A quick update on my previous blog

So, things are looking more positive. A couple of weeks ago I got my scan results back and it hadn't spread to any organs...and I can finally say I officially have a brain, which may come as a surprise to some! It might not be big and it might not be clever but it's definitely there!
Such a weird sensation having the dye injected into me, it started with a tingly/hot sensation in my throat...like I'd swallowed a hot chill...then the heat swept down through my body and I genuinely thought I'd pissed my pants!!! I was lying there wide eyed at the thought of pissing my pants in front of the nurses. I was told I couldn't move so I couldn't check and the relief was massive when I looked down and saw no wet patch!

I'm going to see a surgeon on Thursday, to arrange my operation. I need to have a chunk cut out of me...it's going to be visual, side of head, neck and ear so there goes my lucrative modelling contracts! Fuck knows what I'm going to look like!

I'm looking for good stories to tell people about how I got my scars... animal attack maybe?? All suggestions welcome

I feel well and feel a bit of a fraud really, I've still to see what happens with the biopsy on my lymph nodes but things are looking positive
Thanks to everyone for your lovely messages and comments, it's been really appreciated

Hugs for everyone
Xxx

So... People who know me here will know me as a regular in status and generally I keep it light and funny in there, so I'll tell you my news here as I don't want to ruin the general mood in status

I've recently been diagnosed with cancer...and well that's just shit. Told you this was neither funny or about sex....If you took no notice it's your own fault

I'm not telling you this for sympathy by the way, I'm not looking for platitudes/inspirational stuff etc.... although if any of you fine ladies want to give me a sympathy blow job I'll gladly accept

I will be going for a scan soon, having some delightful dye injected into me to see how far it's spread...then I will be having an operation to remove some lymph nodes plus some more of me around the area of the lesion that was removed.

I'm writing this as a sort of therapy I suppose, I was expecting it not to be great news when I had the biopsy. The speed that everything happened told me that the docs where pretty sure it was cancer. I must admit I wasn't expecting it to be potentially this bad...that's hit me for six even though I had felt I had prepared myself.

If I feel up to it I will post updates as I go, if you don't want to know then just don't read my blogs...this is a sex site after all.

I was going to say I hope you don't mind me sharing this with you all...but frankly I don't care as I'm doing it for me.

Take care everyone, have fun and stay classy
Xxx

Joy Division and Paul Young, never thought I'd have those two in the same sentence but today I heard a version of 'Love will tear us apart' remade by Paul Young (probably in the late eighties) and I just had to say this....... It was fucking awful....truly fucking awful....It hurt my ears!

It's the aural equivalent of a KirkJ Picture!

I'm not a music snob, much but who the hell thought that was going to work?

Anyway I've had my rant, at least the sun was shining today, lovely and warm.

Have fun and enjoy whatever music you listen to xx

Just had to share this great profile comment I have just seen

My penis is your penis
You vagina is my vagina

Now if that isn't just the coolest piece of sweet talk....ever....in the world...past and future??

I might try this out in a bar one day.... A bar where they serve your drinks in plastic cups

A morning text does not simply mean "Good morning". Rather it comes with the silent loving message, "I think of you when I wake up"

I have recently been working on a farmhouse, a decent family look after me and we have a good laugh. They are ever so posh and obviously wealthy and send there kids to private school. Both the parents are successful and bright so you would assume the kids would be the same...wouldn't you??
the daughter is 17 years old and don't forget, well educated!!!

Friend: We are going to Portugal in the Autumn
Me: ohh really, I haven't been but I believe it nice
Clients daughter: Where's Portugal?

Silence.....blank stares and furrowed brows....turns into uncomfortable silence

Thankfully the friends 12 year old duaghterhelped us out by saying
"Well you know France? Then below it is Spain, Portugal is the country on the west coast" I wish I could convay the look of disdain on the 12 year old face

That was 50 grand well spent on private education wasn't it??

Right, I'm finally getting round to writing this but I want to thank some people on here for the gift of premium.
It started when BestinDK wanted to gift premium to a few people on recomendation from fellow members and i believe that a few people mentioned me.....I'm not sure who these people were but thank you it's lovely that I was thought of and it truly means alot
To the people that i do know put my name forward

Lil Bunz - Thanks lady not only did you mention me but you gave me a months worth of nudles....You are awesome, fun, smart and incredibly sexy and i know you'll be pulling your face and telling me to calm down ....Love ya my warm breeze xxxxxx

Sexyhels - I saw you mention me on Mean_sugar&spice's status, thanks sexy lady you said some nice things and it reminded me to perv your pics...not seen you online for ages and it was nice you remembered me xxxx

msstoner - You gave me 3 nudles for me to try premium...a big surprise as we hadn't ever chatted!!! It was really cool of you...I hope you don't mind but I passed these nudles on to a fella who i thought needed them, he was unsure of posting some pics (he'd had an operation) and me and bunz wanted to give him a couple of days oportunity to delete themif he wanted to I hope you don't mind but i thought it was good to share the love around

BestinDK - THank you, Thank you, Thank you...Awesome lady, she's fun and doesn't take any shit, if you see her in status say hi and have a giggle along with her....It was lovely as i had gone to bed with the gift from Bunz of 30 days then I logged on the day after and I had a message telling me had 185 days of premium left!!!!! At first i didn't understand and thought it was a mistake until i read the message from DK ...It was a lovely feeling

Anyway if I've misse danyone off, sorry, give me a slap round the head and I'll rectify it


ohhhh and just as a little side note i have to say how kind some people have been to me this year, bith online and in the "real" world....earlier this year, for a variety of reasons, all I had to my name was 24 Euros, that was it! No money down the sofa, nothing stashed away, that was it. It was a shite time to be honest and a client (I'm a plasterer) I have done quite a bit of work for gave me a substantial amount of money upfront for some work they wanted me to do. They are fantastic people, people who I haven't known that long but true friends....They'll never see this (hopefully lol )
All this kindness made me think of all the people that have been so good to me this year and it makes me feel good

Anyway I'll stop rambling now

Have fun and i hope I haven't bored you too much
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