rubensredd's blog post - love lust longing and the real deal

For those of you that know me know that I am madly in love with the Bear. That's right I have a living breathing teddy bear that I get to wake up next to every morning. It has not been an effortless journey to be with this man. Nearly 20yrs of friendship, loving, hating, weddings, broken marriages, loss of parents, birth of children, infidelity and passionate kisses. He makes me want to be a better woman...stronger, brighter, open and daring.....But FFS this man drives me bat crap crazy!!
He is far kinkier than I have ever been...sex used to be an "issue" for me...hey can do that to a gal. He has been my therapy. I have very few hang ups about sex anymore...now that I want it ALL THE TIME....he is "too tired". Seriously....he works 3 jobs and is an amazing father that still finds time to lead a scout troop. I feel selfish even saying....well I want more. I want more time, more passion, more sex, more of him....How do I dare ask for more when I don't think he has it to give.....
If this is the real deal...how do I deal with only having a piece of him. I want all of him. I'm a horrible woman.