Coconut Cream Filled Dark Chocolate X-Rated Pussy Cakes
Spicy Dark Chocolate Cupcakes with Coconut Cream Cheese Filling

This cupcake consists of three main parts- the chocolate batter, the cream batter, and the marzipan decoration. This recipe is from eGullet, straight out of the hands of a wonderful recipe craftsman, Nightscotsman. Recipe also found at eGullet.




For Chocolate Cake:
Just mix up all these ingredients till smooth.

3 cups cake flour
2/3 cup cocoa
2 tsp baking soda
2 cups sugar
1 tsp salt
2 cups coconut milk
1/2 cup + 2 Tbs veg. oil, or butter or margarine
1 Tbs vanilla
2 Tbs vinegar
Don’t worry about overmixing. Batter will be quite liquid if vegetable oil is used as the fat.

Grate into the chocolate batter 2oz of Dagoba’s spicy Xocolatl dark chocolate bar. This is a wonderful chocolate that has a slight bite of chili peppers and little crunchy bits of cocoa nib. If this can’t be found, just add the slightest pinch of your favorite chili powder, or cayenne to your chocolate batter.

For Coconut Cream Cheese filling:
beat together till smooth

12 oz cream cheese - room temp
2 eggs
1/2 cup sugar
1 cup of sweetened coconut
1/2 tsp of almond flavoring
pop the filling into the refidgerator to firm up slightly.

Put paper liners in muffin tins. Fill each with 2 Tbs of chocolate batter. Top with a generous 1 Tbs blob of filling, and top with more chocolate batter. Fill the cupcake wrappers 2/3 of the way full.

Pop into a 350F oven for 25 minutes or until a toothpick tester comes out clean.

Let cupcakes cool completely and now contemplate your top decorations.

The key here is pink food coloring, marzipan dough, shades of toasted coconut, a couple simple sculpture tools, some vegetable oil, and a patient partner to tell you when you’ve got things right.





(-was looking for Lovitts no knead bread!!!)

Damn Damn Damn. I hate to get behind on everyone's blogs cause I really like to know what everyone is up to. Cause NN has become my new family of sorts. Sometimes illness brings some people closer together, and other times it rips them apart. Unfortunately I fall into the latter. And sometimes I cry about it, but most times I try to be proactive and luckily I have found new family and friends. And for that, I am blessed.
And probably the best thing about my NN family is that they don't leave me behind. Sometimes if you can't just "stick your nose up somebody's ass" (pardon my French (why do we blame the French!)) anyway!!... if you don't then they leave you behind. But my friends don't leave me behind here. They understand. And I feel so fortunate.

Trying my best to regain strength. And really really hope I can catch up soon. But to everyone, I wish you a great week ahead. And thanks for being such wonderful people!!!

Checking in to say hello. Really hope that everyone has had a good week. And is looking forward to a good weekend.

I am finally emerging from the disinhibition which lead to an enormous amount of sleep, but nice to be recovering.

Special thanks to my well wishers, friends, and confidants. Your encouragement is priceless. Hope to catch up soon.

Take care of yourselves, and happy perving!!

Rough time for Lyme as of late. Horrible..I mean horrible relapse. But doing the best I can to shake it off. Was trying too hard to get my moving underway, so best that I take all things down a notch for a while.

But I do try to laugh about things like this. I mean..really I don't know what else to do. And any of the following: taking meds incorrectly, missing sleep, overexertion, all of the above can make me a brand new person. However, I not sure how well I like her!!

For example. She really like teens and twentysomethings. She has told me, "In my health I don't have time to make a real play for a man." And at my age (45), younger men are the solution. They don't want to fall in love; they just want pussy. Period." I responded that I felt that the logic may be flawed but to no avail. So after an excruciating two weeks I was so tired that she broke free of me, and I am still hoping that the residents of nursing home in front of the apartments did not see her bending across the television in order to get a better angle for the cam the other night.




Yep!! Need just a few more days of sleep!! Hope everyone is well!!

Alpina wrote recently about how she had recently reviewed all her blogs entries and commented how proud she was of what she had written. Of course, I'm happy for her and glad that she has found value in what she has created. And it's given me the encouragement to start writing about the things that are important to me. At some point, I decided short, sweet and perky may be better than my serious "preachy" manner. But honestly it bores me to death and can barely stand it anymore.

It's not a terribly important decision on my part though. My health continues to go up and down, up and down, so it's not like I'll ever be able to write with any regularity. And goodness knows, I'm not a writer. I was supposed to become a university geography instructor, so the things I was required to write about doesn't exactly make good blog fodder. I happen to remember that the last paper I wrote in college was entitled, "Site Selection for Sewage Systems in Coastal Environments." And no!!!..a pocket protector has never been part of my wardrobe.

However I wanted anyone to know that if you happened to see ABC's 20/20 last Friday (Sick in America) that the facts were tremendously distorted. The reporter for this story also did a guest column in the Washington Post recently entitled "Sick Sob Stories" which was not only cruel but again inaccurate. It's people/stories like this which has made me feel so ashamed for so long now, and because I was so foolish I probably missed many good opportunities in my life. But thankfully I'm getting over it. I know that I did everything in my power to seek medical help, worked all that I possibly could including 2 jobs at times even when sick, and lived so frugally that most Americans in my position would probably have taken their own lives. And yes...been treated like some "sob story con" so many times that I stopped counting. However, some way some how I am not going to be a victim of this system.

Single payor healthcare?? Of course I have a lot to say about it. And if there is anyone out there reading, I hope you will look for me and stick with me. My take on this topic may surprise you. But one thing is for sure. You'll read things here that you will never hear on the news.

I care about you. I care about your family; your friends. So I really hope that I can be somehow helpful.

(I'll be glad to write about sex, but somebodys got to cough up some air fare!!!)

This time I have to give "props" to my alma mater, Appalachian State. App is a small university located in the northwest corner of North Carolina in the Blue Ridge Mountains. Never thought any national attention would come our way, but as you can see below that all changed last week.








And thanks to Appalachian State, the AP Poll will now accept votes for division IAA schools.

Can't believe. Almost another week gone. Once again..just awake for a meal and pills. Still sleeping in my freakish way.

But I did go shopping on Sunday and Monday since I now am employed...sort of. It absolutely killed me, but worth it.

Hope to feel better soon. But for all of you...I miss you. And hope you are well.

Oh geez...where did the last week go??!! Time goes by so quickly these days. Always gives me this tremendous sense of urgency to think about it, but the continuing need for sleep is an effective countermeasure.

Been a few times that I almost had myself convinced that I had contracted African sleeping sickness. Of course I knew it was impossible. But me being me...had to reread about the illness again to make myself feel better.

This week started wonderfully, but became a little rocky as it progressed. But the unexpected at least is now not such a big issue. Therefore I think I'll be able to sleep all weekend, and do it quite comfortably. My testimony was quite impressive (if I do say so myself!!), and I now will be paid for several years of work as well as my monthly benefit until things change. Must rest so I can go shopping!!!

Enjoy your weekend!!!

Not sure exactly what confusing thing I said about NOT blogging, but it's not the plan. But I sleep so much and have so little time, that I may would have to take a week or two or three just to get a few good pics. I've always wanted NN certification and haven't given up on the idea yet.

Still sleeping a lot, but may as well since my hearing draws near. My lawyer and I got into again for oh the third time in two weeks and probably need to sleep just so we can stay out of each other's hair. Should have fired him three months ago, but they don't make it easy to fire a disability attorney. And this was the only thing that saved my case for him (of course in his mind he'll probably be glad to get rid of me just as I will be of him).

So back to bed. Everyone please have a lovely weekend.

(And G...you know the "~~~"....reminds me of the raspberry
filling. YUM!!

I am lucky these days in that I have 2 ladies that come to my home to help with things. "Boo" is my home health assistant...about my age...and thankfully we have many similar interests. One being that she's a clean freak which means my home has almost returned to what I would call normal. We've become fast friends, and I'm terribly thankful for that. If you like you can check out her birthday message to me on my voice greeting because believe me was the best part of my birthday.

Taylor is my Community Support worker, and also the baby. Recent grad from the University of Virginia, and plotting her next move to take over the world. She's taking a year off to recoup financially and to prepare for law school admissions. She is incredibly intelligent, but absolutely clueless of the extent of her capabilities. But really it's charming because I'm sure everything will fall into place for her in good time. Thre great things is that she will be handling my transition to Charlotte. And I am thrilled to know that such a competent person will be advocating for me.

These ladies are truly angels, and are slowly getting things in my life headed in a more positive direction. And it couldn't have happened at a better time. Yesterday I had an appointment in Charlotte with my new Lyme doctor, and he said from now on I needed to be seen once a month at minimum. So now the move to Charlotte has become a necessity rather than my preference.

The need for having 2 people to come in and assist I believe is quite telling about my health. Which leads me to a blog I read recently in which the person almost seemed apologetic for not having a recent sexual encounter to tell about. And all I could think is where does that leave me? I haven't had sex in years; so long in fact that I can't put a precise date on the last time. But thankfully I do not feel "less than" because of it. I could make excuses because of my health, but the doctors have never said that I am somehow unable to have sex. I do feel that cam to cam is the best thing in ages that has happened to people who are sick and/or handicapped, but slowly even this option has become a problem. Lately I'm getting "booty called" too much. I'm sure I wouldn't mind as much if I had more time on my hands, but that's just not the case. So I feel if I let the "booty callers" have too much time, then I could be missing out on finding a more fulfilling relationship. So guess I will just have to continue to mull this one over until I can come up with a reasonable solution. It may mean relinquishing blog time for pic taking time because granted I'm not putting myself out there much these days.

You know this is the one thing that I hate about my life. Constantly having to make decisions about the allotment of time when time is scarce and responsibilities are numerous. It sucks...but I guess for the time being I just have to roll with it.

Here's to having fun.