well i slept in my new house last night had a few drinks to celibrate then got woke up by the neighbors at 830 this morning very strange going from country living and moving into town hope i get used to all the noise lol

its amazing how many choices of cameras that stores sell. u can choose everything from throw away for like 8 bucks or a digitalfor 100 bucks on up to thousands. so i bought a decent cannon for 200 bucks and dont even know how to use the damn thing but im slowly but surely figguring it out. so new pics soon i hope

for some reason i cant ever live in the same place for very long cause i get itchy feet and hafta move to somewhere new. the only problem is i hate moving with a passion. but with new suroundings i feel calmer for awhile. im trying to move this weekend i hope that my itchy feel will calm down until next summer so i can get transfered back home. thats just my rant for today lol

its a beautiful day today after yesterdays storm im glad. sun is shining its 75 degrees great day to be alive. i sat outside for awhile this morning drinking coffee and just couldnt believe how nice it was.

i started out this morning with no sleep again and when i thought i could lay down for a nap a really big storm moved in.
i thought it was just a bit of heavy rain but i was in for a suprise when i looked out the window. the wind was blowing so hard that the oak tree in my yard was bending almost to the breaking point, the rain was coming in sideways wich is something that isnt always seen. as i sat here watching the weather the power went out for about 20 mins so i was running on batteries for my laptop. the wind was blowing around 50 miles per hour so today i get to clean up tree branches and cut them up for fire wood this winter

i find it interesting that finding a job around home has become nearly impossible. im either way "overqualified" or i hear "we arent hiring any new employees at this time". its very frustrating not being able to go back to work. i used to spend all my time working now i cant work if i pay them to let me work lmao. oh well things are bound to get better soon.

i live a quiet part of the country where life seems simple yet i fight nearly everyday with extreme pain and longing. i have suffered through 3 back surgeries and i dont seem to get any better day to day. i wish to go back to work but the company doesnt want the liability of me getting hurt again so for 6 weeks now i have been selling my belongings to keep a roof over my head and the lights on. i finally got a part time job tending bar in the little town near where i live but it only pays enough to keep me fed. due to my dear freinds here on NN and my family here at home have i managed to keep my sanity and not done something stupid. every day that goes by it becomes harder and harder to keep myself straight. my sleep,eating habits,drinking habits have suffered from the stress of losing everything that ive worked so hard to have. but yet i push on instead of doin what so many others in my position have done because, i suppose, i hate to lose and i refuse to be a broken man like so many others. for almost 12 years i have worked to have all the things my parents couldnt give me and now im back where i began my journey. all i retain is the house i live in and the clothes on my back. and why should that be my end? it is not it is a new begining, but where this new beginning takes me i know not. but that is part of the allure isnt it?
i will carry on as always and always look to the horizon for the next thing that is bound to happen to me, be it good or bad.