I started to write a blog but it seemed to be to down and bitchy ......just needed to get it out .

But instead I bid to all of you a good day....

The day came he is now here.
The newest member of the family is now here ..
Born on Feb. 16 ,2010 at 8 lb 9 oz that's a big boy .
He's healthy and so is mom ,everyone is doing fine.

Ever get so tierd of being tierd , I mean just sick of it .
No matter how much sleep you get,you could go back to sleep.
I mean well I get seven eight hrs or even ten hrs of sleep a night,and some times i'll fall a sleep again . Then later at supper time we'll put a movie in to watch and out i go again, some times with the plate still on my lap . (and that happens just about every night )And then if I manage not to fall asleep at all that day then im up all night. What the hell.
And try to talk mom about it all she tell's me it's because you have to work harder to breath, maybe I don't want to here it but talking to her is like pulling your own teeth.
Maybe I need more pills ha ha ha . just blowing steam

~ ME SO HAPPY ~
What a relief ..
See jay got me in to playing this game . And I saw you could look for people so I startes not much luck kinda .Then I went somewhere els .I looks around and looks some more . OO oky that
mite be him that mite be her . I found people I went to school
with, cool reconeck's even someone that has a special place in
my heart.
Then back and forth between the sights could it be mmm take a chance , oky send the note repliey..Yes it's me, second note no answer ... Send a request on the other sit , two days no answer.
Then I stare thinking did I over step was I pushy?
A notice, A note A repiey back nervous...



I FOUND MY LITTEL SISTER ..... AND IM GOING TO BE AN UNCLE..
the day is around feb. 14th i hope i can go..
See i've been looking for an uncel off and on for years with no luck , and trying to keep tabs on a brother I have with no luck.
There are six of us in total and decades between me and others.
Two sisters I can call and talk to any time, one I just got into contact with just over a year ago . And she has three kids .
thanks for reading

This is killing me I don't know what to do give up or keep
trying , I don't want to be over bearing or seem threatening in any way .I sent one note and got an answer, the
second was opened and no replie .So I just sent a third
and realy don't know what to do . I hope it's not a bad sign...
And I wonder if it was a bad idea ....
Well see just talking to my self , will let u know

WAITING

Im into my 2yr old merlo I made boy it's better that I thought it would be ...
Any one whant a tast ???

I had such a good dinner tonight wish I could have shared it with all of you ...
It was a rost made from the back strap of a deer (the one i hit with my truck). And a grouse breast , small red potatoes,carrots, and some green onion's I found .
Put it all in my slow cooker and let it go . Good old stick to your rib's kind of food ... wish you could have been here....

I have received two low blows in two day's .
One I make to much on unemployment.
The other I can't aford to live .It's not that I don't whant to work it's that I can't ,( I loved my job .Hard work and it was good pay . )Can't sit for long with out pain or be coming stiff . Can't stand or walk vary long eather my joints hurt or I can't breath right .Even thought about quiting the fier department .Even practice night kills me .
I never asked for this I don't want it. My mother and I got in an argument over the phone about what I was told ,it's like she doesn't under stand what im going through.
Im losing me and who I was and becoming some one els . and I can't cope in some ways .
When to the doc. yeasterday and all he did was bitch at me about my blood pressure being high (well its been high for a long time)And how I haven't been to my lung doc for a year (he's a quack any way)And I haven't been taking all my meds .
Then I go to see about medical help through the goverment.
No can't help and what you had we just took away , how nice .
OOOOOOOOoooo well what's next ooo my back hurts call the ambulance ha ha ............ Thanks for letting me bitch

TURKEY TURKEY TURKEY can't wait TURKEY TURKEY TURKEY pumkin pie.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERY ONE TURKEY TURKEY TURKEY........