how, for those of us who do, easy it can be to post nude pics but then get to some issues on blogs and the like and start to think, "That's too personal?"

Interesting indication of what is important to us. There are some things that are too personal that I might write about but don't...this isn't one of them (obviously).

So...I've been going through NN without the "hide dicks" filter on. My girl doesn't have as much patience or something as I do to get through lots of pics, so I bookmark the ones I like so she can check them out much more quickly if she wants too.

I have been really surprised to discover how much more interesting and fun to look at cock pics can be. Definitely always thought of it as just in your face without much interest...and to be quite frank an awful lot of them are...but a well done closeup has a lot going on in it. The first looks...the bumpiness of the sac, the veinieness of it all...was hard to look at. But the more I looked...well, I guess I got over it. May change my personal reticence to include more closeups in my pics.

Other surprises that aren't necessarily positive to me...so many guys shave too. I didn't expect the percentage of men who shaved to be anywhere near the percentage of women who shave but it easily is. When I was younger, I wanted to grow up and become a man. I have no urge to go back and look like a little boy again. We have hair down there, we ought to be used to it by now. Sorry for the soapbox, but there it is.

I am also surprised at the amount of pics of guys in panties. I know it is out there and I have no problem with them enjoying it. But I am amazed at how many of those pics get put up on NN everyday. Had no idea that so many guys enjoyed wearing women's underwear. That's one kink that really doesn't go the other way, does it? When's the last time you saw a pic of a woman wearing men's underwear? Personally I'm grateful for that! Maybe the blame should fall upon underwear manufacturers. You go to the store for men's undies and...what shape of cotton underwear do you want? Not varieties in textures for us to try out...

Namaste!

of going through the guy picks as well. It takes a lot longer. I had adjusted well to scrolling through the pics with the "hide dicks" filter on and catching the pics that I like pretty quickly.

It's kind of funny to think of it this way, but trying to go through the pics with the "show all" setting...I get a little confused about what I'm seeing. Strangely funny to spend as many years as I have becoming well versed in the differences between mens and womens bodies and be momentarily confused until my head sorts it out.

Kind of fun...but takes too long. Anyways, if anyone is curious I guess they can get an idea of what guy pics I think are well done and enjoy through my bookmarks.

The other thing that jumps out at me...

This shaving thing is out of control in my opinion. Both men and women...shaved, shaved, shaved, shaved. I guess I have a bit of a hangup with the, intended or not, hint of prepubescence that it entails in my mind. What's wrong with a little pubic hair?

The little sabbatical from NN is over...definitely happy to be back. A wonderful little place where sexuality is celebrated more openly than any place I know of. And despite all the fakers who get off on that for reasons I don't understand, the most honest celebration as well. For free and for fun!

It's a blessing to be able to participate with you people!

Got to check this guy out. I've got a serious crush on him! If you don't have the time or patience, start at about 1:55. My God, those knives...

I want this knife

[IMG]http://i687.photobucket.com/albums/vv240/Chefknivestogo/cktg3.jpg[/IMG]

Such a sexy pic of such a sexy thing. Only $500...

I suppose it's silly for me to fall into the cliche, but I didn't end up with a money shot. Don't know why that seems like a priority, but there you have it. Gather that many do find it to finish the eroticism of it all.

Done my few previews...probably all up that will be up till the end. Kind of fun to see the progression, kind of fun to learn the program a bit. I actually did film/video editing stuff in school. It was a fun if not entirely productive pursuit.

I am very pleased to see how much it has expanded and become accessible. Back in the day, video editing on a computer would have required an immense investment to be able to do anything worthwhile. Now anyone can jump down to the local electronics store and buy everything needed to start making basic videos for under a thousand. Amazing. Doesn't mean people understand the basics, but amazing!

I have always been a big fan of the stationary camera. I don't like all the jumping around "new wave" camera work that started with the horror movies and has become adopted by virtually everything. I much prefer the notion of the golden age of Hollywood where the goal was usually to make the camera and the editing as invisible as possible. I think that works far better for narrative films. For experimental stuff and artistic stuff, rock on. But to try to take a run of the mill two hour film and make it 'exciting' through incorporating as much camera movement as possible is simply annoying to me...and strikes me as lazy.

If anyone knows of him, Jim Jarmusch is probably the modern day director who had the most influence upon my conceptions of camera work. Stranger than Paradise, Down by Law, Dead Man, Night on Earth, Ghost Dog, Coffee and Cigarettes...love his films and sensibilities! Doesn't hurt that he has Tom Waits in so much of his stuff either!

A game to show what PJ's we sleep in. Or in my case, lack thereof. Hope it is not too early, but I have to run out to a meeting in a few minutes.

Always preferred to sleep nude. Been some apartments where there was a vibe that was counter productive to it, it is perfect in our house though so no more PJ's! Much better than the last time I owned a house in which I did sleep nude much of the time...but was also well known to pass out in whatever clothes I had been wearing that day.

But I do wear socks. I like warm feet so that is real! The frogs and pillow are just there because...

Others participating in this game (keep an eye out for their blogs):

Spicy_purr, Uschi, Safire13, onib28, Be4andAfter, nickey69, Cotton_balls, Whispermyname, Dreamingof_U, petiteprincess, GoingGreek, dziga, VTCali, avaitor757, MrCoverYou, kricket187, arabella_topaz, stardustdream, needsithard, lovemybabygirl, MissOwl, cub1112 and tight_wet_lips.


The frogs were a Valentine's Day gift for My Love. Very randomly, they set off a sound which says, "I Love You." It is very unpredictable. Shake them over and over and they don't. Nudge them slightly the right way in your sleep or throw it off the bed and it suddenly says, "I Love You." Seems fairly appropriate considering the unpredictable nature of relationships.

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/One.jpg[/IMG]

I like the way this pillow works out. It says, "DANCE like there's nobody watching, LOVE like you'll never get hurt, SING like there is nobody listening." Good approach that I admit that I often fail to live up to. Always been a pretty self-conscious guy...

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/Three.jpg[/IMG]

And just a robe pic. I will remain a hippie!

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/Two.jpg[/IMG]

A game to show what PJ's we sleep in. Or in my case, lack thereof. Hope it is not too early, but I have to run out to a meeting in a few minutes.

Always preferred to sleep nude. Been some apartments where there was a vibe that was counter productive to it, it is perfect in our house though so no more PJ's! Much better than the last time I owned a house in which I did sleep nude much of the time...but was also well known to pass out in whatever clothes I had been wearing that day.

But I do wear socks. I like warm feet so that is real! The frogs and pillow are just there because...

Others participating in this game (keep an eye out for their blogs):

Spicy_purr, Uschi, Safire13, onib28, Be4andAfter, nickey69, Cotton_balls, Whispermyname, Dreamingof_U, petiteprincess, GoingGreek, dziga, VTCali, avaitor757, MrCoverYou, kricket187, arabella_topaz, stardustdream, needsithard, lovemybabygirl, MissOwl, cub1112 and tight_wet_lips.


The frogs were a Valentine's Day gift for My Love. Very randomly, they set off a sound which says, "I Love You." It is very unpredictable. Shake them over and over and they don't. Nudge them slightly the right way in your sleep or throw it off the bed and it suddenly says, "I Love You." Seems fairly appropriate considering the unpredictable nature of relationships.

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/One.jpg[/IMG]

I like the way this pillow works out. It says, "DANCE like there's nobody watching, LOVE like you'll never get hurt, SING like there is nobody listening." Good approach that I admit that I often fail to live up to. Always been a pretty self-conscious guy...

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/Three.jpg[/IMG]

And just a robe pic. I will remain a hippie!

[IMG]http://i248.photobucket.com/albums/gg194/dzigad/NN/Two.jpg[/IMG]

The least I can do is be awake to instances that happen when I should be spurred to.

Met with a friend and someone I try to help today. A multi-millionaire fellow who shares some of the same fundamental problems that I have had, in different forms but the same. The blessings of being able to realize so concretely that money is not a solution to a life full of fears and insecurity. Living well is the ONLY solution to those things. So many times it is so easy to get caught up with self-defeating trains of thought that, "If I just had X,Y or Z I'd be happy." It is a blessing to be able to be pulled out of those thoughts and be pulled back towards seeing that the thing that makes one truly happy can only be obtained internally. External things always let us down because it seems to be an inherent human tendency to want more no matter what.

Then later I went out with the family to celebrate a nephew's birthday. He and one of his brothers have autism. Truth be told, I was somewhat unsure about going last night. It's not the easiest thing in the world to deal with and the thought pops into my mind that they probably aren't really aware that we are there...at least in the sense that I view being aware. However, My Love brought up the point that we simply don't know. We don't and can't know what their experience of the world is. What is noted and what isn't. What brings happiness, enjoyment, peace, satisfaction, comfort, connection...any of those things. So of course I went, probably would have anyways because that's the sort of thing I do regardless of personal feelings about it, and it was good. Not good in terms of moments of connection or anything like that, but good in terms of simply being there and accepting that I have no clue what it might mean to them. Ended up having a great time with another nephew too...plus made my parents really happy. So good stuff.

Then I had plans. Plans to perhaps take pics and/or finish filming for my video. No money shot for it yet! My Love brought up perhaps filming us for a video...surprised by that because she has a lot of reticence about posting on NN for reasons I'm sure most of us are familiar with. So that was exciting to think about. Left it up to her...and none of it came to pass. Just some beautiful love making and enjoying the moments without interruptions brought about by the camera.

Talked to another guy later who is pretty much sober only through antabuse at this point. It works...sometimes...he has drank on it once already. Man, drinking on antabuse is ugly. Anyways, regardless of its inherent value or lack of value for long term sobriety, I have sobriety that is brought about by the best circumstances that I can actually envision. Bring brought down to total collapse by the failure of every single thing I did to try to control both my drinking and my life. Total collapse. No more of my solutions left. It led me straight into the sort of thoughts I am expressing now which is not the way I viewed the world at all some seven short years ago. Only internally will I find happiness and knowing that means I don't have to constantly diddle around with trying to control the externals to make the world make me happy.

And to top all of that off, I get to view all the beautiful nude people on NN who do it for free and for fun...the only good reason to do pretty much anything.

Blessed indeed.

of people posting on here and then being upset with the type of person commenting on their photos. Exhibitionism to me implies, "Who cares who views it?" An obvious corollary is "who cares who enjoys it...or how?"

Kind of spurred by thinking about some people on here who seem to really like to control the kind of interaction they have with people. Think that's kind of what it comes down to...that control bit.

Either I'm exhibiting 'cause I love to exhibit, or I'm exhibiting because I want to get a certain thing from someone else for it. I'm not saying it's wrong or it really bugs me (lots of great pictures get posted to get a certain kind of attention from a certain kind of person).

When I first started posting, I didn't really have a problem with it, but it was a little disappointing that so many comments came from gay men. I understand wanting a certain kind of person to comment. I was also in a phase of life in which my sexual life sucked. It definitely drove an interest in having attention from women specifically to fuel fantasies. Now that I have a hugely satisfying sexual relationship, that has changed very much. Truthfully, it changed before then probably. Regardless of always being completely okay with people being gay, the thought of gay guys wanking to my pics and videos was a new dynamic which spurred more thought which made me relieved to find that there is nothing about it that offends me...in fact it is not just flattering, but kind of a turn on. Maybe its a factor of that, maybe it is a factor of getting older and having a touch of midlife crisis related to, "what sexual play have I missed" but the thought of giving a guy a blowjob becomes increasingly alluring.