kittykats1's blog post - Back to square one

I am back to square one now, what a drag.

A while back I got an IUD. According to my doc it was the answer to my prayers, it would deliver me from the miseries I had been experiencing monthly since going off the Pill. I embraced the IUD like the savior it was; rescuing me from grinding cramps, bleeding to the point of anemia and laying ill and unwell in bed for days at a time. It was either this or go back on the Pill, which I really didn't want. Yes I know this is terribly un-sexy but it has been an aspect of my life that I have been battling for a very long time, so it's a part of me like it or not.

The Mirena IUD was put in and I was highly pleased to see that it did work as it was supposed to and pretty much instantly. My periods became almost nonexistant and I had zero cramps and other yuckies. It was great. I was thrilled. My body however maybe not so much...

Little things were starting to happen, like strange pains here and there. Random spotting that would just appear and poof! be gone or last for days. Then the last few months it's like I woke up one morning and my uterus had mutinied. It wanted the IUD OUT and it wanted it out NOW. It tried every trick in the book: piddling periods that were hardly of any merit except they lasted for 12 fucking days, turning my cycle into a total guessing game. Making it impossible to determine when my period would come and really putting a cramp in our social calendar swinging-wise. My cycles would run anywhere from 19 days to 30 days between periods, and they would come without warning. Oh and the absolute worst? The dry pussy. I just could not handle that one. I am a girl with a constantly moist pussy. It is not uncommon for me to change my panties several times a day and leave big soppy wet puddles during sex. The IUD fucked me over bigtime, in that regard.

I threw in the towel and had it pulled out a couple weeks ago and am now back to start. My period started yesterday with a vengeance, same as it ever was. It is a misery. A painful, bloated, messy misery. My options have dwindled to nil; I either suffer or go back on the Pill, which I don't want to do after having such nasty side affects, or have some gruesome medeival-sounding procedure that entails cauterizing the lining of my uterus that may or may not work to ease my periods. I am basically damned if I do and damned if I don't. This is why I have been so non-present here, lately. I just haven't had the energy for it. Not for the forums, or contemplating taking new pics and barely paying attention to my blog. I have been at loggerheads with my uterus for weeks now and I guess it won. What a bitch.


Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Ultravox "Vienna"