I tried with out an obvious success after numerous attempts to attach a picture to a blog Sunday. I wanted to show my support to all the people who died, but instead I was on planet Kas and too far way so I failed er yet again. I can only apologize and assure you I certainly do have talents I am very very good at! One day I might be able to get this one down and brag about it. I need someone to come teach me anyone fancy being my master.....?

I am now into my last week of work and it is not a happy one either. My superiors are being rather hostile towards me, I am riding above it, all my colleagues support me and all that does is reaffirm my decision to leave in the first place. I am happier with doing so, everything is now in place to pursue my dream and I am enrolled on the course I wanted. Nothing can bring me down at the moment it is all so very good, but you never know whats lurking in the future, but for now its sweet. Hope all is well in your part of the world. Hugs and take care Kas xx

So I have been complaining about my life for far too long and not doing much about it until I made some inquires at my local college finally. I turned up yesterday and spoke with an adviser I told her I had a lifelong dream really to work with troubled teens afterall I was one myself and no one spotted my behaviour was symptomatic of my hideous childhood. They told me my visit was very much fortuitous as a brand new course that was not even advertised yet with plenty of places free absolutely perfect and specific to me was looking for bodies. The only problem is that now (the rules have just changed) Unless you are totally unemployed, claiming unemployment benefit (job seekers allowance it is called here) Or able to fund the course yourself at a cost of £655 I was screwed with abig decision to make. But it didnt take me long to tell her I would be unemployed immanently!! So I went into work this morning with a huge big grin feeling really relived and utterly content with what I was about to do then I handed in my resignation with a weeks notice effective from this Monday the 12th. I actually have sixteen hours of lieu to use or lose, so next week I am only working for a total of four hours. I cant tell you how good that felt my only problem is I wont have any money from the government for a further eight weeks as I have given up my job voluntarily. But I can live with that as all I need from them is proof that I am in receipt of the benefits before the course starts at the end of October and I am confident of being able to do just that so I can then enroll. I admit I have taken a huge gamble but I really feel the universe was at work and placed said course in my path. Now it is all down to me not to fuck anything up and complete my mission to at last finding something I can be proud of (other than having my boys there is not a whole lot to be proud of except of course giving up my addiction and giving up smoking)! My feeling is if I dont try to make the next twenty years left of my working life, I hopefully still have left, really count, to be proud of, I will then spend the rest of my life regretting not attempting it at least and to be honest I have spent too many years full of regret already. I want to be able to pass on all my life experiences of which there are many, in the hope I can help someone who is so similar to me, from traveling down the same horrid road I have then I shall be content.
So we shall all just have to wait and see. I only know I have made the right move towards maybe to start to feel good about myself and how I conduct myself. I shall certainly keep you informed. Thank you for taking the time to read my wafflings people and bring it on....
Take care all and hugs to those that matter to me xoxox

The seven daily intentions:-

Today I will practice non-harming.
Today I will be helpful.
Today I will further my spiritual practice.
Today I will be impeccable with my word.
Today I will not take anything personally.
Today I will not make assumptions.
Today I will do my best.

For the benefit of all beings and remind yourself...

I am worth it
I am lovely.
I love myself

Hello gang,

I know this is an odd thing to blog about but I watched with horror on the news a video of a dying Rhino who poachers had removed his horn or corn to sell to the far east. So far 270 Rhinos have died this year alone in Africa, all for their horns. This I cant comprehend at all and I found the video so disturbing to watch, the poor creature in such obvious pain had to be put to sleep eventually, its absolutely disgusting. I have not been able to find that video but I did find this piece of information for you and this particular Rhino was supposed to be in a protected area... [url]http://www.news24.com/SouthAfrica/News/Aquila-rhino-dies-after-poaching-attack-20110825[/url] I found another video for you with two further attacks .... [url]http://www.zoopy.com/news/2063/rhino-fights-for-its-life-after-poaching-attack-at-aquila[/url] The whole thing I find so repulsive and scientists have yet to prove the powdered horn actually works. This is away we can help... [url]http://www.savetherhino.org/eTargetSRINM/site/540/default.aspx[/url] It just moved me to the core and I wanted others to be aware of what was happening too. On that sad note...Take care all xx

I sent this to a friend who was alittle down and had no reason to be, similar to myself really and I do love this band, this track is somewhat different for them, hope you enjoy the song and lyrics....

Well.....

I think I have solved the problem of why I couldnt upload...Its firefox I am using, I have just uploaded successfully a picture for a friend with google chrome and I am really pleased!!

Just wanted you to know, by the way, good luck toughbitch I will be thinking of you take care gang hugs and all xoxoxox

Back again!!

I wanted to just say to Metaltony6666 I am so sorry for the loss of your mother at the weekend and I have thought of you all night. If there is anything at all I can do for you, let me know. You have friends who are your family now and I am sure they will support you through this. I have my candle lit for you my friend, grief is a horrid fing to endure by ones self,dont be alone too much and I am with you, for you my friend.
love you lots xxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox

Hi peeps,

My posts from last night were not of my doing (I still cant upload for some strange reason) So I asked my friend AKlegs to post them on my behalf using my account and I want to thank her so much for taking the time to do that for me, especially with all she has going on in her life.....So AK....THANK YOU so very much my friend I so appreciate it.

I will with any luck, be able to post myself soon, although I have done everything on this pc to make it go faster, disc clean ups, disc frag, dumped stuff, you name it and still it wont let me. I am getting my new computer back this week, so it should be all good then.

I was pleased to learn that Irene had lost some of her power and didnt do as much damage or take any lives (that I know of, not seen any news yet) So that must be a relief for you on the east coast.

As ever, thank you so much for you continued support, where would I be without all my cyber friends?? Love and hugs to you all xxxx)xxxx