up that he would never amount to anything think of him now? or if they even remember saying those words or have any idea of the impact it made on a boy from a small town whose parents did the best they could to provide for their kids...Does he have hard feelings towards those people? Hell no! He thanks them for making him fight that much harder to prove them wrong and making him the man he is today.
If he ever speaks of lost friends or fallen brothers he talks with conviction and doesnt care that his voice becomes a little shakey and maybe a tear runs down his face because he's speaking from his heart
Ya gotta laugh sometimes when people see him in stores etc and will leave plenty room when passing by and try not to make eye contact due to how he looks or maybe the clothes he chooses to wear then he might hold the door for them or insist they go ahead of him in line or such and then they tend to have a real confused look on thier faces
He's a simple man to him "shoes" mean "black boots" isnt too picky about his clothes, jeans are suppose to be blue and shirts,jackets vests whatever are black,cigarettes mean Winston and motorcycle means Harley and a lighter isnt diposable you just replace the flint or refill it with Ronsonal when needed, simple right?
Every scar has a story and most all of them start either with "one time we were on a poker run" or "We were all out drinkin one night" and then it unfolds from there lol
He loves his country, believes in god,respects others as well as himself and loves his friends one of which is weighing heavy on his heart at the moment
He is about to celebrate two very important life changing events next month,one is rather personal and self centered but it makes him proud anyway and thats the fact that in october he will celebrate one year alcohol free,thats right 365 days without a drink,,the other is the one year anniversary with the woman he loves and adores beyond any comprehension and without bonderies
Theres a lot more I could tell you about him but after a while of reading it just kinda gets,well you know, but if youd like to know more, need someone to talk to,need free advice lol, or just wanna talk about all there is to know about nothing look him up he's usually around,just ask for Howlin or as some know him "Hillbilly" oh and thanks for listening

One Million Muslims marching on Washington, THIS hallowed day....'Bout to meet TWO MILLION Bikers representing our FREEDOM while honoring the fallen of 911......

Most of us already know this, some claim to know this, some just never will.