kittykats1's blog post - Someone please explain.....

The funeral was yesterday. (it's 2:00am, Saturday morning) I fell into bed as soon as we got home. I woke up a bit ago and now I can't sleep. All I can say is it was an utterly bizarre and confusing day. I keep trying to make sense of it all but I can't seem to. I actually feel oddly numb. I didn't cry once. What is wrong with me? Why do I feel so strange and hollow? Why was everyone around me weeping but I was just staring off into space and wishing I was a million miles away? I don't know why I feel so disassociated and it scares me. The whole day all I could think of was "I want to go home and go to sleep." I was desperate to do that and now after crawling into my bed and succumbing to the exhaustion, I am stuck here - awake and unable to go back to sleep. WTF?

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: The hum of my hard drive