kittykats1's blog post - sometimes I do stupid things...

I admit it. I do stupid shit at times. Things that really make me sit back and question my intelligence (or lack thereof).

Three days ago I hurt my back. I wasn't lifting anything heavy or anything like that; I was in my car lying on my side trying to reach for something shoved under the drivers seat. Somehow I managed to pull something. When I stood up it felt like a glass of ice water had been poured down my left arm to my hand and the pain from my neck to under my shoulder blade was horrible. It hurt to breathe! Hmmmm. Not good. I still don't have a clue as to what I did to fuck myself up. I am used to working my muscles - I work out with weights 3 - 4 times a week and I am quite flexible, but I must have strained something in a way it didn't like, cuz I am hurting. That was Stupid Thing #1.

Now for Stupid Thing #2. I was horny last night. Yep. I let my hooha do the thinking for me rather than the brain. It sounded really good at the time and it felt really good at the time. Until I came. I was feeling nice and blissed out while hubby was going down on me and when I had an orgasm it was shocking. Shockingly pleasurable and then PAINFUL. I had forgotten how much my back arches and my body twitches when I orgasm, and my god it felt like I was kicked in the back. What started out as whimpers and moans of pleasure turned into whimpers and moans of pain. I not only got a most excellent orgasm, but a muscle spasm in my back, too. Yippee!

Ready for Stupid Thing #3?

I had him go down on me again.

What a dumb shit I am. My pussy wanted more and it overrode my brain which was desperately trying to convince my body that it was a bad bad idea, that it hurt like a motherfucker and just might hurt again. Did I listen to my brain? No. I listened to my clit. I should have known better; my clit is very selfish and cares only about it's needs, unlike my poor brain who is thoughtful and cautious. The brain lost and the clit won. So guess what happens then? Another orgasm! And another big ole back spasm!!! The second one was worse than the first and I was in major pain till the spasm subsided. My husband was getting really concerned and wanted to stop but that led me to Stupid Thing #4: I told him to fuck me.

I know it was the last thing I should have done, but I had a momentary lapse of reason and did it anyhow. I know my hubby was having second thoughts but I insisted and kept insisting, so he got to work. After the first 2 minutes I realised what a horrible mistake it was but I didn't stop it (Stupid Thing #5) and just kept going. Every thrust was agony and when he finished I was in tears. It wasn't his fault it was mine. I was stupid and greedy and didn't listen to what my body (and brain) was trying to tell me and I paid for it. I spent an agonizing 15 minutes waiting for the painkillers to kick in so I could go xxxxxxxxxxx and forget the pain in my body. My poor husband was trying to soothe me and was rubbing a numbing ointment into the muscle in my back that had tightened up - it was like a hard lump on my back - while I lay there in tears silently berating myself until I slipped off into lala land. I don't know if he came to bed or not, but I woke up around 3:30am and the painkiller had worn off and I was hurting so bad I actually got out of bed and threw up. Lovely. I had forgotten that pain at times can make you nauseous. I crawled back into bed and tried to find a comfortable position to lay so I could sleep but it didn't happen. I just shifted around in misery for a couple hours till my body gave up and conked out from exhaustion.

I got up just a bit ago and I look like hammered shit. Big dark circles under my eyes. Ugh. And tired. So tired. Drugged sleep is not refreshing in the least, so I look as if I haven't slept for days. I am a mess. A stupid mess. A lot of this could have been avoided if I hadn't been so cock hungry and stupid.

I hope all of you will learn from my mistakes and not ever let your crotch do the thinking, cuz it will get you in trouble. It certainly got me into trouble. Now I am going to limp off to a hot shower. Maybe that will help me. My hubby is gonna have to wash my hair for me and my back since I can't seem to move very well or reach my left arm higher than my shoulder.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive