Not much to say except that we have sort of progressed from her trying to prove herself to a somewhat regular sex life. I am actually pretty happy with 'regular' but loving sex. I admit that I still feel that she is trying to prove herself or 'win' a competition (that does not exist) but we will see how things go. We are taking two weekend vacations soon and we will see how things go then.

We went to the first counseling meeting and left having made a bit of progress even after only 1 hour. Ended up back in the same bed and I think I wore her out. At least 2 maybe 3 orgasms before we went to bed and then another in the morning (This after she allegedly told The Ex that I did not take care of her in bed). I do not think she really said that but I will wear her out before I let her claim that I do not give her hers before I get mine.
Here it is, Thursday morning and our first bird died after an injury from a fight with another one of our birds a few weeks ago. He was our first bird and absolutely the leader of the pack. He was small, but thought he was large and would take on any other bird in the house. We are both sad about this

The Wife and The Ex finally had a meeting and The Ex made it clear that she is not trying to get me back and that we have not been fucking on a regular basis (lol) but that the photos that The Wife found were old. I wrote (longhand) about 4 pages yesterday to The Wife expressing to her how angry I am with her and how I am not at this point interested in sex with her just for the sake of sex. The sex has to be real and not because she is trying to 'win' me back or some such nonsense. I admit, I enjoyed the sex for the past few weeks, but it is not real. It would be more real if it was a stranger from CL or something because at least then we are being honest that it is just a fuck for the sake of fucking but with your Wife, it is supposed to be making love because you genuinely care for each other.
We are going to counseling starting tonight, but I am ready for a divorce at this point. She may have done real, irreparable damage to both OUR relationship as well as that with my kids and that is inexcusable.

So last night The Wife decided to air our 'dirty laundry' on FB for all to see. While she was not specific about whom she was angry with, my kids are not stupid and immediately the shitstorm began. She has set things back 15 years and I had clearly warned her not to do this, but she did and I now have no idea where things will be going, nor do I care to some extent. The marriage has been a bit of a sham for too long and she seems to think that by sucking my dick a few times she can undo 12 years of ignoring me.
Oh, well!

Well, life seems to be getting sort of 'normal' The Wife is not trying to prove anything at this point with sex every night which is actually ok with me. I am satisfied with sex on a regular basis where we are both into it and it was starting to feel sort of xxxxxx

What I am finding odd is that despite her apparent renewed enthusiasm for sex, I am having trouble keeping hard for The Wife. When The Ex and I have fucked, I have not had this problem, and I am hoping that it will go away with time as I think it is a bit of 'performance anxiety' that I sort of need to prove to her that I want her although I have managed to bring her to some rather explosive orgasms no matter what including slapping her clit with my not quite hard dick then fucking her while we both came hard.
Life certainly has been interesting for the past 7 days and it shows no signs of getting boring any time soon.

As we were going to bed and cuddling, The Wife was sort of playing with me so I was playing with her nipples and making the hard which we both enjoyed. She asked if we can go to bed and cuddle but not have sex. My answer is of course we can, she said she does not want to leave me 'wanting' and I assured her that if I feel neglected, I will let her know. We then had a brief discussion about our future sex life and she said she wants it to be somewhat unpredictable so essentially one or the other of us should initiate it at unexpected times ~ When she gets home from work or when I get home from work ~ I should wake her in the middle of the night by rubbing her pussy or she will wake me with a BJ or that kind of thing. Sounds interesting, sounds like my life may be improving greatly. additionally, we are trying to plan a weekend out of town since we have not taken a 'real' vacation in over 6 years.

At request of The Wife, I met with The Ex and told her that she was no longer allowed in our home and we discussed that we had been found out. She was quite understanding and said as long as she could still work with me it did not really matter as she is working on getting her house straightened out a bit ( I do not hold out great hope for that though). After discussing everything, I assured her that it really did not change things with us and that if she still wanted the occasional fuck, we would manage but need to be more discreet and we promptly went upstairs and had a nice somewhat relaxed fuck. Now, I have to admit that since The Wife is actually putting effort into sex, she is better that The Ex.
Later I took an UBER ride to get to work where The Wife met me to take me home. When we got home, and went to bed we had another good fuck.
On Friday, we went shopping 'for her' and purchased some nice lingerie and a few new toys.
All in all, life is looking interesting but The Wife still has to prove that this it for real and not temporary.
Hoping for the best long term.
Hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable 4th of July.

Last night we had a meeting with our attorney for estate planning purposes and then went out for sushi. I think we both ate a bit too much and The Wife came home feeling poorly so nothing happened in the bedroom. This morning she apologized since after she complained about hair in her throat after the most recent BJ, I trimmed up and managed to nick myself a few times and she had promised to kiss it and make it better. Well, we will work together tonight and have tomorrow off, so I am hoping for some good times over the next 24 hours.

Well, I guess this may turn into a daily blog if this keeps up!
The Wife came home yesterday and was pretty worn out from work. I had dinner ready and once she got comfortable and gave me a kiss, I heated it up. We sat together on the sofa to watch a bit of TV and spend some time with our birds but nothing really happened on the sofa (unlike the day before when she tried to ride me on the sofa ~ we are both too large for that). We watched a bit of the 10:00 news and then went to bed around 10:20 or so. When we got into bed, she was complaining about how her leg muscles hurt from climbing on me on the sofa so I said I would massage them which I did. She was like 'you are just trying to get me excited' to which I replied 'no, I really am just trying to make your legs feel better' but I was starting to smell her excitement so I kept it up. After about 20 minutes of me massaging her, she started moaning and pushed my hand to her pussy where I fingered her to her first orgasm at which point she got on her knees and had me fuck her doggy style which is another thing that we have not done in more years than I can count. After she came a second time, we lay down together and she got on her back and asked me to continue which I did. Unfortunately, between the early Am fuck and me jerking off in the afternoon, I could not cum, however she was determined to keep trying so she gave me a BJ for a bit. In the end, I told her that I felt great and not to worry about me cumming. As we lay together, she asked if I ever got just incredible horny at sort of inappropriate times like when I was working and I said, yes, I was horny for her all day Monday to which she replied that she was as well and had thought about texting me that she wanted me inside her but felt that she could not do that during the work day from work. I told her that I felt that would have been over the top hot!
As I said yesterday, I am not sure where this will go, but if it keeps up even at half or a quarter of this pace, I will be a happy camper. Meanwhile, I need to stop with my midday jerking off so she can get her fill of my cum!