I'm not looking to just add friends on this site, so if I don't talk to someone enough or I really don't see the need in having you on my list of friends then that's just it.

Shit happens, life gets in the way of things and it's inevitable that people move on.

If I have talked to you once or twice, and all that is mentioned is that of a sexual nature - your chances are high of being taken off of my list of friends (because lets face it, friends talk to each other, right?).

If we have talked on more than one occasion and about different topics then you are safe. That's it, that's all.

That is my criteria for staying on my list of friends.

Grandson driving car
Grandma likes the beat and begins to quite bluntly get jiggy with it
Robin Thicke's Blurred Lines playing on stereo
Grandson has a wtf moment and staring at granny through his phone and suddenly realizes that he's watching HIS GRANDMOTHER and promptly averts his eyes

enjoy.

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I'm not sure if I'm just posting this for twl and myself but here's another reason why John Mayer is awesome.

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I will quit with the John Mayer spam now lol.

"Just remember on the way home, you were never meant to feel alone." - On the Way Home by John Mayer, Paradise Valley 2013

I got my new toy in the mail today. I have been wearing it for the last 4 hours and I'm so frustrated. It feels great! I love it!

And yet I did everything I could not to get excited, not to hurry, nothing. I tried to tease myself, fondle, gentle little spanks - anything I could think of.

I still couldn't cum.


....I feel so broken right now....

I did, however have a new pleasurable experience which did make me feel a little less broken thanks to my new toy.

Also to go along with one of my earlier posts where I was aiming look for a father for my child, I've decided to hold off for a little bit. My health isn't the greatest just yet and I want to get myself into better health due to my Hashimoto's Thyroiditis.

There are quite a few factors that I am particularly concerned about like the fact that my body is already being robbed of essential nutrients and vitamins from a drug I'm already on, yet plan on discontinuing within the next month pending a talk with my doctor.

The more I find out educational-wise about my condition(s), the happier I am because I have a knowledge and better understanding of how I can help myself get better. When I found out about Hashimoto's Disease in the Thyroid I was so happy that I wasn't dreaming something was wrong. I haven't even been a patient of this doctor for more than a year yet and I don't want another doctor for the rest of my life as long as she's around.

Naturally, I realize that no woman is able to honestly do a perfect pregnancy but considering my condition I would rather be fully aware that I'm capable of making the pregnancy a better experience with knowing my personal limitations based off of what I know with Hashimoto's thyroiditis.

So for now, until I have a better grip on things I'm taking a step back, repairing what I've already caused to my body through my thyroid problem and hopefully have something lined up within the next year and a half or so.

Kiera Knightley. (I would go gay for this woman I swear) The short film isn't half bad.


Gore Verbinski. (fave director) He's directed this video which is also a favorite of mine.


Choreography. This video is astounding. Don't look at the country, don't get into the politics.


Favorite episode; Cowboy Funk. Spike Spiegel of Cowboy Bebop meets 'an asshole' who is ironically just like him! Havoc ensues.

(The Man behind) Door Number One?
or
(The Man behind) Door Number Two?


Haven't slept with either. Yet. I'm not basing anything off of that anyhow. It's more like torture between the two.

My mind won't shut off of either of them. The minute either of the two talk to me I just turn into putty because I'm so happy for the attention.

Neither of them live close to me but that doesn't bother me. I love their personalities and it's what doesn't necessarily scare but worries me.

I love people and I love my close friends. I consider love to be achievable on multiple levels of trust between my friends. Like love between platonic friendships and with family.

Both have told me information about themselves they haven't told anyone else and not that I'm going to disclose it, but I don't have that happen to me very often. Not with a member of the opposite sex. Actually I don't remember the last time someone has up until either of them told me.

...sigh. When I'm perplexed my writing suffers if it's not entirely obvious. None of this makes sense.

I swear if I knew her for real we'd be horribly funny.

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Please don't ask me for photos, or random friend requests.

I'm shy but once you get to know me I have a heart the size of a football field.

The best way for me to describe myself is like my shy side being that of Jean Grey from X-Men. I'm calm, collected, fun to be around. Then the desire and lust for life hits me all over again and I want to live and feel sensual like a phoenix born from ashes.

Exciting right? nah it's kind of annoying but thankfully I don't have two different voices in my head.

Oh - if labeling myself as a geek/nerd wasn't enough I'm also a gamer. Grew up on it with having an older brother and cousins playing it. I love to write, draw and perform antics. I've also been known to be quite the shit disturber and I blame my wild streak for it.

Then there are other times I just want to huddle up into a ball and block out the rest of the world.

I'm the type of person that sees the good qualities in differences. Whether it's a mac or pc, dog or cat, etc.

I have become a far stronger person mentally as of late. When I first got to NN I was afraid to do much of anything but thanks to the encouraging fellow NNer's I have blossomed and I thank them deeply for that.

I'll tell you about some of the things that shaped me before I came here. From early on I've always had a very optimistic look on life to strive for happiness and I've realized that only one person can make that possible; Me.

From age Ten to Sixteen I was xxxxxx into sexual positions by a member of my family that I wish to leave anonymous. It was then when I found the strength one day after developing the fear of heavy breathing, I broke free by telling them never to do that again. They never have since.

Throughout my teens I was perplexed with having rumors go through my school about xxxxxx. I didn't fit in with any group labels and often found myself alone. Most other girls were talking about weddings and I was mapping out landscaping and drafting a house of my own.

Mentally frustrated, I was also pinned with being a lesbian because I found neither sex attractive. It was because I didn't see anyone in my area worth my personal time.

During my college years I sought out from the pack of those who went East and headed West. I became promiscuous and fell into depression which led to thoughts of suicide.

I moved home to aid my family after my grandparents both developed Alzheimer's and my brothers' divorce. And Here I am. Wanting to rise from the ashes again and be happier, and a better person.