kittykats1's blog post - Bye bye baby

I have been pretty busy and preoccupied the past few days, not much time for fun & games. Our son who is 8 years old will be leaving Friday morning to go on a week-long cruise with my parents. We have only been apart for a week once before and that was when he was very very little, when my husband and I went on a cruise ourselves.

I am already feeling bereft when I know I shouldn't. I have been telling him how much fun he will have etc, eventhough he will be away. He didn't want to leave us behind at first but I managed to change his mind. Then came the paperwork. So much paperwork for a child to travel without their parents. Had to get special forms notarized, signed by both my hubby and I giving my folks permission to take him out of the US. Then the medical stuff and the passport all ready to go, so it is now a matter of sorting thru his stuff and packing his suitcase and carry-on. He is excited and worried at the same time. Last night we were watching tv, he and I, and I look up to see him crying. I asked him what was wrong and he said he would be sad being away from us and that 7 days was a long time. He is such a stoic child most of the time, seeing him look so sad made me want to start crying myself. He crawled into my lap and just wept while I rocked him and told him all of the wonderful things he would see and do, and that Daddy and I were only a cell phone call away if he needed to talk to us. I just rocked him and stroked his hair - my little guy who at 8 is almost as tall as me, and who at age 10 will probably be taller than me (I am pretty damn short). After I calmed him down and put him to bed I thought about him being gone for the week and what I was going to do to occupy the time. My day revolves around being a mom and my son's schedule, so it will be very strange to be able to make my own schedule. I have a banquet and show coming up that I need to work on so that will probably consume most of my time. That and the usual daily routine of care of the cattery should keep me busy and not dwelling so much on my little one's absence.

My husband says we have to learn to let go sometime, that he is getting older and is starting to want some measure of independance, but is mommy ready for it? I would be lying if I said I was. I guess the one positive thing about being kid-less for a week is being able to fuck whenever and wherever you please lol. I know there will come a day in the not so distant future that my kid will be mortified to be seen in public with 'mom' so I guess I just want to grab and hold onto as much as I can before that day comes. They just grow up so damn fast....

Puurrs to all,


Currently listening to: System Of A Down "Lost In Hollywood"