Hello all,

I have accepted twelve friend requests this morning, (I am amazed actually, with them all)!! A BIG thank you to everyone who made a request. Thing is, I do like to reply and say thank you wherever possible but alas, I am out of private messages for this twenty four hour period. So if I have accepted your request and not sent you a message, you now know why!! I appreciate it very much though guys. Hope your all well, BIG HUG and take care xx

Hello people,

I have used my allotted allowance of private messages now, so if I have not answered your message yet, I apologize I am not being ignorant and I will respond as soon as I can. Thanks again for the continued support, I appreciate it very much. I have something very nice for you all that I will be posting towards the weekend, a run of a sexy red number, taken outside in the sunshine last year!! Hope your all well, take care and a BIG HUG xx

Hey my friends,

I just wanted to thank all of you who have viewed my 'just me in my bra series' pictures, I have two more of the bra shots to post, then I have a few outdoor/red outfit/red shoes pictures, I am sure you will like! But I had thought you might all go off me if the pictures were not as raunchy as my recent posts (I hope I have explained the reasons behind the one off pictures) But you have all proved me wrong, so a BIG thank you to you all for your continued support, despite what I may chose to post! Can I also in particular, thank Sandman for his generosity, I am a huge fan of this site for many reasons and I am still, even now, totally amazed at the response my pictures continue to get. I so appreciate it very much guys!! I feeling much happier these days, I can see the first signs of Spring finally and the sky is getting lighter for us much earlier now. Hope your all well, BIG HUG xx

Hey all,

I hadnt realised that so many of you would be shocked at viewing pictures of my shaven pussie. You have surprised me guys!! I dont think the they are shocking pictures at all, my tits without a bra, now thats a shocking picture!! They are all one offs anyway, so I am back to my normal posting schedule, these pictures may disappoint those of you expecting more of my shaven pussie, read my previous blog... Take care all xx

Hey all,

I am thinking of taking myself and my demons off to a remote, cozy cottage I know in Wales, now that the weather has improved enough to travel safely and with its own private stretch of beach. I think a few days of isolation in beautiful surroundings might do the trick to really lift my mood. So if I dont answer your messages, I am not being ignorant I shall just be ignoring technology for a few days. Take care all, I will post when I get back xoxoxxo

Hey gang,
I am pleased you all liked the picture I posted for you, something a little different for me I will grant you. To be honest, the picture is just one of a few I did for a special guy (you know who you are)! It was he who suggested I ought to post some of them, so later tonight, I will post three more pictures, I hope you will like. I never thought I would ever post these so enjoy them.
I am handling life a little better now and thanks again for all the wonderful support you all gave me during those dark days. I really do appreciate it very much and all of these pictures are dedicated to all of you who took the time to write to me. You are all superstars to me xoxoxox

Hello all,

I want to thank you everyone who took the time to send me messages of support during my 'I hate the world' phase. I dont really know why I went on so much to you all about my depression, when as I have mentioned before, I have many positives in my life really its just every now and again the demons within my head managed to escape and wreak havoc on my conscience I am a troubled soul, but I guess we all are to an extent. But I tend to forget how extremely lucky I am,I have a secure quiet well paid job, a secure roof over my head, food to eat, the warmth and love from family and friends, most importantly, I have freedom of choice, freedom of speech and I am healthy.

I feel awful for complaining to you all, when I think about many others who wouldnt mind living my life, with or without depression!! I am feeling slightly more optimistic now and I havent contemplated suicide in almost four days..Dont worry, as I have pointed out I am the eternal optimist (see previous blog) I am far too much of a coward to actually go through with it anyways.

I just wanted to up date you all as to my state of mind (its in a constant state actually)!! I think what I really need is a bloody good prolonged shag any takers?? Keep smiling through gritted teeth people and thank you so very much to each and everyone one of you who responded so warmly to my despondency, I am really rather moved by the response THANK YOU!! Take care and a BIG HUG xoxox

Hello friends,

I have struggled with daily life of late, I have found it extremely hard to get out into the 'real world' and do what one has to do to get to the end of the day. I dont know if its just 'that time of year' because I dont handle winter, the dark very well at all. But I have felt very despondent for the past two months or so. I have fought depression every minute of everyday for all my life (swings and roundabouts) Some days I just want to stop the world and get off, but I am the eternal optimist, tomorrow is another day, but it seems everyday is as difficult to get through, as the previous one. But then I remind myself how lucky I am in many respects compared to others not as fortunate as myself, compared to the friend I have who is fighting for his life, fighting the evil Cancer, yet we know the Cancer is going to win and win in the coming months, he continues to fight. I have total admiration for my friend, he is so very brave and it is so very painful to know, there is nothing at all I can do for him, except just try be there when he needs me and try to make the very most of what precious little time we have left for us, try to stay positive for him and
I know I have many positive things in my life to be very grateful for and so easily do I forget when I let the darkness of self doubt, a lack of self worth and depression envelop me,it just seems I have more negative things going on than positive, mostly worrying about a few people who are suffering with illness, with depression also, as deep and as dark as my own. Sometimes its just too hard to bear, its hard to find your way to that 'healthy balance'. Self depreciation we have all been there, it has be healthy right?
I am unsure why I have waffled on to you all with my wallowing in self pity. I guess what I am trying to say is, I do forgot sometimes, how very privileged I am really, in many aspects and not only that, the Sun is coming up slightly earlier now and staying around longer, longer for me here in the UK, so Spring is not too far away, It is not helped by the prolonged extreme weather conditions we are experiencing here and Europe wide at the moment (snow and ice) With no sign of abating for at least another week yet, its treacherous underfoot out there, certainly not cycling weather, I deck/come off my bike with out fail in the snow/ice, going far too fast and I have done so recently in some grand style, even trying to stay upright on the pavements/sidewalks is a nightmare! I just need to keep going watching and waiting for the first signs of Spring, when I know my all mood will improve.

BIG HUG to my fellow depressives and Take care all xx

Hello people, I will be posting some random pictures for you,they are part of a personal shoot I did for a someone...He has now enjoyed them all and so he encouraged me to post some of them for you, admittedly, some of them might be slightly out of focus slightly or look a little amateur, compared to the excellent work my photographer produces. I hope you will enjoy them all the same, if they go down alright, I may post the rest..Hope your all well, big hug and take care xx

Hello all,

I know I have been rather quiet of late, especially with regards the delayed replies to all my messages, if I have not got round to responding to you yet I apologize, I will certainly get round to you all as soon as I can. Have a good day everyone tomorrow and be safe. Take care x