Sorry ranting here.

"wasn't ment to be" "Something will come along" "It's for the better" "You'll find something soon".blah blah blah.

Sorry, I have herd them all lately and it doesn't help any.

Sorry just ranting.

Life reaches out and slaps me again. Remember last blog 2 jobs for the taking on Friday morning well I guess it must have been April 1, yep an April fools joke. I don't know who I pissed of in this life the last couple of years but they were powerful so to speak. i even thought this one was going to pan out on the account of my Sergeantmajor was the person who told me I would be leaving and starting a new job. I even told the kids and they looked so happy I would be coming home. Now I get to tell them not happening. I'm really getting to hate upsettting the kids because of the Army. Its starting to take a toll on me I'm actually not feeling well. oh well.

Well been doing nothing but cleaning and watching football today. been doing it right in front of the kids mother who stayed here last night for what I don't know. But it made her actually get off her ass and do some work too. Been doing a lot of thinking also. I always come in here to say stuff and have a lot to say but I hit update blog and POOF its gone. Well off to buy my Deer license.

But maybe longer.........I had a choice of 2 jobs yesterday morning and was even told I had one. But by the end of the day things went south so to speak. Wont et into the details but now I have another interview on Monday.

Wish we would get some snow that would stay all we got is cold. Some of the lakes are froze over and I even saw some people out fishing already. Not me though the ice needs to be thicker.

Some we had to move to a different building at work to live. They say it coasts to uch to pay for our housing so they moved us to non-maid service rooms. But we are coming to an end on this set of training so maybe some time off. Didn't get Vets day off so I get a week from Friday off. Been a while sense I blogged haven't felt like it. The kids are counting the days tell vacation.

Time to get drunk

“The Freedom Of A Soldier”

With a sand bag for a pillow I chase a distant memory of a thing called sleep,
I whisper in the dark and pray to god my soul to keep.

The howling wind has made this sand my second skin,
The distant artillery shakes the earth again and again.

With one eye closed to protect my sight,
I watch flares cutting through the black loneliness of this night.

The smell of cordite and blood fill my nose,
The blood of friend and the blood of foes.

When I close my eyes I can’t help but to relive the seemingly eternal hell of this day,
When I close my eyes I can see demons that may never go away.

For this is the freedom of a soldier and the price I must pay,
For I have sworn to defend God, Country and the American way!

Today during a few minutes rest I saw a sun faded newspaper from my hometown,
Rather picking me up it almost knocked me down.

I saw our flag dishonored and read quotes of the things that were yelled,
The same flag I saw last night on the shoulder of a dying hero I held.

I wondered how it was to be,
That so many have forgotten freedom is not free.

Do they not understand we left knowing some of us would return,
Carried and buried under that flag that they burn.

But my dedication and honor will remain in place,
And these few words I sent to anyone who would call your defenders a disgrace.

I am an American Soldier … PROUD, STRONG and TRUE,
And I will defend, fight and stand up for even you.

For this is the freedom of a soldier and the price I must pay,
For I have sworn to defend God, Country and the American way

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This is something I found while I was in Iraq. I posted this under my old name Sergentsky and again under Serg-sky. I feel it needs to be posted again.I started coming to this site while I was there not knowing what I really was looking for from here. I met a lot of people to talk to some are still here, some gone. That a vet but hugs a spouse or a child they are the real heros. Its a job to us a sacrifice to them.

Happy Veterans Day to all the Vets.

Well heading back up north to work again. They keep sending us soldier for training cause they keep alerting them to go with other states. this training set was thrown at us last week. Oh well at least I'm still working.

Been kinda a strange weekend this last one. A few blogs ago I let someone write a blog to let some people know how they were doing. Well, I know how this person feels about me, but I'm not the whole reason this person has lost her memory (some not all) but I can't be blamed for everything. And getting really tired of being. Sometimes you do things to be nice and it bites you in the ass. Kinda makes you wonder why you stay places that make you unhappy. Been staying away a lot more lately cause of how the site makes me feel And some aren't making it easy to come in.

Andt to top it all off. I cant go hunting. And the kid has a Girlfriend and doesn't want to go anyways. I guess I'm out on the important side of him now too. Oh well I guess they grow up.

Oh well stop my crying.

So again it another year I get to miss because of the Army. Tomorrow is the openning day of the Deer hunt here. And because we start another training set I don't get to go. I bought a Black powder gun this year and it looks so far I might get to go than but who knows as of yet.

Home for a couple of days and the youngest and I already have completed a 500 piece puzzel. the kitten tried to steel all the pieces and made it hard.

Rained and snowed all day and the snow already melted. Can you believe 48 inches in the moutains above Deadwood< SD and it ain't thanksgiving yet. At least it isn't here.