So many things I want to blog about,not lots of time to do so though.Been cleaning, painting, shopping,perving, painting and more shopping! We are going about things as relaxed as possible,planning it day by day. No need to rush and do it all in one weekend.

My Little Man is excited but anxious,hasn't slept to well it makes us nervous. The distraction of him being able to pick everything out himself for his new room even the paint color is helping him, although now because of his seizures we are trying to persuade him from getting a loft bed, he wants to sleep up high! lol Before all this came about we thought it was cool with the desk under the bed!

Anyways just dropping in to say Mooooooooo!
Time to go...

This was supposed to be a blog full of excitement, I had started one earlier and left the tab open thinking yeah later tonight after a celebratory dinner I'll finish writing it. I had to get ready to pick Hubby from work and I needed a shower after cleaning...

Well instead I choose to close out and not post earliers blog, Those feelings I were about to share are the furthest from my mind. All that matters is my Little Man. He had a horrible seizure, worst than the last episode...

I feel guilty as shit
I could hear Little Man knock into the boxes(we've been telling him for weeks stop banging bumping whatever to the boxes you know they are there)then I hear it again but it was weird sounding. As I started to turn the corner to see what antics he was up to I so say rather sarcastically "Little Man you think you're f.." I couldn't finish my sentence.

The seconds go by drastically slow making you feel helpless that there really isn't much you can do and your child gurgles what sounds like help me,I held him in my arms and tried to talk soothingly to him. This was worse than the first one he even got sick but was still only a partial seizure. It was quite awhile before Little Man could talk clearly,even awhile longer before he could walk on his own.

Around 9 he asked if we could sit on the porch and wait for Dad, Uncle Smooth went to pick him up.(Thank you again if you read my blog)Little Man brought his electric guitar with him (no amp too late) and started playing. That made me smile, seeing he was able to play. That would be too dishearting to Little Man if he picked it up too soon to play following an episode,and couldn't quite do so. Instead he starts jamming away!

This is frightening as to what is going on with my Son. August 26th can't come soon enough to see the specialist and get the results from last weeks tests. They say if there is a cancellation they will call us.

My turn to go in the bedroom and watch him sleep...
Hubbs has been in there.


I need to cry, then I need a hug...
I didn't think I could get more emotional than what I've been the past couple of days.
Taking a valium before I crack.

Thanks for listening uhmm reading.

Moo

wtf
Im sick of trying
Im done
whatever that means

The final walk through is today! Well actually tonight but it's finally here, tomorrow we close!

I have 3 rooms of furniture picked out and have the fridges narrowed down to 3 I need to choose 1 of them. We have yet to find a bedroom set for us. I'm waiting til next Saturday & Sunday for all the big purchases, it's a Tax free weekend. Yes it's only a 5% savings but between that and no delivery charges...thanks to our friends trucks...it will all add up!

Now if only I can decide on the exact colors to paint. Hubby wanted me to get cleaning supplies and paint supplies this weekend.Why the hell I got excited buying new mops n brooms is beyond me lmao! But as for the paint I told Hubby I can't get the actual paint with out standing in the rooms again and visualize the color schemes. He laughed at me! lol

I really think this is it, I'm getting more anxious as the afternoon goes on, I have butterflies, the moving process is about to begin for the first time ever in my life...

pfft now I have a lump in my throat, thank God I'm typing and not talking! Guess this is how it's gonna be for the next two weeks highs n lows then high again. Sad & Happy....



Mooooooooooo

mmm Delicious bbq over our Best Friend's house tonight, So yummy. Food drinks and fun, but no dessert....
Couldn't even share his pics or video on his camera, that could've been an appetizer for dessert..
hahaahhahha
good Night
Moooooooooooo

Took some pictures last night with the camera
and what I think is a hotcumshot video,
one problem though..

It wasn't our camera! hahhahaha

I want to see the vid!

Moooooo

MMMMMMMMMMMMM

I'll try to fall asleep without touching myself.
Oh the feelings, the visions in my head, the pulsing of my pussy...

goodnight
Sexy dreams...

oh ya and thanks for the comments and messages on my pics yesterday n tonight!
Mooooooooo

I don't think I've ever needed it as bad as tonight.hahha yes I have! that was fucking mind blowing,,,, all the stress melted away( for the moment lmfao) my legs are shaking.6 times 7 times idk I lost count all i know is each time the orgasmic squirt was just as intense!!

I got asked this time for a pair of my panties tonight,, dammit i forgot to put them in his pocket!! It could ve been hot fun if ya didn't give me back the last pair with out asking for demands, I thought i was getting a ransom/ demand notice, not having you just hand them back to me in such a simple manner. Although it was rather HOT seeing you taking my black thong out of your pocket....

The pics I posted today were all pics taken with my cell phone that I sent to Hubby on diff days while working. sharing more tomorrow.

I am so not tired but drunk I am its thundering and lightening pouring out. wish we were sitting on the porch...
Hey my new house has a porch on the second floor woo hoo. Pfft what new house no keys yet LMFAO WTF LOL

going to sit by the window and watch/listen to the rain n thunder, I find it relaxing go figure. did i mention i havent gotten dressed since Hubby went to bed and SMooth went home? Mmmmm Hubby & SMooth damn they make me....( fill in your own words) haha
If ya peek in my window at least smile, wave or say mooooooooo
My neighbors have been peeking and not being friendly enough hahahhahha

Sexy dreams
Mooooooo

omg sending me to bed with none cuz of the time?
pffftt
Hope your ready for your wake up call in the early morning....
sexy dreams goodnight
Moooooooooooo

Somehow we did it, we all stayed awake from 4am. Although Hubby and I barely slept the 4 hours our Son was able to. No Sunrise could be seen on our walk the day started grey and cloudy.
The Dr was pretty cool with how she explained everything to Little Man about marking his head and even jokingly said So do we just pull your hair into a pony and snip it? Ha Little Man said you don't have scissors...haha She showed him scissors as she said well we have another option we can mark your scalp with my red marker as I measure your head then I will know where to place the 28 different electrodes. Quickly Little Man responds excitedly Thank God no cutting my hair it took me 2 years so far to grow my hair but man 28 of those stuck to my head? Made us all laugh!

The longest part it seemed was parting his hair n marking his head then attaching them. We had to take a pic of him with all the colored wires, Little Man wanted to see what he looked like lmao. Not that we know anything more than what we did, we are glad this part is over now we wait 2 more weeks. But in the mean time sleep sleep sleep. Yesterday was not a fun day for him his tongue and cheeks would go numb,lack of sleep so they say, and its a warning for an episode. So Little Man wont be out of my sight not even when he is sleeping, always watching I am, at some point I do fall asleep! lol Not how we had planned ending the summer and approaching Little Man turning double digits in September but what can you do but Go with the flow...

Thank you to all for your kind thoughts, advice & support.
*Hugs*

I started writing this last night but got distracted by a few text messages...
So today may be a 2 or 3 blog day for me, other stuff. HAhha I apologize in advance.. Sorry

Moooooo