suthernlover's blog post - Cold Hard Reality

There is nothing like your child telling you that you've let her down to drive the spike of cold hard reality deep into your chest and make you question everthing. I sent an e-mail to my sister and daughter to announce my impending retirement. My sister called me almost immeditely after I hit send. That was a nice conversation compared to the call I got this afternoon while on my way to view the potential rentals we'd chatted about.


By the end of the conversation, I was low and dejected and remain depressed. I realized how foolish I've been thinking that there was a glimmer of hope for my own happiness and how much time I have wasted as well as resources chasing unattainable dreams.

I feel like cutting all ties with trying to wrangle any Happiness from the remainder of my life.