I was in the mood to play last night and we had probably just missed each other to chat and play. You were out playing pool and I was getting all hot and bothered by looking at fun playtoys for us. I told myself I wouldn't give in to the urge to play with my body unless you were helping me. I slipped up and might need to be punished...

I went to bed around midnight all worked up but told myself I wasn't going to get off. I woke up at 2am feeling achy...I knew I had to cum!!! I thought, "I will just put in the gold balls and go back to sleep". That way I would feel full and be stimulated from the inside but not work my body in order to cum. I got out of bed, stripped my t-shirt and panties off as I walked to the drawer were I keep all my toys. I took the gold balls out of the drawer and got back into bed. I decided not to use lube as I was already fairly wet. These balls are pretty big and there are 4 of them so I decided to "lube" them up with spit. I put each ball into my mouth individually. Now, I clean them after each use but they still had a faint aftertaste of my pussy juices. That turned me on even more. I pulled back my pussy lips with my left hand and inserted each ball into my waiting cunt with my right hand. With each ball that went in, I felt more and more full. Finally the last balls was inserted and I laid there willing myself to go back to sleep. Sleep wouldn't cum and I was getting more and more frustrated.

I got out of bed, walked to the toy drawer and took out my travel vibrator. It's small and fits right on my clit. I thought "I can just hold it onto my clit for a bit and cum". I thought I was worked up enough that having the balls in my pussy and putting the vibe on my clit would do it for me. Sadly, that wasn't the case. Very frustrated now, I got out of bed for the third time and got the rabbit vibrator. I turned off the small vibe and slowly pulled the balls out of my now drenched cunt. The balls make a slight popping sound as they leave my pussy due to the moisture and the suction. I also feel it in my ass as they push on the inner walls of my body when they are released.

I climb back into bed a insert the dildo...boy does it ever feel good! I work it in and out of my body for a minutes feeling the delicious friction on my inner vaginal walls before I turn on the vibe. OH GOD...that's what I was looking for. I felt guilty that you were not included in my play but remember how much you like to watch. Even though you weren't on-line to play with I decided to include you in my fantasy.

I visualized you standing over me telling me to fuck my cunt with the dildo as you watched. I imagined you starting to stroke your cock as you watched me fuck myself with my toy. I wanted to have your cock in my mouth as I fucked my slutty cunt with my vibrator. You told me that I needed to beg for your cock before my lips could wrap around it. You put both of your knees on either side of my head and your cock was inches from my mouth as you instructed me to ask your permission. "Daddy, your filthy slut of a girl wants your hot throbbing cock in her mouth. May I please wrap my lips around your big dick and take you deep into my mouth?" Your reply is "ask again in a few minutes and maybe you'll get my cock in your mouth". I am very frustrated with not being able to cum and having your enormous cock right in front of my mouth and not being allowed to taste you. The waiting is killing me!! I ask again and you put your giant cock in my mouth and latch on, sucking you like a baby sucks at it's mother tit.

I haven't had enough of your cock when you pull out of my mouth, move down my body and take control of the vibrator from me. You vary the speeds of the vibe and move the dildo in and out of my body at different speeds...fast and hard, then slow and contolled. At one point in time you take the dildo all the way out of my body, turn it off and tell me I can't cum until you say. I have never known such frustration. If you won't give me your cock in my body, fuck me with the vibe or allow me to use my hands I might die from the agony of waiting to cum!! Finally, you put the vibe back in my hand and tell me to cum hard and fast! I finally had permission!!!

I put the dildo back in my waiting cunt and turn the vibe on high. I flip onto my stomach and mount the dildo. I frantically shove my dripping pussy onto the dildo in anticpation of a mighty orgasm. It doesn't take long...you instructed me to cum hard and in a few minutes that is absolutely what I did. My muscles spasmed, my pussy milked the dildo, my back arched, and my toes curled. I turned off the vibe and collasped onto of the dildo with it still inside me. I lay there for a few minutes waiting for my orgasm to cum to a wonderful end. I pulled the dildo out of my cunt, licked my juices off of it and said "thank you, master"!

Your pet played without you in person, without you on line, but with you in my dreams...
LONG HOT WET KISSES ALL OVER!!!

So I dried my eyes and got in my car. I went to the grocery store and then to church. It is the first day of Advent which is a day of renewal. It is also a day to "let it be". I have a renewed sense of self and a wonderful sense of peace which always happens after a nice mass. I need to remember that and get back into the habit of going on Sunday's...I feel much better once I am spiritually centered. Thank you for all your wonderful PM's and comments. Sometimes a girl just needs a good cry and a little self pity but I am back in the game again!

I know that I am normally much more upbeat than this but I have hit a low point this morning and need to get it out! I love all my NN fans but I can't seem to find a real live man out there for me. I am an attractive, smart, successful woman and I have never had a real relationship...hell, I can't even get past date #3.

I'm tired of it all...it seems like the only men I attract are the ones that I can't have or don't want! If you live far away, please talk to me since I will end up liking you and don't have a chance in hell given the distance! If you have a wife or girlfriend, please talk to me because I seem to want those that I can't have.

I am ok with whoever wants to perv at my pics but I don't want to carry on sexual conversations with someone my father's age. Yet, it seems like every man over the age of 50 wants to talk to me.

I haven't had a date in 3 months but I can have amazing phone sex with a hot guy on another continent! I end up dating losers, assholes, players, liars...I just want a nice guy who wants me! I date nice guys and get "night kiddo" at the end of the date!

I try to get something started with a man in my area by sending an e-mail that says "you have a great smile and amazing eyes...want to get a drink sometime" and I get an e-mail back that says "sure, why not". I want more than just a ho-hum response. Not only that but he wanted to arrange the date over the phone (which is fine) but I would like him to call me...I know that's stupid but I set the ball rolling and would like him to keep it going. I don't think I am going to hear from him which really means he isn't that into me to begin with.

I suck at dating!! I dislike being alone and the holiday season is hard. Neither of my sisters are dating but they live together and have a cat. I normally like living alone and I refuse to be the "cat lady". It's dumb, I know, but I feel like getting a cat is giving into the "spinster" stereotype.

I need to stop crying and get my day started! I hate feeling this way...

Hey!! I am back from my vacation and am slowly posting new pics and responding to PM's. I had a great time while I was away but I missed all of you!! It's nice to post this morning and get lots of comments almost instantly! My NN fans are great on the ego...

Good morning to everyone!! I am almost all packed and ready for my vacation. I will be out of touch for 2 weeks but will try and catch up with all of you once I return which will be the first weekend in Dec. Much love to all of you...
Kisses!!!!!!

I wake up in the morning and you pull me close to you, your cock straining at my ass cheeks and say "wear the purple shoes to work today...i want to think of you in them while i'm at work". Wanting to please you, i put away the outfit I had picked out to wear to work and take the purple shoes out of the closet along with a wraparound dress to match. You grow even harder as you watch me go about my morning routine.

I want to cum back to be and have a little morning fun but you stop me and say "let's save it until tonight. i have something special planned". you kiss me, turn me around to face the shower, slap my ass lightly and tell me "get showered, get dressed and get to work. the sooner you get home, the sooner we can have some fun"

I am intrigued about what you have planned but you have told me not to ask any questions. I step out of the shower with a towel wrapped around me. You meet me at the door with a pair of my panties in your hand and say "i also want you to wear these today and think of me all day long". I normally don't wear crotchless panties to work but you asked so I comply.

I get dressed and walk to the front door to leave. You walk me to the door butt ass naked. You roughly turn me around so my back is against the wall. You run your hands down my body, parting my dress in the front and finger my pussy. Your hand cums away wet and you lick my juices off your fingers. You kiss me passionately and say "tonight"! You never let me touch you even though I am aching to and tell me to get to work!

All day long I wonder what is waiting for me when I get home. Around lunchtime you send me an e-mail going into explicit detail of what awaits me when I get home. I am so hot that I go into the women's restroom at work, lock the door, and play with myself. I don't let myself cum but I get myself all worked up.

I take a pic of my waiting pussy and hard little clit on my cell phone and send it to you. The text that goes with the pic asks "why are we waiting...i want you now! Meet me for a quickie? It's a great way to spend a lunch hour!" You reply that I have to wait and that you are going to feast on my body for dinner.

The next few hours at work seem to drag on forever and I can't seem to concentrate on anything but you. Thankfully, the end of the day cums and I am able to leave work. I say goodbye to my coworkers with a twinkle in my eye and get in my car. The minute I am in my car my fingers are in my pussy as I drive home. I want you so bad I can't wait. I call you to hear your voice as I am driving but all I get is your voicemail. I'm frustrated but know that soon I will get to put my hands all over your body. I know you are going to fuck me good the minute I walk in the door!!!

You meet me at the front door fully clothed and looking as cool as can be like you haven't been hot and bothered all day long! You pull me inside, close the door, open the front of my dress, and spread kisses all down the front of my body. You pull the dress completely off, hand me a glass of wine and say "honey, how was your day??"

I put the wine down without having any and kiss you like I haven't seen you in months. I want to go fast but you tell me that this is your fantasy and we are playing by your rules. We then live out the e-mail you sent me at lunch and we both collapse with the most amazing orgasms we have had in a long time!!!!! There is no need for food for a while as we feast on each other!

So for those of you following my blog I was a bit down last night. I got up this morning and had a very lovely morning. I checked my e-mail and found several messages from an NN member, bear2u4u. He has some very graphic ideas for us with me being submissive to his control. I also received an erotic, kinky story from him that made me hot and wet! I responded to his story and then went into my bedroom, stripped off my clothes, grabbed my vibrator and slammed it into my waiting pussy. It didn't take me very long to get off, 10 minutes or so, and I had a fantastic, rockin orgasm...cumming first thing in the morning is a wonderful way to start the day!!! yummy...

It's interesting how you can have lots of people saying how hot and sexy you are but still be alone. I'm not into the bar scene so I have profiles on about 10 internet dating sites and still nothing! I know no one is going to come knocking on my door unless his car breaks down outside my apartment and he doesn't have a cell phone or onstar!! At the end of the day, I would just love to engage in good conversation with a man and be able to snuggle with him while watching movies on my sofa. A nice leisurely make out session that leads to fantastic sex and waking up in each other's arms in the morning. Is that too much to ask?? This sexy lady is apparently feeling a bit lonely and sorry for herself tonight!! Hopefully, tomorrow will be a bit better...anyone want to cheer me up?!?!?

I swear I have the sex drive of a man!!! I was chatting with an NN member for about an hour in one of the chat rooms when he asked for my number...which I gave (i never do this so don't ask)!!! He called me and we had amazing phone sex that ended in one of the most fantastic orgasms I have had in a good long while. Solo sex was never so much fun. By the way, it was the third orgasm of the day for me!!!!! What a great way to spend a Sunday afternoon...

So I just took some private pics for an NN member and I hope he lets me post them. They are really hot and I am so turned on right now!! I was playing with myself in between setting up the camera and posing. My pussy is JUICY!!!!!! I wish someone was around to lick it up.....