youthere77's blog post - :( a sad entry

Been trying to get on here lately and have some fun but it gets hard to fake a happy mood sometimes. This is a tough week for my sister and her children because yesterday marked the 7th year of my brother in laws death. He died 6 days before his bday. And since his death my sister has also had to deal with my niece being paralyzed in a car accident. We have had to also deal with the death of my brother since then, who also died almost a week before his bday....he had just got his life together, remarried and a baby on the way. Then my cousins 4 year olds death. And then after that we had to deal with my grandmothers death. My sister is so depressed and hasn't spoken to any of us....I don't want to lose another sister......I lost a sister in 1977 due to being hit by a drunk driver, she was almost a week a way from turning 4. At least with her death other lives were saved because of organ donation. This scratches the surface of the pain I've dealt with in life. But I try to focus on the positive things in my life because there are too many bad things that would drown me in the darkness. I've been there, it's a scary place and a dangerous place for me to be. I have had to be the "strong" one since I'm the oldest. I'm sorry to post a sad story on here but it helps to get it out sometimes. I have very few friends....it is hard for me to let people in. The friends I have are also going through tough times. Sorry to post such a sad story, I know that this is a lot of people's "happy place" but to whoever reads this, thank you for listening.