I was sooooo horny last night I was almost shaking. I don't know why. I waited up until I hoped that hubby was going to bed, asked him when he would coming up and he said a few minutes. when up, climbed into bed naked and waited. two hour later, I dozing and he comes to bed and I wake up and ask him to let me suck him off---hint hint, some loving from him for me too. what his answer--no, he is too tired and I need to go to work in the morning. horny and frustrated I will go to work in the morning. ;((

Got the Internet back.

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Came home from work and the Internet/cable is iffy--internal power problems.

Checking on my friends on my smart phone. Hope to have the Internet by Thursday .

by the window, snowed and rained yesterday and last night. basement has a little water in it from the rain. I can tell that the snow has a coating of ice. the birds are so cold, they are not even coming to the feeder. and I have to get ready to go to work because it is Monday and I did not sleep well last night. I think that I need a mental health day.

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I just finished watching a movie "the sessions", the story of a man crippled with polio who loses his virginity at 39 with a sex surrogate.

for all of the complaining I do about lack of physical love I get from hubby, we have had the joy of that intimacy, that warmth, going to that special place. then, even if we don't, I can still gain the release by myself.

then to watch a movies about a man trapped in 18 hours a day in an iron lung, unable to move but to have feeling within his body, to obtain an erection and no way to relieve it except through others (imagine coming while you caregiver bathed you) makes me ashamed to complain about my tiny issues with hubby.

and then to remember that polio has all but been wiped out in much of the world. if you are under about 58, the only thing that you know about polio is that President FDR had it but you have most likely never heard or seen an iron lung http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negative_pressure_ventilator

I can not imagine what it would be like not to be a sexual being or worse a sexual being unable to share their needs. I can not imagine what it must be like be trapped in a body that does not work. and I know that people exist like that every day---we just have to look at the people around us, and suffer through that pain.

and yet we forget how fortunate we are.

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sammie alice

All day yesterday and today. Cleaned up piles of branches and trimmed things up, getting ready for winter. Discovered things that needed repair so to be ready for snow. But now I am tired and sore, and not in a good way. If I was offered loving I am not sure I would accet....lol. who am I kidding.

Regardless of where you live, pausing to give thanks is important. Although wehave never met in the real world, I cherish many of my friends here as if we meet for happy hour after work. And I share with you secrets of my heart others will never know. Thank you all.

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Good thing it is above freezing or the rain would be snow and we would need need dog sleds to get to thanksgiving dinner.

Seems to have arrived.. yesterday it was 50, today it was 31. Too cold to do stuff outdoors---will just have to adjust. Did have time for some indoor fun but just a toy and his tongue. I miss his hard cock and maybe the blue pill but he was interested and I did not want to let the moment pass and miss the chance.

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last night when I went to sleep the weather forecast was clear and sunny. I got up to pee at 4 am and it was raining---wtf--and my head was about to explode from the increased pressure. kept me awake until now guess my plans to work in the yard are gone. I think that winter is upon us and i hate the dark evening. maybe tomorrow "sunny and warm" will actually be correct.