I've decided to upload some 'before' pics. I'm going to be changing my hair as soon as I know what to do with it, and I'm going to be doing a lot of manscaping too. The time of slacking is over. The time of sexy is begun .

Oh, and if anyone has suggestions for what to do with my hair, or anything they want to see, don't hesitate to beg wildly.

I've found my self more and more often playing with my ass. It started with just a few scratches, but more and more came, and soon, just this week in fact, I started pressing my fingers inside, enjoying how tight I felt, how big my fingers were. I can feel my ass itch when I'm horny, and more so when I'm horny around a boy I like. There's only 2, and only one could ever even remotely be an option, but no such luck as he works way too much, but the point stands. Mmm, I kinda wish it was right now, pressing into me. I have to say that I was inspired by the blog of a dear friend and lover, one which someday I hope I will get to experience, not just at all, but by her. So I sit here typing, two fingers pressed against my hole, pushing deep, being held back only by my pajama pants. I love how they feel. When oh when will I have someone nice inside me?

In the end, what I want is a companion, someone(s) to be on the adventure of life with, and not in a short term superficial way. In the begining though what I want is someone(s) to talk to. I get that it's hard for some people, for all sorts of good and bad reasons, but it's something I, for lack of a better term, need. Someone(s) with whom I can share how I think and feel, and not just feel listened to but who can be in conversation with me. Someone(s) who I can listen to and be there for and help as I am able. Reciprocation, social equality.

But it's more than just that, as most all things are. I want someone(s) who, like me, feels that people are not a thing to be owned. This is not to say that those who wish to be shouldn't, more that until such is said no assumptions should be made. I don't want to be reprimanded for feelings I have that come to me in a flash faster than I can think, I'd rather be able to talk them out and see what might happen, regardless of outcome. Do I want someone(s) to be stable with? Most definitely, but I don't think it could be just one. Most preferable I would be in a group of 4, 2 of each. Playing as we chose with who we chose, knowing that there is a difference between fun, intimacy and devotion.

I'm tired of being afraid of loss you see. As some know and others can tell it's something that weighs on me far more heavily than it should. So instead of letting it crush me I want what causes it gone. I want the jealousy gone from me. It's not yet, not fully, but no one said it would be easy. Relaxing is easy though, more so than worrying once you can remember how.

So that, here at the end again, is what I want. Someone(s) relaxed, open, willing to communicate and not afraid to find out, or who already knows, what it's like without all that pain and fear. Everything else, from hobbies to favourites, even all the way to opinions, all of that is just perquisite.

At first it was intense. Like a void inside me that I couldn't fill. I tried to ignore the pain, there was nothing I could do to make it go away. Slowly the fire died away, the hole seemed smaller. It isn't, it just seems that way, I can deal with it better. Now it's just a pinch in my chest that won't go away. I can't forget about it, I can't move it around or hide it. It doesn't hurt as bad, but it won't stop, not for anything. I miss you so much. I don't want to rush you, I don't want to worry you, I really am 'ok'. But waiting will always be painful, even when it's for something as stupid as a deadline. But no matter how much it hurts I won't stop waiting for you. You are more than worth any pain I can cause myself. I love you, that's all I can say. I do hope you see this.

Like I said I'm a complex person and those buttons don't mean as much as I'd like them to. I may be male but I don't fit regular social types. I'm looking for a companion, but I don't want to ever stop having fun, sexy and otherwise, adventures. I've a life to live and I don't see a reason to. I sometimes think a lot (too much some say) but I like to think it helps me figure out what to do. It doesn't always, and I get that. I'm a kinda' classic nerd boy and I love to write, but that doesn't mean I don't want to get in and great naughty time. I love pleasing women, and now and again the right type of man. If you're looking for simple, avoid me. It's safest that way. Oh yeah, and I'm a cautious safe guy, in so much as I don't want anyone for any reason I can think to get hurt. Fun is fun, some pain is fun, most pain isn't and I won't tolerate it.

EV:

The last half an hour had been pretty damned intense. I mean we'd gone there with the expectation of fucking while Jason watched us and pleasured himself, sure, but what had just happened was beyond fantastic.

We all laid back & relaxed in the enormous tub. Jason switched on some soothing bubbles & plied us with drinks.

We chatted & swapped stories about past adventures & fantasy fucks. The water was very comforting & even perhaps sleep inducing but, it didn't stop as all from getting hornier & hornier as we talked.

I 'happened' to mention <winks> that I'd never has a double penetration. I knew you hadn't done that before either and that it was something we both liked the idea of.
Surprisingly Jason hadn't done it either & was *very* enthusiastic about seeing what it was like.

So I had to choose: which one for my pussy & which one for my ass...hmmm...decisions, decisions.....

On the one hand I liked the idea of straddling you, your cock in my throbbing pussy and being able to look at your face and kiss you while Jason worked his magic from behind.

On the other hand though, I *knew* you were a considerate lover when it came to my ass & I knew your cock fit me perfectly. I wasn't so sure about Jason in either matter.

Gah! What a decision!

Jason suggested we relocate to his bedroom because it would make getting into the right positions easier.
We complied & followed him to his equally luxurious bedroom kitted out with a huge (of course) Super-Kingside bed. Jason didn't do anything 'small'

You lay down on your back, your skin still glowing from the warm water & the glorious fuck you'd just had. Long wet hair spilling everywhere.
Even Jason comments on how gorgeous you look.

I climb onto your waiting cock, look into your beautiful intense eyes & my mouth devours yours.
I'd decided I wanted it this way, so that the intimacy would be between you & I. And *we* could enjoy this new exciting experience together.

I slide up & down on your cock, savouring every moment. If that's all that was going to happen, it would be pleasure enough.

I can feel movement on the bed behind me, my pussy tenses with the excitment & anticipation.
The heat of Jason's fine body was giving away just how close he is.

I moan when I feel his lips kiss each cheek.
I can't help clenching when his finger starts to explore my hole, my pussy clenching down on your cock too. Your face tells me how much you love that.
Jason carefully inserts one, then two lubed fingers & continues exploring & stretching. I'm starting to relax now & it feels soooo good.
"Do you want more?" he asks.

"Yesssss" we both reply.

Jason's third finger meets much less resistance than the first two. He deftly works my greedy asshole while you work my pussy so damned good.

"You liking this, love?" you ask me smiling.

All I can do to reply is "mnmngmngng".

Jason removes his fingers & suddenly I feel quite empty. Not for long though. He quickly replaces the void with the head of his spectacular cock.

Ok....so this is it.......

As Jason's cock slides in, I can't help but cry out with pleasure.
It feels good, fucking unbelievably good. I feel so incredibly full and the dual stroking sensations against the walls of my pussy were unreal!!

He starts to fuck my hole & boy does he ever?!
Both of you have joined me in a chorus of moaning & whimpering because you can feel each other's cocks rubbing each other through my walls.

I don't think any of us will keep this up very long, I for one, can't quite believe what I'm feeling is real, it's sooo amazing.

I warn you both that I'm on the verge of cumming, I can't hold it off any longer. And when my orgasm does explode, it triggers yours & Jason's like dominoes.

Both Jason & I collapse onto the bed either side of you. Hot, sweaty & verrry satiated.
Frankly, I think we're all a bit shellshocked.

When I recover my power of speech (which does take a while) I say to you "Sweetie.....I *like* Jason, can we keep him?"

QT:
Jason looks over at you, then across you at me. His eyes are full of desire and uncertainty. "Well," he begins, and his words are interrupted by a noise from the front room, like someone coming in the front door. "that would be who you need to ask about that now." For a moment you and I are confused, until she walks in. She' covered in a well fitting business suit that is almost falling from her body into a pile not unlike ours. Her hair is only just longer than Jason's and jet black and spiked backward. Her eyes lock on yours, then mine.

"Who might these be?" she asks pulling her blouse and skirt off and tossing them into the pile, leaving her in only long dark hose, a garter belt, black lace panties and a black lace bra. Her breasts weren't nearly as large as yours, maybe a small B, which didn't stop her from maintaining a small hour glass of a figure.

"Sam, this is Q and EV, that couple I told you about. They came over to play." Both of our cocks began to stiffen watching her undress, and soon one of her hands was around each.

"And do they play nice?" Her words drift like warm wind over your tender mound moments before she wraps your hot sex in a tender yet hungry kiss. She keeps us firmly in hand, stroking both hard cocks as she losses herself in you.

As if a collective moan was not enough to answer her question Jason finally responds "Yes, they do. EV just asked if she could keep me."

"Not without me she can't." She buries her face in your pussy, tongue pushing deep inside you as she sucks on your clit and lips. "Q honey, how about you fuck me while snack on your lovely lady friend." I don't need to be told twice. I kiss her before moving behind her, rubbing my cock against her soaked panties. I take her wet mound in my mouth, sucking and licking her flavour from the fabric and her skin. I look up to see you tongue deep in Jason's mouth, his hands massaging your breasts. I smile at the scene before me, pulling aside Sam's panties and sliding my hard cock inside her, begining to pound her hot pussy.

Sam moans into your tender sex, and with a jerk of Jason's cock pulls him away from you. For a moment you are left wanting, until you see where he's going. His hands rest on my shoulders and for a moment we just stare into each others eyes. I know what he's going to do and I just bite my lip and nod. He pushes my ass toward Sam, holding me deep inside her as his cock slowly slides up my ass. It's big and it hurts but it feels so damn good. Slowly we regain our rhythm, he fucking me, me fucking her, her eating you. I cum hard inside her hot pussy, gasping and moaning, but am unable to stop, Jason keeping me in rhythm. I know you cum too, your face lost in the ecstasy of her touch and the view before you. Sam is soon to follow, but Jason stays strong, eyeing the three of us as we collapse on his bed.

"D'you think we should?" I reply.
"He might be hot...." you say breaking off briefly from the sweet kisses.
"And he could also be a serial killer, preying on horny couples!" I laugh.
"But he might be hot....the cologne on the card smelt really good...."
I can feel your cock swelling against me again.
"You really want this don't you sweetie" I say smiling at his physical reaction to the conversion.
You murmer in agreement whilst kissing me harder. No words are needed your arousal is saying it all.

........

A couple of days later we arrive at the bar where we've arranged to meet Jason. We find a table upstairs on the balcony overlooking the other patrons & the bustling bar below.
We're both feeling really wired, this is going to be fun!

The waitress arrives bringing us a big cocktail pitcher of Purple Rain (Vodka, Blue Curacao, Cherry Sourz, lemonade & lots of ice).
"Two glasses? She offers.
"No, three please, were waiting for a friend" I reply.

It felt odd saying that. Jason wasn't a really a friend was he? We hadn't even met him yet & only briefly conversed on the phone. I wondered what the waitress would think if I told her why Jason was meeting us.

My hand is on the table, you stroke it reassuringly. "Are you ok?" you ask with a concerned expression.
"Yes, sweetie I'm fine, bit too excited I think" I respond, smiling.
You start kissing & sucking on my fingers.
I take a small shard of ice from the pitcher, put it on my tongue, move in
closer to kiss you.
Your hot mouth meets mine, our tongues exploring & rolling the melting ice.

Lost in the moment, we didn't notice the dark, handsome figure standing over us.
"Hi, that looks like fun, shame to interrupt you...".
Startled, we break apart & divert our eyes to the owner of the voice.
He chuckles "Sorry, didn't mean to make you jump. I'm Jason".

Neither of us can speak straight away. We're too busy drinking in the view.
He's roughly 6ft tall, with short, dark, neatly trimmed hair, devilishly dark eyes & a sparkling smile.
His black shirt is open at the neck & tucked into a pair of black jeans.
Difficult to guess his age. Late 20's early 30's maybe?

I glance over at you to ascertain your reaction. You're smiling, pupils dilated & suddenly you look a bit shy, biting your lip a little.
I know what that means. You *like* him.

We invite Jason to sit, offer him a drink & chat for a while. Jason tells us about how much he saw the other night & how much it turned him on.
How he had his cock out, stroking it right there in the alleyway.

He seems nice, genuine, educated and *incredibly* attractive. I notice there's a definite frisson between the two of you & it was turning me on.

After about an hour, the three of us leave the bar & Jason takes us to his apartment in town.
It's an interesting place. We notice the full shelves & piles of well used books. Dotted around the main rooms are lots of nick-nacks & pictures from years of travelling.

"Where would you like us Jason" I ask sultryly.
"I've got just the place, follow me....".
The anticipation is unbearable now.

Hand & hand we follow Jason down the hall. You squeeze my hand & wink.

He leads us into a huge well equipped bathroom. Marbles floors, spacious shower cubicle (could easily take 2, maybe 3) and in the centre of the room, the main feature an enormous tub.

"Does this appeal?" Jason asks pointing at the glorious bath.
We both say in unison "definitely!"

He starts running the water, adding sensual smelling bubbly stuff. We waste no time undressing, kissing & caressing each other before slipping into the warm water.

As we continue to kiss, the soapy water causes our skin to slide erotically over each other.
Jason has undressed too & is sitting on a chair a few feet away. His long, thick cock standing proud.

I whisper in your ear "wow, do you want that in your mouth?"
My hand is gripping your cock & I feel it twitch in response.

I beckon Jason over with my finger.
I tell him "he wants to taste you".
Jason grins & complies.
He swings his legs over the edge of the tub resting his firm ass on the tub surround.

You get on your knees and deftly take his cock into your mouth. Jason moans loudly.
I come round behind you. My soapy breasts writhing on your back.
I reach around & cup your balls in my hand, gently caressing. Then I move my hand to your shaft, mirroring the strokes you're doing with your mouth.


QT:
My heart is racing. My nerves are on fire. It's like I don't have control, like something else is acting for me. They say that it means I want it. As his cock head touches my lips I can't find grounds to argue. At first it's slow, it's only my second, and it's no smaller than last time. My lips wrap around and slide down his head, my hand stroking his shaft, the two meeting and bobbing downward. I don't reach the base but I get oh so close. Only two fingers away, not bad for my second time I hope. I can feel EV's hard nipples pressing into me, her hands stroking my already hard cock. I can feel myself loosing it as I hear them both moan. Not both, all of us, I'm moaning too, vibrating his shaft as I work my way up and down, stroking and sucking, rolling my tongue around the head and shaft as I can. Faster and faster, a little further down each time, I can feel myself gagging just a pinch, and the more EV strokes and caresses my body with hers the more my throat shakes and relaxes.

EV looks up at him, staring into his eye, smiling. "Is QT a good cock sucker?"

Jason moans again, his hands digging into my long hair. "Oh yes, I'd swear he's done this before." I nod, taking his cock with me. "How many?" I raise one finger. "That's all?" I nod again. I think he did it on purpose this time, so I slowly but firmly swing my head in a small circle, his throbbing shaft never leaving my lips. "Oooh Ffuuckkk. I think he wants to drink my cum." EV smiles and grips my balls tightly yet warmly as I nod yes again. I take her hint take his in my hand, playing with gently at first, but working harder as Jason's groans continue. I can feel them tightening in my hand, I know he's close. He pull on my hair, slowly begining to fuck my mouth, I let him. When his throbbing turns to twitching I tighten my lips just below his head, still jerking the shaft as he begins to spurt in my mouth. It's a good thing he was sitting in the chair. Tightly my lips slide up his cock, catching all the cum not stuck inside, licking his head and teasing his hole with my tongue to have it all. I finally look up and him and open my mouth before turning to EV with a sticky kiss, letting a large amount of cum spill into her mouth. She barely got half. We swallowed before we finished kissing, and soon were both kissing Jason.

Jason slid into the tub, and nearly immediately sat down on my throbbing cock. While I may have been inside him, his muscle control and steady motion made certain it was him fucking me. I was so close to cumming for so long, but he just wouldn't let me. He knew how to fuck. EV's legs were soon in my lap, as she was in his, riding his hard again cock, kissing him hard. Watching them was intense, so erotic, so passionate. Her hand slipped around his back and slid into mine, destroying my last bit of control. I clawed and bit at his back as I came deep inside him.

She looked over his shoulder at my with eye that melted me. "So how was your first ass fuck?" My only response was to kiss her hard, shoving my tongue in her mouth. The moment we broke for air his lips replaced hers, as he turned stroke me clean and kiss hard. "Sigh, all the boys are having all the fun." We both looked at her then smiled as such to make her blush. She'd called us out.

[I so want to know what we do to you ]

These happened before I was premium. It was a beautiful happen stance that had us talking twice a day. Maybe some day again......



EV:
I wish my clit would calm down! She's so demanding. She wants *you* & keeps making me think about you in very naughty ways

Like......we're in a club, music pounding, it's hot & we've had a few drinkies.
You come behind me, slide your hands round my waist, I lean back into you grinding my ass into your groin.

You whisper in my ear "come outside, I fancy a smoke".
You take my hand & I follow you outside.
The night air is chilly but welcomly refreshing.

You light up & offer me the drag first. I inhale the smoke in deeply & instantly feel giddy. I only ever smoke occasionally when I'm out drinking.

You pull me in close and kiss me hungrily, We pass the cigarette back & forth till we're both giddy & giggly.

I say "mmmm it's nice out here isn't it, shame to go back in".
You agree & look around furtively.
"Come on, I've got an idea" you say with a mischievous look.

We go round the corner & down a dark alleyway behind the club. I see where *this* is going & my clit starts to throb.

You pin me up against the wall & deftly slide your hands up my legs,under my skirt & over my stocking tops to my bare thighs.

.....to be continued by you

I'd *love* the second part of this to be written by you. You have great writing skills, very seductive & erotic indeed. So...do you want to play?

QT:
I push my hand hard against your pussy, rubbing against your wet lips, pressing my thumb against your clit. I kiss up your neck to your ear, sucking on the lobe before sliding my tongue into your mouth. I kiss you hard and deep, my cock pressing against your thigh, my fingers sliding around your panties, pressing deep into you.

I press my lips hard against your ear, licking and sucking it between words, "How about right here, right now. Your pussy needs it, bad." I grind my fingers inside you, rubbing your clit hard. "No one inside will notice."

EV:
"Oh god yes, yes please, I want you so much" I say breathlessly, then kissing you back hard, my tongue urgently exploring your mouth.
I break off to say
"I'll die if you stop now".

You pause to look at my face, into my lustfilled eyes and say, "You are so beautiful when you're turned on".

I can feel your arousal straining against my leg. I reach down & undo your jeans, slide my hand in, find exactly what I desperately crave.

When I release your hot, gorgeous, engorged cock into the cool night air, you tilt your head back & moan.

You pull my underwear to oneside & position yourself so the head of your cock is in direct contact with my clit.

"Ohhhhhhhhh...that feels so good" I moan into your ear.

QT:
I rub my cock head against your clit, my foreskin entangling with your clithood, pressing you hard against the wall. "Who's stopping? There's no one watching yet. You must not be moaning loud enough."

I press harder against you, my cock sliding up along your lips and clit, pulling at your panties as my shaft sinks just between your wet folds. I pull open your blouse, letting your tits hang free in the cool night air, covered only by my lips, tongue and hands, hungry for your soft, wanting flesh. I suck back up your neck, momentarily suppressing the carnal noises falling from your lips as cover them with mine, kissing you hard.

In one motion both my tongue and my cock press between your soft warm lips, trapping your entire body between me and the cold brick wall. We both know there are people just around the corner, out behind the club, moments away from spying us. Will they look? Will they come over? I ask you, breathing heavily in your ear, panting with each stroke deep inside your hot wet sex. I can feel your pussy shudder as I speak the words.

EV:
Before my brain had time you process what you said, my body had betrayed me. Giving away the secret that I found the idea of being watched exciting.

All at once a flurry of questions rushed through my head: Would the potential voyeur get off on it?
Would they call the cops?
Would they want to join in?

I disengage from your compelling mouth &
struggle to speak. My own mouth, making involuntary squeals & moans.
"They can watch all they like but they can't join us, I don't want to share. I want you all to myself my love".

You have a wicked twinkle in your eye as you move in to devour my mouth again.
Your hand moves down between our bellies and your fingers seek out my so very swollen clit.
"Muuuhhhhhaaahhh"
I yelp from the shock of the contact, I was sure my sensitive bud was going to explode.
"You like that?....you want more?" you ask.
I mew helplessly in response.

Your fingers slide over my wet clit, circling round & round. All the while your thrusts are becoming faster & harder.

I was on the verge of ecstacy when out of the corner of my eye I thought I saw a shadow moving?

I didn't care. At that moment I couldn't see straight let alone think straight.

I wanted to stay in that moment forever. Locked together with you.

You started emitting those familiar guttural moans that indicate you're about to cum.

Waves of pleasure rush over me. My legs go so weak I can hardly stand.

That tips you over the edge. "Gnnnnaahhhh" you cry out "feels....so.....fucking.....good".
I can feel your hot cum pumping inside me, filling me with your love.

You stay inside me, moving slowly & gently now, delighting my g-spot.
You can't move much, your cock is way too sensitive. Every stroke sending shocks through your body.

You kiss me gently on the lips, my cheek en-route to my ear.
You whisper "you're so amazing".

My muscles contract again around your cock & I shudder, cumming for a second time.

We stand together motionless & breathless. I feel empty when you eventually slide out. My underwear soaking from both our emissions.

We straighten our clothes & return to the club for a little while to replace some lost fluids & hang with our friends.
The security doorman gives you a wink as we pass through the door. I expect he can smell the sex on us.

A little while later, we get a cab home, kissing & touching each other for the duration of the journey. The taxi driver, spends more time inspecting his rear-view mirror than is safe.

When we reach our destination, I reach into my coat pocket to get some cash to pay the driver. Along with the money I find a small card.
It was plain white with just a name printed across the middle "Jason Brown".
How odd, where'd this come from?
I turn it over and there's a message handwritten in blue ink, it says "You two are so hot, I couldn't help watching. I'd very much like to again. Jason." And there was a phone number.

I show it to you. You chuckle "I don't blame him, I'd watch us too.

I laugh & playfully spank you firmly on the butt. "Inside you,
I'm gonna need your help in the shower".

"Oh *realllllly*?" you reply as you chase me into the house.

QT:
The whole way back to your place I keep an eye on the driver, knowing how much he can see. I know he can see when I kiss you hard, I know he can see when I squeeze your tits in my hands. I know when he tilts the mirror to watch my hand disappear up your skirt; I know he sees when I spread your legs open just enough to show him the mess I made inside you. I know he sees me slide my messy fingers into your mouth, then kiss you hard. I was surprised to see him find your place.

He accepts the money you give him with a big smile and a wink. You find the card in your coat pocket with your money, I just smile as you read it to me. Then you tease me to your shower.

As we dash in your front door bits of cloths start to fly everywhere, your jacket, your skirt and blouse, your bra and panties; my shirt and pants, my boxers. "Call him" I tell you.

"What? Now? For the shower?" You ask, dragging my by my hard cock behind your shower curtain.

"If not now then after. Just means we'll have to have another show to put on for him." I kiss you, my fingers finding their way back inside your hot sticky sex. The warm water begins to poor over us, steaming your bathroom and making each touch of your soft flesh all the more sensual. Both our hair is dark and matted back. I bring my fingers to my lips, sucking on our wet, entwined juices, slowly dropping to me knees to take the source into my mouth. I hold tight to your ass, pressing your pussy hard into my face as my tongue writhes deep inside you, cleaning up our cum, dancing against your gspot, my nose hard against your clit. You cum hard, covering my face in your sweet nectar.

I stand and kiss you, sharing your taste with you, only to be torn away from your sweet lips as you push me back and take my cock in your hand. Soon your jerking motions bring my head to your lips, your lips down my shaft and back up again. More and more your bob down my cock until you have it all in your mouth, leaving you to bob back up it's throbbing length. I wrap my fingers in your thick wet hair and start to pump into your mouth, but you stop me, as much with your eyes as your hands, letting me know that you want to do this. One hand fondling my balls, the other pumping my cock as your tongue dances around my foreskin, lips pulling it back hard, licking my bare head. It all feels so good I moan and cum in your mouth, drops splashing on your cheek, but quickly getting washed away.

I bring you up to me, kissing you hard, tasting my salty spunk on your lips and tongue. "Now lets get you cleaned up." I spin you into the falling water, making sure your hot pussy is well within, my fingers opening you up to get you cleaned. I run my hands from your head to your feet, caressing each inch clean in the hot water. I shut it off and help you step out, then dry you slowly and methodically, rubbing everything twice. You dry me the same way, making sure I get as fluffled as you did.

I follow you to your bed where you lay down, the alcohol and sex taking it's toll. I crawl up your body, kissing from your toes to your knees, up your thighs, one hard and hungry for your soft pussy lips, up your belly, each nipple, neck, chin, jaw, and finally your lips. "So, you gonna' call him or not?"

I spent all this morning at work choking back tears. I held it in so hard it made me sick. I still haven't cried, I'm afraid of how much it's going to hurt. I shouldn't have been such a fool.