Woot so its date #3 tonight...haha and thats three since last Wednesday. There is a possibility hes interested I think

Tomorrow I have a random day off for no reason..my boss just decided I should get two holidays this week Hell I'm not n complaining. I wish I had some help because I have an urge to go to High Park (like a mini Central Park) to take pics. If you hear tomorrow a naked chick gets arrested that was me

Good night NN...hopefully a great one

SO today I must have looked good or something because I got a lot of second glances

Oh and I bought some kick ass new shoes! Wanna see? Are they slutty or sexy?? The best part I paid $6.99

So I am home (alone!) on a Saturday night. And that doesn't bother me in the least. I've been busy lately..hehe including one date that lasted until 3:30 am on a Wednesday. Even more intersting that there was no sex or fooling around and it lasted until that late.

It was nice to go out on a date that 1) is not an asshole 2) I am interested in 3)called me the next day.I have been dating a lot lately and meet my share of umm not so great guys. None are overly bad but for sure not for me.

As an added bonus my boss is giving me an extra day off next week so I have only a three day week --YAY!!

The dieting/working out is doing well. I am starting the mega push for Vegas but FINALLY I am seeing it in me and so are others which is good motivation.

haha oh yeah...I got my passport now! Look out NN'ers across the world I can now come and visit you!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE being a jealous person but its who I am at the moment.

My brother (still a newlywed) called me last weekend to let me know his wife is pregnant. Today he called to tell me they bought a house. I am soooooooo proud of the person hes become. Truly when they say there are some good guys out there he is one of them. His wife is one lucky lady in my opinion.

So it makes me feel horrible how this is making me feel. He finally noticed tonight on the phone and wondered why I wasn't more happy for him. Hes not rubbing his happiness in my face or trying to make me feel bad. In fact I was the first person he called to tell about the house.

It makes me angry with myself that I have to get like this. I can see how I am hurting my other relationships with friends, etc because I am down and I don't want to be. My life is good right now and I want it to stay that way. I am hoping this is just a case of the green eyed monster because I like having the people in my life having so much to celebrate.

On a side note, yet another guy I dated recently has just got in contact. This now means of all the guys I dated in the past year or so, only two I have not heard from. LOL I just dont get it

PS - I deleted some pics last night and am probably going to delete a lot more. I wish I could just hide them or something. I dont like having a ton of pages of pictures but I also hate deleting the comments and memories that go with them

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Its hot out but no sunshine! I want to tan darn it and I wasted yesterday shopping. Hahaha Ok so it wasn't wasted.

I now have
2 new dresses
new sexy top
lingerie
shoes
make up
pool bag
shorts
sports bra

Probably more but I forget what else. I am in LOVEEEEEEEEE with my new dress. I am going to have to find somewhere to wear it between now and Vegas

Happy Sunday...pS its SUNday so where is the SUN!?!!?

For all my baseball friends

Last night I had a date and we went to the Jays game. Honestly a ball game is a perfect date. You can eat, drink, talk, flirt. check out the guys/girls on the field/in the stands. There is music, trivia, and so much more. Follow it up with a walk downtown Toronto and you are all set. Hahah I was kind of spoiled last night and had amazing seats so here are some pics.

I'm off for the day and probably most of the night. Have a beautifulllllll day NN'ers. Lovely day for some new pics dontcha think?

For anyone who doesn't normally read my blog this may come off as arrogent or that I am full of myself but any one who knows me, knows thats not the case.

I have been living in Toronto for 1 and 1/2 years now. In that time I have dated quite a lot of guys (well a lot for me. I have no idea whats average. Considering I really only had one boyfriend and never dated where I used to live any is a lot lol)

Anyways during that time...I would say 85% of the guys "come back" to me. Some I dated once, some a few times. Some were just meant to be a night out and some one of us was looking for something to happen.

Is that normal? Like I just got a text message a few weeks ago from a guy I dated 2-3 times. Telling me he missed me and wished we didn't live far apart (not that far really..an hour or hour and a half). That I am beautiful, fun, and he could totally see a relationship with me. I am only interested in him as a friend so I don't put much into it.

Then this week I get a message on Facebook from a guy I dated a few months ago. I really liked him but he started acting weird and distant so one night we got in a fight and ended it. So in the message he tells me how sorry he is and that I was probably the best thing to happen to him in a long time. That I always treated him very well and he was a dick to me. He will do what it takes to get me back. Even if friendship is the most I can do with him again he will take that.

Again I am not being cocky or anything but why do all these guys suddenly want back in my life. Is it because I am (and they are too) hitting close to 30? I know I am a lot happier lately and I am sure that shows but really I don't have contact with these guys so they would have no idea.

I kinda think once something is over its over. I think I would always be scared they would hurt me again. I know with the right person at some point the fairy tale bubble is going to burst and something will go wrong - but thats when you know its real if you can move on.

Thoughts anyone? Is it natural to go back to someone who wasn't right but now suddenly is?
How many times have you kicked your ass over the one you ended it with and now want another chance?

I feel like I am living in an alternate universe or a twlight zone!

My life finally feels like its coming together. I have great, amazing friends. I am 15 lbs away from where I want to be ultimately. I am getting hit on constantly - and not all by creepy scary guys or those already in relationships. I almost feel like I am living someone elses life. Speaking of that I have a question but I think I will save it for a blog tomorrow as I want to go finish watching the game.

Me -- almost there!! Haha a new bikini top I bought that I didn't even try on first. (major accomplishment in itself!)

I love my best friend

Haha we just spent the last hour seeing who could find the "best" picture from our adventures in the last year a half (by best I mean funniest, nastiest, best memory, shit load of fun pic). Its always awesome creating the memories but I think I almost get as much if not more pleasure remembering. I swear we have only been friends for a year and a half but it feels like she has been in my life forever. We are always on the same wave length to the where it can be creepy.

LOL Vegas is sooooooo not ready for the 2 of us. August cant come soon enough even though I love the summers in Toronto. I have been so happy with life lately and it changes who I am. Ive had a few rough things happen but when life is good they are so much easier to handle. Having someone there who never judges me, tells me to fuck off when I need it and is my own personal cheerleader makes me realize how lucky I am to have her. They say there are always people in your life who make your life worth living and she is one...haha and no Im not going lesbian or bi although we have had more than one guy tell us it would be a dream come true. We both certainly were blessed in the boob department

Have a great week NN!

/me is taking her ass to bed and will pay in the morning.

I have a headache anyone want to take it for me?

I have been working really hard the last umm 3ish weeks and my hard work is finally paying off (at least I think so). A few pics because they really arent NN worthy





haha the weight loss however has not hit my boobs yet.