Thank-you for all your help last night cas. I used quite a lot of what you said...(sorry, I stole bits too!!) and attacked it again with a clearer head this morning. I think I had just been at it too long, and my brain switched itself off half way through.

Anyway, it has been sent off and is the hands of the powers that be now.

I have just been to the cashline....I have been avoiding going - thinking if I don't look then my money will surely be okay and it won't run out....lol

Just as well I did today, I now have to seriously try to live on the bare minimum of money for the rest of the month. That may mean more pics, since I don't have the money for doing anything else right now

In fact I am doing my money saving bit right now, sitting here with no lights on.....I got some great smelly candles for a christmas prezzie which are gonna come in really handy now!!

Have a good Friday and an even better weekend! xxx

Is anybody good with "application form" speak.....I need some serious help right now. I have decided that I want to jump ship and now have my feelers out for a new job, and have a few applications in for other jobs! The problem is that I have forgotten how to do application form talking.....

I am trying to get back onto my healthy eating regime after letting it go a bit over the festive period. My problem is that I still have loads of chocolate and even more drink left over that have to be eaten and drunk.

When I go into healthy eating mode I do try my best and usually do stick to it very well....but I can't do it when I still have "bad" stuff laying around, so I am trying to eat as much of it as possible right now. There is logic in there somewhere; believe me on that!

The faster I get rid of it, the faster I can get back to normal......lol, the problem right now is the 2 bottles of cranberry vodka that really need to be gone.......schlurpppppp!!!


HIC!!



help!!

I have just bought a new corner suite for my living room and bunk beds for the kids.......Now I am panicking that the way things are going with the world right now, that maybe I wont have a job to be able to pay for them....

But, I am gonna stick to my guns and worry about whatever happens later if I have to.

I am kinda chuffed though, I have never bought a BRAND NEW suite before - so when it gets here nobody will be allowed to sit on it, only look at it and see how pretty it is....and the kids can go and sit on their new beds...heeheeee

The best laid plans and all that!! I took the kids up to the stables today, but because I had to sneak outa work for a while to do so I wasn't planning on staying or doing anything (I was wearing my work clothes which aint nearly warm enough to handle any time up there!!)

So, I watched them riding then told them I was going to go and sit in the car to get a heat back into me again.....I was absolutely freezing and my feet were throbbing with the cold. I nearly got back into the car, when one of the horses spooked at a noisy trailer that went past. The girl leading him let him go and got a bigger fright than he did, so without thinking I had a hold of his reins and had offered to take him down to his stable, and obviously she did say......YESS!! ffs

By the time I got back to the car, I was covered in mud, horse snot and hay and straw, I did warn her that if he stood on my feet before I got him into his stable I would hit the ground crying.....

I went down a treat when I got back to work though, but at least my feet heated up again!! lol

A Child's Prayer



One night, a father passed by his son's room and heard his son praying: God bless Mommy, Daddy, and Grandma. Ta ta, Grandpa.The father didn't quite know what this meant, but was glad his son was praying.

The next morning, they found Grandpa dead on the floor of a heart attack. The father reassured himself that it was just a coincidence, but was still a bit spooked.

The next night, he heard his son praying again: God bless Mommy and Daddy. Ta ta, Grandma. The father was worried, but decided to wait until morning.


Sure enough, the next morning Grandma was on the floor, dead of a heart attack.Really scared now, the father decided to wait outside his son's door the next night. And sure enough, the boy started to pray: God bless Mommy. Ta ta, Daddy.

Now the father was beside himself. He stayed up all night, and went to the doctor's early the next day to make sure his health was fine. When he finally came home, his wife was waiting on the porch.

She said, Thank God you're here --we could really use your help!
We found the milkman dead on our porch this morning!

I just did my one good deed of the year, so I now get a clean slate for the rest it!! Surely I can do no wrong now, with such a good start

Soooooo......how was it for you??



I had a great one and I hope there are another 364 of them to go this year, but I will settle for another few like last night!! ))

I got a really nice pm today from a very nice guy on here and it meant a lot to me....So first off a huge big thankyou to that person (and lots of hugs) )

Reading my last blog back it does sound a little, ummm I dunno, not like me! It wasn't me wallowing (I don't think anyway) but maybe just reflecting a little. It did annoy me for a day or 2, but I realise I have had different stuff to deal with than my friend and it is all our differences that make the world go round.

It was maybe just what I needed to see that life is there for living and sometimes you have to reach out a little to take what you want to....

So, what I am gonna do is......reach out a bit more in 2009!! Hopefully I will get some of what I want and I hope you all do too!!!!


Have a good night and an even better year folks!!!

Sometimes, something happens that makes you sit back and take stock. Today was one of those times for me.

I got talking to an old friend (well she aint old, but we have known each other for years). I found out how well she has done with her life and if I am honest, I am really jealous of her. I was always the smarter of the two of us all through school and the years after it. But, she really has sorted herself out and now after talking to her - I feel a real dissatisfaction (is that a word?) with what I have settled for. She really has given me an unsettled feeling in my stomach with what I have...

I don't mean my kids or anything like that (my kids are probably one of the few things right in my life!!)...but what I do mean and what I have been thinking about tonight is, lacking any other word for it....dreams and aspirations...

When did I stop trying and striving to do better and when did I give up on all my dreams? My eyes really have been opened up to how laid back I have become lately! Like I said, I have a weird feeling in my stomach again today which I haven't felt in a long time.....I just hope it is for the better!