mwm_wis's blog post - Being anally erotic for as long as I can remember!

I was thinking the other day about my desires for anal pleasure and how I got them. It wasn't from reading about it. It wasn't from seeing it in porn. it wasn't from hearing anyone talk about it... I ALWAYS was an anal explorer!

From the moment I entered puberty I have had desires for anal penetration. I don't know why. It seems it was a natural inclination. I remember looking for things to try up my butt from 12 or 13 years old. I never even knew the term "anal sex" or heard anything about it. I just knew I wanted to explore everything erotic about my body.

I remember fingering myself, but I mostly remember finding objects. I can recall having fun with an oscar mayer hot dog... the sensation of the cold meat (it was fresh from the refridgerator) was very stimulating.

I remember an empty plastic toothpaste container (when they had these tubeular , upright , counter style products. It was arrousing to feel it bigger size. I also remember using a vibrator with it (I snitched my parents big, old electric back massager!)That was fun!

I remember being in our basement and trying to get in the handle of a plastic oar from a blow up raft we had. The end was nice and round. The diameter of the handle was bigger than anything I have had tried before and it was exciting as hell to try to get it in! I recall the effort, some pain and learning how to relax to try and get it to go in... but what I really remeber is when it finally slipped in! OMG!!! It was such a turn on!

Funny, but I don't remember maintaining regular anal fun in High School or College. I do remeber an occassional craving and finding some object to put in me, but it wasn't until after college and I had the privacy of my own apartment, did I really have my anal fun and exploration take off! Some days I couldn't wait to get home from work and spend the night fucking myself with new objects of my creation!

I made my own dildos out of clay and made molds from plaster to cast them out of a casting wax. I remeber shopping for cuccumber of differnt sizes to spend an evening going bigger and bigger. I recall trying different shapes... making a dildo with a very big ball shaped head.

This woman I started seeing, who lived in my aprtment building, ended up finding my stash of toys. It freaked her out. She thought I had to be gay to like anal. She wanted me to stop.. and I actually did for quite a while... but the urges come back and I secretly endulged. I ended up marrying her and I do it in secret to this day. I think anal will always be a part of me. Wish she could know and approve of it! And even share the experiences with me.