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Which one of me am I supposed to describe? "Bipolar? If I could get the voices in my head down to two, I'd be doing great." How about someone describe me to me instead?
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Thursday, March 14, 2013, 11:32:57 AM- ***sigh*** Missing friends list... | ||||||
Look at all those sexy people... _indiscretion_ 1/fckv a67thar ACaptain&HisApple Adam Bleytou aerobabe altamber1 alyssa_may Amberwifey3 amcut Amy M ana_delight anboth ann22a anna292 antonellaabb antos36 April_D ausangel ausangel. Aussie303 Awakened B and T b.exile Babi_Gurl baybeee_dawl Baysidegirl beachbabe2 betty_boo bev4u bif26m27 Black_in_Texas Blonde1 Blowjobcouples blueartemis boa123 bra@ndywine brad.janette2 bradjanette Brandywine brighthorizons callalilly caralynn88 cecilia71 ChaosMaster16 chick2006 china 123 Christina_86 Claire Monroe cpl4girl dana_69 DandK669 danibee18 Delicious&Forbidden Dessa dez2vince diablatko direct_contrast dirtygf doodle29 drk158 elibeth endocet eros28 Erotic-not-porn falco23 Firekitty florescene Foot-Babe Foxyglo. freelive full time princess gattaca1007 Gentlekitten ginga2pinks girl2five girlinbedroom_old gregbisexfun Heartland Chick heather&rob highonlife homeandhorny Honey1237 Hotair27 HotAndJuicy hotfunwife79 Hotirene hottydottygirl I have a pussy icandoit128 ilovenakedman indiebluefilms innocent_x insatiablekitty itsmechinto JakeBlake Jasisa jayne.j2 jeanandgerald jlz311 jmood34 justme1233 jzukko Kasik kassie... kavlagr keefa Kiia kissingkate klamhundur kleine-cindy korek71 kristy tits lacomca Lady lilly lady24 Lailana22 lauralessy Leela85 Legs76 like-2-look Linaka LisaLove little_miss26 lmc1010 Louie-43 lovebeamoveryou lovely_pink loveocean loverroo lowgers lunalum luv2teaseu Lynsk2008 m110 made_in_the_60s manchester_minx mckee333333 Means_Sugar&Spice meaty lips mia199 michellessss miranda71 misapurreta misoe69 Miss*Somatic MissTiff moanr Mole66 moooooood mountainfresh msmilf2 my_hot_wife mylf mysexyhalo n2deepcpl nakeddownunder naughty cat Naughty_Noo Naughty123456 nicro28 NikkiC Nobody_2 Norton829 nylonplease OLCIA onehotdreampart2 OnlyYou OurSimplePleasures Partypatti69 pawg_bunny Pawgbunny perfectkat perry405 peterabbit PHXCouple Pintanna playfulpoplolly pussycatdoll08 qbee rache77e Rachel_Rabbit real guy RedCard Rockman1 rogerthe Sandra B sarplaninac sars80 scientificseductress Selexa sex_in_high_heels sexxy_chic Sexy Gal sexyfun69 sexymodel87 Sexysocalfun shesez Shineera shortcake8i8 shygal69 shyshy!!!! SlutMandy smallpackage Softrock SOL1979 sophias Sphynx_Lady spicyhot spunkey007 star_scream Starspunlyra Str84ard supersexylexi susan16 Sweet-lady Sweet_Azz_Candi Sweet_Pearl SweetVirgin sxcmilf T & L timepark tmm.productions Tomlooks2 Tove Trance0089 trig99 trig9999 troon23f-il troonass tt13 txwoman Undertheradar velvet lady venusfreak Veronica4 vickyv Vixengirlie w-photographer WaerWolf wburbshottie wica-couple wife_jp wild-woodflower WildTXCouple WowSoFoxy xanaepica xiaannl xxwildcat XXX66 xxxangelke yummymmm Zen167 | ||||||
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Monday, February 25, 2013, 2:18:52 AM- Free love... | ||||||
So I'm reading this book about the History of the English language in America by Bill Bryson (fun guy to read if you haven't read him...a collection of fascinating little tidbits and stories more than anything) and during the topic of language surrounding sex, he delves a bit into America's Puritanical notions of masturbation and how much they believed it harmed the body. Anyways, one of the things he brings up is a group that was committed to free love. Sex with all people all the time, no marital or monogamous constraints. Perhaps the biggest stated reason for this particular free love group? To avoid the "harmful" practice of masturbation. All thoughts of, "where were these people when I was in High School" aside, how on earth did they come up with the notion that masturbation harmed the body while sex was good for it? Isn't that bizarre? | ||||||
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Thursday, February 21, 2013, 12:23:10 PM- A Rocket Launcher... | ||
Strange thought, but I've had it often...a song about having a Rocket Launcher that leaves me with a positive spiritual feeling every time... | ||
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Friday, February 15, 2013, 12:44:15 PM- Kind of struck me this morning... | ||||||
while thinking about gun issues and how it saddens me that many perceive such a dire need to have and rely upon guns to find safety in this world, that what I perceive to be perhaps the most destructive impulse in the world is the common male impulse to be the "alpha male." Instinct? Impulse? I don't know. Certainly I can recognize it popping up here and there within me, but I don't find it hard to ignore and often can simply laugh at it. The thought that there is so much to "prove" about one's value on a purely physical level and that there is so much to gain from it is a concept that creates both violence and disunity. Us versus them taken to the extreme where pretty much everyone besides oneself becomes "them." There is a lot in society that preys upon this notion to increase those feelings. One of my common meditations these days has been upon focusing on the goal of conscious unity. Conscious unity with other people as well as with everything (the spirit of the universe type thing). Nothing has ever gained me more or improved a sense of well being in self than to be in conscious unity with all around me instead of conscious disunity as I try to prove something to someone. Many know of the Serenity prayer. The power and meaning of that prayer changes completely for me when I go with the "we" version of the prayer instead of the "I" version of the prayer. Anyways, off to work to try to be in union. Have a great day! | ||||||
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Monday, February 11, 2013, 12:42:47 PM- A word I try to avoid... | ||||||
Fail at it quite often, but... It is always good for me to avoid the word, "My." I think NN makes me conscious of it quite a bit because of all the posts that are given with titles like, "My wife's" or "My girl's", etc... Trying to own/control things leads me to troubles. Gets my nose into places it don't belong, places me in a position to be hurt when things don't go "my way," etc...all besides the simple philosophical question of what do I truly own? Everything I come into contact with in this world is simply a part of the world and life that I am blessed to be able to come into contact with. If I look at things that way, which I believe to be the proper way for me, I am continually blessed and grateful. Unfortunately, that strong part of self can assert itself and draw me away from that perspective and take me back to "sure, I own this but I want more and better." A proven path to unhappiness. Who am I to own? Who am I to judge? Who am I to "correct?" My little program includes a warning about playing God. At the start, thoughts of it not applying to me at all floated up in my head. I didn't try to do that, I rolled over to avoid the "confrontation." But what is "people pleasing" besides an attempt to act the way I think someone wants me to act so that they will like me? What is it besides a thinly veiled attempt to manipulate a person through passive means? Motives matter deeply to me in trying to do the right thing for someone else. Doing it without expectations? Great. Doing it with expectations? Showing a desire to control. Trying to avoid the word, "My," can seem like an insignificant and trite way to help deal with a deep philosophical approach but I find it to be important because it brings the notion so squarely to the forefront of my consciousness which is the area that it needs to be in order for me to be able to draw things away from the gravity of self-centeredness that thinks it should own everything that it can possibly rationalize an argument of ownership over. | ||||||
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Friday, February 1, 2013, 6:44:43 PM- Ahh...great show last night. | ||||||
Dark Star Orchestra played great. First time I have seen them, the technical ability, energy and free spirit of play were pretty remarkable. Those who don't know, they tour around playing Grateful Dead stuff...usually set lists based off shows that were played by the Dead but this was a case where they played their own set list. The thing I probably appreciated more about the Grateful Dead than anything else was their free interplay. The different musicians really going off of what each other are doing while really being able to vary what they are doing individually. As many have noted, the complete opposite of a "tight" performance. By far my favorite music to dance to as there are so many things to follow...so many things to feel...dancing to things beyond merely rhythm and melody makes it such a more sensual experience to me. Besides Jazz and some Classical, not much other music that I find myself able to close my eyes to and feel the music and of those clearly the Dead is the most dance-able! Also so nice to see such a varied age crowd all dancing in their own way. Less self-consciousness and show making to everyone's dancing than just about any show I've ever been too. Watching the 60+ crowd dance just as freely as the 30- crowd in the same space...awesome. And even though I'm sober, I got a lot of enjoyment from watching the hippies carry on. A few flasks, lots of pot smoking and a few people walking through the crowd offering acid for sale. So much screwing of convention going on there. | ||||||
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Thursday, January 31, 2013, 1:38:29 AM- It really is a big jump... | ||||||
between saying one doesn't care what others do and not caring about what others do. So easy to be deceived into thinking that one is in the former rather than the latter. In recent years, that has become apparent to me in some obvious ways. I used to really put stock into my ability to let people say and think whatever they wanted to and have it wash off my back. The lie to self came in when I believed it because I was so good at not reacting back...but the truth is I would spend endless hours dwelling on it. Guy I know likes to talk about the IMAX theatre in his head with two screens. The first screen is playing the movie, "Can you believe what they did?" Each time that movie plays (it is on an endless loop) what I did to provoke anything becomes marginalized, what they did becomes more pronounced and unreasonable...till eventually I am pure as the driven snow and they are Satan's spawn. The other screen...plays a movie titled, "If they ever do that again I'm gonna..." Those were the movies playing in my head as I was priding myself on letting things wash off of me. A lie to self that prevented me from making any progress in that area until the truth was accepted. A show of outward peace that belies the reality actually causes greater internal bondage. That's what I've found. Things really get good when the outward show is real because it is simply reflecting what one feels inside rather than what one wants to present to others. When I take slight to what someone says, I am far better off investigating myself to see why I was offended than to focus on the offense as some sort of "injustice" even if it was an injustice by almost all reasonable perspectives. One of my favorite quotes I've heard in recovery circles comes from Anne Smith, the wife of one of the founders of AA. She said, "What's wrong with me that I don't love you today?" A great way to live. | ||||||
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Thursday, January 24, 2013, 11:12:11 AM- Not a big deal for most... | ||||||
But today marks seven years since my last drink. That is one hell of a long time between drinks for me. It is kind of a strange thing to know that, even with a lot of strong self control in many areas, the only way for me to successfully deal with alcohol is to not drink it at all. Been watching a friend for about a year and a half...had some good sobriety, drank one night following the pain of leaving his children who are (rightfully) under his exes care. He tried to control it, did surprisingly well for a time. Kept his job for something like six months. The past year though...two handfuls of trips to the hospital, another handful of trips to detox, everything falling apart and in that "drink to pass out. Wake up. Take a drink" stage. That is me following the loss of absolute abstinence. Even though my head has a hard time understanding that and therefore accepting that, I do know deep down it is true. Posted on someone's status on here what used to be my mantra regarding when it is late enough to drink: "If I'm awake, it is late enough to drink. If I'm still conscious, I haven't had enough." In my book, there is NO reason to drink besides to get drunk, the drunker the better. I never really want one drink, I never really want two drinks...when I drink all I truly want to drink is "MORE!!!" An alcoholic joke: Alcoholic is deserted on an island. He finds a magic lamp, rubs it, genie shows up and grants three wishes. First wish is for a bottle of booze that never gets empty. He has a ball with it, passes out, wakes up disturbed to see it lying in the sand upside down. Picks it up and magically it is full. The genie is still there and says, "You've still got two wishes left." Alcoholic says, "Great. I'll take two more bottles just like this one." So that seven years, as ridiculous of a thing that it may sound like to some to look at as an impressive deal, is a pretty huge deal to me. | ||||||
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Tuesday, January 22, 2013, 12:08:28 PM- Just to clarify since it is sooooo.... | ||||||
easy to sound critical. I think the best pictures anyone can take are pictures that they want to take without hurting anyone else. End. Stop. Any comments I may make on my take on them are on my take on them, not on what they are. Even though I'm not interested in pissing pics, men in panties, think people shave too much, etc...I am so pleased that NN allows people to express their sexuality so freely. It is a beautiful thing! It may be a turn off for me, but your turn on is your turn on so rock on with it!!! And I would urge people to remember...anytime anyone takes direct aim at someone for their kink, that statement says far more about the critic than the criticized! | ||||||
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Monday, January 21, 2013, 12:05:02 PM- Reminded of the other problem with... | ||||||
no filter on pics. Takes a lot longer to go through pics. Missing a lot of them. Will have to figure out how to use friends notifications better in order to not miss the ones I know I like... | ||||||
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