a conversation with my significant other recently got me to thinking: men kind of are out of luck when it comes to "sexy" undergarments as near as i can tell.

as a hetero male, i always find the task of underwear shopping annoying. i gave up wearing "tighty whiteys" a very long time ago. several years ago i came across a website that carries many different styles/brands of undies. i found them after amazon quit carrying the brand i liked at the time. i was amazed at the options and variety offered by this site. however, the more i looked, the little i found that i liked. not a fan of lace undies, though i was amazed as to how many brands have started carrying them the last year or so. i do find myself looking at some of the options and find myself wondering where i would wear some of these, and then i started to wonder why i would wear some of the options.

many many years ago, way back when i was young and naive, a female friend of mine told me that she was planning on going lingerie shopping. to this day i still don't know if she was inviting me to go with her. regardless, i said something foolish like "who are you buying it for, your single at the moment?" she gave me a funny look (probably assuming i was as dense as a post and just a clueless) and said that she was buying it because it made her feel sexy.

i have bought a few pairs of undies since then thinking they were "sexy" and sometimes being incorrect. but, this is the point of all this: is it more important that i feel "sexy" or is it important that my significant other thinks they are? there are days when i have the house to myself and i shut all the drapes and strip down and put on a pair of undies i feel sexy in and strut about the house doing the things i need to do, and that makes me happy.

so, is that all that matters, that i feel 'sexy', if that's even the right word?

and yes i know, for a guy that wears a lot of kilts, its odd to think about underwear, but i dont always wear kilts, and sometimes im just wearing the undies.

is the midlife crisis simply a way the brain fights with repetition and routine?

i stepped away from NN when i started seriously dating. happily that dating turned into marriage and then shortly there after a child. im very happy with my life and luv my family very much..... and yet..... i yearn for more.... or maybe i yearn for less responsibility?

i think the think that started my recent..... i dont know if crisis is the right word... was my partner recently saying that she was "too old to have sex in fun places"

all i can think about now is all the fun sex we had, at the beach, in the woods, sneaky fingering at nightclubs, blowjobs in stairwells.... thought the best was her screaming orgasm spread across the hood of the car on top of the parking garage. we had to get dressed and quick when we heard security racing up the ramps..... good times.

but apparently now those times are over.... and i am left.... wanting.

so, i dont know if im actually having a midlife crisis.... or just want to get my freak on again... or still?

so.... im not sure why im back on NN..... maybe just to live and perv vicariously through all the great and pervy people on here.