I have vascular and hypermobile Ehlers Danlos syndrome. I was once a contributing member of society that tried my hardest to fulfill my dreams, but now I can no longer do that, so I seek to absorb as much human culture as possible before I die. Some of the pictures you are going to see on here are going to be me from a few years ago before my disorder got really bad. I was thinner then, I am larger now. Though all through my life I have changed a lot from being fat to thin to fat to thin. I am currently trying to lose a little weight. I believe in the paranormal and aliens and things like that, but on my own terms. I'm a skilled artist and a gifted linguist. I understand Spanish very well but my speaking skills in it aren't that great, however I have intermediate skill in Japanese across the board. I'm currently into studying German and French, and once I have a decent ability in them, I'll move onto studying Romanian and Finnish. I once went to Cosmetology school and I was also a model at one point in time. I love cats, I collect socks. I have fetishes and because of my genetic problems I can't really have normal sex because I can only get off the way that feels good for me, and I'm far more mental sexually than physical. I'm heavily into psychology and I won't talk about it in a concept-based way, but in my own way, however I do read a lot of research. I am vehemently against infant circumcision. I am highly intuitive and I get to know others easily, so easily they usually find it uncomfortable when I know all their secrets without them saying anything. I know quite a bit about serial killers and psychological profiling. I'd have loved to be in the FBI if I had the body to withstand the physical training. I like strange things and ideas, I love possibilities, and new concepts, I'm very creative. To add a little more about me for those who are interested: I have an oral fixation and no gag reflex so I am into hardcore oral and face-fucking, but only if he has foreskin. Unfortunately, that's a matter of fetishism for me, so I apologize to all who feel slighted by reading that. In my fantasies men can cum enough to fill a bathtub, I appreciate excessive wetness. I like to watch squirting porn, I can't squirt, I wish I could, but I'm not built like other girls down south. It takes me a long time to orgasm and I feel nothing from vaginal sex. I like anal sex, but I can't come from it. I really love vampires, and I'm turned on if my partner has long fingernails or sharp teeth. I'm very turned off by a man with pronounced musculature, for some reason the first time I ever touched a guy with rock-hard abs, I vomitted in my mouth. I was barely 14 then, and my aversion to muscles still exists. I prefer a fat man or a thin man, of virtually all ages, providing they look grown up enough, sometimes that's 18, sometimes it's 30, depending on the man. I like the unusual, when someone has something unusual about the way they look or an interesting fetish. I appreciate the original things about the individual and his or her personality and I have a talent for picking out what those things are. Feel free to ask me anything, I've been told I'm too honest for my own good, and I seriously lack tact as well. Watch out, though, because I'm also verbose. Can't you tell? ;) **It has been asked about my boyfriend, if he is a "drag queen" or what is up with him? A drag queen is usually a gay man that dresses up as a woman to entertain others. A transvestite is usually a straight man that gets arousal from dressing up like a woman. A transgendered person is either gender that feels the standard gender labels do not fit what they feel in their heart they are, this includes gender ambiguous people. A transsexual is someone who feels they were born the wrong gender. My boyfriend is transgendered, but also a transvestite, he prefers an androgynous appearance, to him, that's an expression of who he is inside. If you were to cut off his long hair and long fingernails and put him in masculine clothing, he would feel as though his cock had actually been cut off. I believe that people should be allowed to have the gender expression that they want and believe is right for themselves.**
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Tuesday, October 25, 2011, 11:30:01 AM- Weight | ||||||
So yeah, I used to be skinny, but before I was skinny I was bigger, and before I was bigger then, I was skinny before that too. Now I am bigger again, but there is a reason I'll never be skinny and "sexy" again. Other than my Ehlers Danlos and the obvious issues it has given me physically with pain and mobility. So here is your sexy girl with no makeup, just standing there, taking a full body shot. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/adf7dd6a.jpg[/IMG] It looks different when bent over or crumpled up or sitting or from another angle, but from this angle, so dead on, I find it pretty honest. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/3557b0b2.jpg[/IMG] Likewise this, although too big for some of you and just fine for others, it's pretty honest. I don't like how big I am here, I don't think it looks as good as I could look, but I think now, in retrospect it looks better than the previous picture. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/0fbcbaf0.jpg[/IMG] There really was nothing to me. I was about dead, honestly. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/da9ad741.jpg[/IMG] By comparison, no matter how frumpy my body looks big, I have to like myself more now, because I freaking hated myself when I only ate about a slice of bread every day. And that is the truth of that. | ||||||
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Sunday, October 23, 2011, 9:35:34 AM- Art | ||||||
So I wanted to show my art. At least one piece that I am proud of. Here is a close up of the piece, just to give you an idea that it is actually created by me (visible brush strokes, imperfections) and not a photo manipulation. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/clipofkunikopainting2.jpg[/IMG] But here is the whole thing. [IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/kunikopaintingdoneex-1.jpg[/IMG] So this girl, she's a frequent character in my dreams. I refer to her as Kuniko, but that's not the name she says she has in dreams. Anyhow, she's usually building some kind of computer or robot even, and she collects perfume bottles. Her father is a Scientist and her mother a hair dresser that really likes interior decorating. I know it's weird, but all of that is in my dreams of her. I recently had a dream of her where she had brown hair, not blonde like usual. The "window" and the tree are supposed to look fake, but real, or coming alive. Whatever you do, don't tell me that the fish look like Lisa Frank fish, or I'll eat your face off. This painting took about two months to finish, and over a hundred hours. If you printed it out at its highest resolution, it would be absolutely huge. | ||||||
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