Everyone always asks, what do you want to try, and I always try to rattle off a list from memory. Well, that is silly, especially because I am always forgetting something, and then why try o remember when I have this whole writing thing here that I could be using?!!? Duh!! So I am going to create my Bucket List, and then I can add and mark things off as they occur.
Dang, I am getting this whole exploring fetishes thing organized like my business or life! I'm taking it serious, ya'll!!

1. ANR Relationship
2. Threesome
3. Gangbang
4. Piss in my ass
5. Medical play
6. Speculum play in pussy
7. Speculum play in ass
8. Butt plugs
9. Sex with a butt plug in
10. Fisting - pussy
11. Public sex
12. Public play
13. Suckling
14. Tit Tying
15. Strap-on - use on a guy
16. Foot worship - receiving
17. Spanking
18. Spanking and fingering together
19. stretching my pussy
20. two cocks in my pussy
21. titty fucking - DONE
22. cum on my tits - DONE

It's a Wednesday, middle of the week, nothing exciting going on right? So what better way to pass the day than to get together with a friend/playmate or whatever you want to term someone. Excellent use of an afternoon.

I have big boobs, you've all seen them on my profile. I am not ashamed of them, in fact in the recent years I have come to embrace these big boobs, they are a big part of me, they helped to create me into the person I am today, and they are probably one of the greatest erogenous zones I have. I mean really, there is way more surface area to the tits than any other erogenous zone on my body.

That all being said, it means that I love to have them played with. Now I don't mean just grab, twist and tweak and say you're done!! No these are big old "I" cup boobs and they need attention worthy of their size!! They need to really be handled - squeezed, massaged, kneaded and not for just a few seconds, but for long periods of time. They also need to be licked, kissed and sucked; again not just a just for a couple moments but some long time attention!

Now I have meet guys on here who promise me they are boob men, that they will lavish them with attention, and I buy into their hype, trust that they will follow through with their promises only to be disappointed time and time again. Finally I started talking to a guy, he never told me he was a tit man, although he did express interest in them and an attraction to them. Now, for classification purposes only he is a BBC, and we all know that I am into exploring that right now. He told me that he world make sure I was happy and they were taking care of. Excuse me, yeah right I was thinking, I wasn't sure I believed him, but he was so sweet and we got along well and I just wanted to experience him.

First surprise was that he was actually cuter than his pictures! I mean, he had good pictures and I liked the way he looked, but I liked the way we got along when we talked back and forth, and that is usually more of how I decide who to meet. Reason for this is that I have found that pictures on here just don't tell the whole story, I am attracted to people not just for looks but on a communicate level! He's tall, which is one of those strange things that I love! I just have this thing for a taller guy, because I have to stand on my tiptoes to kiss them, and then I end up leaning my tits into them to keep my balance and it is just erotic to kiss a guy with your tits pressed into his chest like that! I told you that my tits are highly erogenous, and this is just another example of that fact. Second surprise was that he was just as sweet and easy-going, easy to talk to and enjoy being with in person as he had been online!! The day could have ended right there and I would have been pleased, I would have considered it a great success, because in my experience this was a rare event!!!

Then, he proceeded to make good on his promise to take good care of the tits!! And man did he ever make good on that promise!! He held them, felt their weight, cupped them and fondled them. He kneaded them and squeezed them making them feel like a part of my body that deserved to be there, and not an afterthought that has no purpose, talk about getting me excited and wet!! Then, he lowered his mouth and kissed them! Holy heaven above, he took his time, and he knew exactly what to do with a pair of massive tits! He kissed them, licked the nipples and played with them with his tongue, then he sucked on them, and I am not talking a light bit either. He sucked long, and hard, and deep!! Trust me, when you have big boobs, hard and deep are two things you have to have!! I almost thought he was going to suck a third of the tit into his mouth! It was wonderful!! So exciting and felt so good!! Now that was how you handled a pair of "I" cup tits!!

Even better, he didn't just lavish them with attention when we first saw them and then forget them, no he had them on his mind the whole time, because he would go back to them, would fondle them more doing other acts and he kept me at a highly excited state the entire time. My nipples were so hard and erect the entire time!

As I sit here and write this, and yes he knows I am writing this because we laughed about it when our afternoon together was done. He wondered if I would write about him and what I would say. That alone tells you that he got to really know me, because even through these experiences I can't turn off the writer in me. Writing is my passion in life, it is what I do for a living, and it is what keeps me sane. He knew I would have to write about it, and I only hope that he is as pleased with what I shared as I was with the experience! But, as I sit here to write this, my tits feel so good. My nipples are still extremely hard from all the attention they received, but it is a wonderfully good feeling. They will continue to remind me of today for a long time to come, and for that I am thankful. When I no longer can feel today in my tits, I only have to return here to reread today, and to feel that excitement and pleasure once again.

So yes this is probably going to be more of a rant, and that is ok, if you don't want to read it you better stop now, because once I get to it, there is no going back.

Yes, I have myself listed as a "babygirl" on a kinky site. Yes, I like the idea of daddy - someone to pamper me, to spoil me, to treat me like I should be treated, to say nice things, do nice things, etc. The only problem with that is that people think because I am a babygirl I have no brains and will submit to any command that any guy gives me just because he stuck the title Dom or Daddy behind his name on here.

I am not stupid, I am not weak, and I do NOT need some jerk who thinks he is a DOM or a DADDY telling me what to do. Especially one that knows absolutely nothing about me!

I have had guys message me and say "Hey, I see you don't have a Dom or Master listed. I'm your Dom, now you go list me on your profile." I am like excuse me! If I wanted a Dom or Master I would have one, and I would have one listed if the ones that I have meet so far haven't been such jerks and demanded that I list them without even talking to me or meeting me!

Now, Please there are two of you out there, and you two know who you are...that are real and true Dom's. You have never once asked me to do something like that, you have been kind and understanding, you have answered questions and taught me how a true Dom works and what to look for in a true Dom. You have explained consideration and rules, you have made me comfortable with the whole arrangement.

Now, when I am ready for a Dom or a Daddy, I know what to look for, and I know how to go about finding it. But it will never walk up to me and demand I do something I don't want to do.

Ok, and now there are those of you who will say that if I am going to be that bold then I am not really a Babygirl or a sub or whatever. Bull! Just because I can stand up for myself, not let you walk over me and take advantage of me does not diminish what I feel is my roll. Get over it! No where does it say that a sub must allow anyone and everyone to walk on them and treat them like crap!'

Now that I have said that, let's just see how many guys message me today and try to tell me what to do, like they know what is best for me without ever talking to me!!

I have always had kinky desires, but hid them. I thought something was wrong with me growing up in the middle of Indiana - the land of cornfields and little white churches, so I got married and tried to be the good little christian wife that does exactly what her husband wants, but because I didn't feel good about me I ended up in a bad relationship. I allowed my ex-husband to walk all over me, to tell me that I was no good, I was ugly, fat, a terrible wife, a losy lover, a worse mother, and on and on. I stayed for far too long, but I thought it was better for my kids to have two parents, until the day my xxxxxxxx son decided that if his dad could walk on me he could to. I plucked up courage that I didn't know I had and walked out. When I finally left I had learned that kinky was out there and that I was not screwed up.

I joined here and started looking at stuff that I wanted. At this point I know that I want BBC or maybe a BWC, but I know that I love the feeling of being stretched. I know I want an ANR (dry suckling) because of the emotional and physical connection. I love oral, I'm starting to get into public and the idea of being watched. I have a thing for spanking. I've always had a desire for medical play and maybe some light bondage. I am definitely straight, not attracted to girls at all, but I am willing to do a fmf threesome for my partners sake only, would really like to try a mfm threesome and maybe a gang bang.

I know that I am emotional fragile after all the crap my ex-husband put me through...
I want to be spoiled by words and deeds, someone to tell me that I am attractive and that they care, to do things for me, to make me feel special and so I guess that is why I have leaned towards the need for a Daddy.
I am definitely a submissive person, always wanting what is best for the other person - although if I am close enough to that person I can in occasional times of play take the lead, but not often.
I also have a desire not to be someones dirty secret - good enough to fuck but not good enough to be seen in public with, that just reinforces my ex-husbands cruel words.
I also know that I can not deal with an online only relationship. I am a touchy-feeley person. I need lots and lots of physical contact with whoever I am in a relationship or relationships with, so they have to be somewhat close or able to visit often.

I'm not really sure that one person can fill all the voids in me at this point, and that is fine, I don't mind if I need more than one, but I need someone to coordinate it all, because I am not good at it....

Do I need a Daddy, of a Dom, or a Mentor or a secretary or something else completely?

So many people will tell you that you have to have at least one BBC (Big Black Cock) experience in your kinky journey. It is different they will say, and I have always said that if the opportunity ever presented itself I would, but I had just never found a gentleman that I was interested enough in to even try having a sexual encounter with. Then I began my more kinky journey and I opened a number of doors and broke down walls that I never realized I had up. Recently the opportunity to have my first BBC experience came up and I took it without looking back.

I arrived at the location a little nervous. I had jumped into this meeting knowing so much less about him than I had about most men, but I knew I wanted this experience, and I wasn't passing it up. I knew what I needed to know - the basics. Turned out he was slightly shorter than I am. Hmmm, I could deal with it for the first experience. I have a thing for taller guys though. There is just something powerful and protective about a man that is taller than you, who can warm his arms around you and you have to reach up on tip toes to kiss. To his credit though, he was a soft, warm kisser and I relaxed.

I wondered if I would even notice a difference because as a rule I normally am a multiple orgasm person. I almost always have multiple orgasms, unless they are really, really bad. I can only think of a few times that I only had one orgasm. I also have the ability to gush, not squirt. Most of the time the videos show women who squirt these nice streams, but I am not like that, I do more of a gush, kinda like a water balloon breaking. The thing about that is that the gushing is random and only happens now and then, not all that often, but usually once in an encounter.

I was in for a huge surprise, and I am not talking about the BBC!! As far as the BBC went, he wasn't that much longer than I had normally seen, but the thickness or girth was much more than I was used to. What surprised me was that not only was he able to bring me to multiple orgasms, but they were back to back to back orgasms and even more surprising every single orgasm was a gushing orgasm!! I had never in my life gushed like that!! OMG! It was wonderful, it was fabulous and I wanted more and more!

That first experience showed me that my body can react in ways I didn't know were possible, and I want to know more. I want to experience more. I want to know what would happen in different positions and under different environments. No I am not limiting my exploring only to BBC's but I want to explore all BIG COCKS, because I want to explore that constant gushing more.