What a hell of a week. I'm actually quite glad I'm not working, I couldn't possibly imagine trying to balance all of this school work with going to a job I didn't even like anyway.

My classes are all pretty gosh darn interesting, except Ethics, in which case I'm basically not planning to pay attention in class because the teacher can't even spare the time to STAND UP in the class. Seriously, this man sat on his ass the entire two and a half hours and didn't even get up to pass out the syllabus, he just stretched and gave it to a student sitting in front of him. *Sigh* wow...

So I figure the next class I'll just take my mini-laptop and work on something important, since all this man is doing is just reading from the book to us. *Rubs face*

Psyche of Romantic Love is a little bit depressing as times but extremely interesting, so I'm enjoying it =3

A guy from eHarmony got back in contact with me, which surprised me because we kinda just stopped talking a few months ago. Wasn't that we weren't interested I don't think, we just got distracted. But he texted me last night and we flirted a little. he asked if I was in town and then if he could possible come around in October and we could meet and hang. Sure, why not? If nothing else, it'll be a date lol

I started up Ballroom dancing again and it's oodles of fun. Girls outweigh the guys by about double, so half of the girls wait on the side while the other half dance, then we switch out. It's working SURPRISINGLY well, because it gives the girls chances to practice with each other, but all get the chance to actually do the girl's part. There's an older guy there from last year and I'm so happy he is, because he knows what he's doing and I LOVE dancing with him. The other girls bitch and complain because he's in his forties or something, older, yah know.

But ya'll know me =3 I've never had a problem with older guys *wink*

So my weekend get-away with Ash is over and I'm back at college. Lame. It was good while it lasted though. I got to make a Poor Man's Pasta for her and it came out a lot better than I thought it would, considering the stuff I cook is usually better when dad is behind me to make sure I'm doing it right. We watched a few movies and I showed her G1 Transformers and she totally loved it, which thrilled me. I was honestly worried I'd be the only person I knew who actually enjoyed watching the original cartoon and others, but nope.

So we went to IHOP this morning and nerded out about Transformers, lotsa fun. The waiter was totally digging us too. He kept asking me not to bite him and kept giving Ash the "eyes". It was pretty cool. Then she and I stopped at Borders to look for a Poets of the Fall cd which (surprise surprise) they didn't have. I've totally gotten her into that band, which sissy got me into, so it's like the gift that keeps on giving. Afterwards we went to the mall, and on the way we're driving along with the windows rolled down, blasting music and I hear someone outside the car yell my name. I turn and look and OMG it's one of the guys I knew from high school! So we're driving along, 50 mph yelling to each other out our windows asking how we're doing and shit. It was awesome, lol.

At the mall, well... I ALMOST got ya'll a new newbienudes girl lol Ash and I were in Charlotte Russe and I was telling her about how much I love NN and how sexy it makes me feel. And she was saying 'oh no, I'd be way too shy for that' and I'm telling her not to post her face and no one will know it's her lol. Thing is she totally doesn't care for her body at times, especially her breast size, and I know whenever I post pics I just feel SO good about myself, so I thought maybe it'd be the same for her.

So Ash and I stopped at a lingerie store in there and I grabbed something and told her I TOTALLY wanted her to try it on, joking, and she's like 'okay!' Wow! So then she finds something for me to try one and we start grabbing stuff for each other and we go to get a dressing room and the lady asks if we wanna share. I don't mind, but I look at Ash and she's cool with it, so we go in together and suddenly she's like:

"Do you have your cell phone?"

"No, why?"

"Well...cause then you could've taken pictures."

"I would've posted them online, and then you'd be mad at me *grin*"

"Yeah but I mean...it'd be like a once-in-a-lifetime thing, and I'd totally want copies so it'd be cool..."

Lol, I love this chick. So we tried on our stuff. Mine didn't really fit muh boobs, go figure. And Ash found one that fit her REALLY well and if she and I had actually had money I would've made her get it, but we had no money xD

Wild good day. I'm totally sad to be back in classes.


I'm not sure about that short story idea anymore. I dunno. My brain, it hurts.

So I think I'm going to do a short story about a girl that finds out she's the Antichrist. Catch is, she isn't really evil, because when she was SUPPOSED to end up with that bad, anti-religious generic evil family she ended up with actually a pretty good, wholesome one. I kinda want to set up the story as a 'maybe she is, maybe she isn't' thing. She ends up meeting a demon that's been searching around for her, tons of demons are, and he happens to find her. But I want that to also be a case of 'is he really a demon or not?'

The teacher isn't crazy about FANTASY, so i want to do a sort of in-between. I kind of want the feeling at the end with 'gee, maybe they're all just crazy and THINK they're like this.'

I'm just not really sure how to write it. I don't DO short stories, I'm just taking these stupid creative writing classes to get to the freakin' manuscript class x.x

I gotta think of a good short story to write. Nothing good is coming to mind. Ugh I hate when this happens x.X I can do novel-length stuff, but short stories always give me a fight.

On the bright side!!! I get to see Ash tomorrow =D!!!

We had our first day of classes today and they pretty much kicked my ass lol

My first class was Speech, which I'm really not looking forward too since it's a freshman class, full of mostly freshman and therefore I don't know anyone. I think we might have on or two other seniors in the same boat as me, the credit just didn't transfer. But still =/

Psychology of Romantic Love looks like it might be a bit of a heartbreaker (hahaha), but no seriously... One of our textbooks is 'Can Love Last?' and the teacher said straight up that this course would basically be a psychoanalytic, Jungian, evolutionary and somewhat "realistic" view of romance, but I guess it's about time I started looked at what "real" romance is. Let's face it, I was brought up with the fairytale romance and it really hasn't done me any good for my 19, almost 20 years of life (considering my sad lack of boyfriends). Maybe it's time I saw 'love' for what it really is, whatever that may be.

Either way, mom and dad told me if I started analyzing their marriage, they'd kill me. Lol

Intro to the Old Testament went RIGHT over my head and my basic thought the entire class was that I'm probably just going to drop it. I think my big problem is I have pretty much not Christian or religious background and I know NOTHING about religious texts. I've never even read the Bible past Adam and Eve. So the teacher's throwing around all these phrases and terms and I'm just sitting there with this STUPID look on my face. And then he asks me what the first chapter in the Hebrew texts are and I just shake my head dumbly and so the teacher asks someone to 'help me out' and the ENTIRE class speaks up with 'Genesis' and I just feel like a total dumbass. So I'm thinking of explaining my lack of understanding in pretty much all of the class already to my teacher and seeing what he thinks I should do.

Advanced fiction writing looks like a real ball buster and I'm worried about all these kids in the class. There's a LOT this time which means a hell of a lot of reading. What's more, I don't know how many of them are fantastic writers, and how many of them are still really new to writing and where I fall into that category. To be perfectly honest, I felt like my writing place in the class last semester was near the top and I felt really accomplished, but I could be near the bottom in this class, which with me trying to publish a novel totally doesn't help my self-esteem.

Ack x.x

I can't wait for Friday when I can go and see Ash.

Finally got the chance to load these pictures xD

This bad boy came in day before I left for college so managed to snap some pictures and today I've finally had time to work with my camera.











And they all followed me to college =3

So last night was really enjoyable. I was txting with this chick from my poetry class last semester, Firefly we'll call her because that's totally her series, and we end up deciding that I should totally come over to her place to visit and hang. So I'm look w00t! because this chick is many levels of hot and sexy and she's thinks I'm a babe and we both have quite the girl crushes on each other, but she's got a bf so all it could ever be is harmless flirting, but it's still good.

So I drive off to her place and we end up just sitting and chilling for hours, which was great. I find out that her job's giving her a lot less hours than usual, which means she's really bored and alone often now that her roomie is planning to spend more time with her new possible b.f., and Firefly doesn't care for being all alone. So we're planning to hang out all sorts of oodles this semester.

But anywho, she'll be coming over later today and watching Repo! with me, which will be fun. And it'll be nice to have some company.

The suitemates seem all right, but they're already friends with each other so they kinda don't need me, especially since I'm not even old enough to buy them alcohol so really I'm not use to them lol. So we just kind of co-exist right now and I'm not LONELY, but company would totally not be refused.

As for sleeping last night, I dunno if the addition of my new fridge (which I got in yesterday) made a change in things, but suddenly the sound of water in pipes didn't bother me so much. I think it's because the water in pipes + the sound of the fridge = the sound of a fish tank, which totally took me back to when I was really young and I got to stay at my big brother's apartment once and he had all these fish tanks that I fell asleep too. It's a good memory, because my brother and I have never been very close because of such a huge age difference, so that one night was many levels of fun and one of the few times we had it together too.

Anywho. Classes start tomorrow. And I'm kinda running low on money. Groceries cost too much. Damnit.

So I figured out the one BIG problem with the room since I'm getting so 'lucky.' I mean, me being alone and on an okay floor and it being so huge.

So in the ceiling there's these pipes, as in most rooms there are, but apparently in MY pipes I can hear water running... constantly. So allllll night long was the sound of water running through pipes. So today I"m going to go shopping for some food and get my books, and I'm going to go find some earplugs. Because last night was rather sleepless. Le sigh!

So I kinda dropped the bomb during dinner to mom and dad that I REALLY don't care if I work at Publix or not this year, gave them all the reasons why and while they didn't like it, I think they're almost accepting. Maybe. I dunno. they didn't give their blessing, but they didn't freak out either, let's leave it at that lol

I moved into my room and ya'll will have pictures soon enough. It's very big, very empty, and a little lonely without a roomie, but we'll see how it goes. *Le sigh* I have two suitemates that seem okay so far, we'll see how it goes.

I dunno. We'll see how this goes =/

Okay, FINALLY in St. Aug again, thank goodness. I checked out my room today but I still can't move in until tomorrow (lame). So right now it's just hanging around the rv impatiently. I'm a little irritated with mom. It's not really her fault. She's ill and has a really bad cough right now and it's this big, deep, chesty hacking cough and she does it at least once ever five or so minutes and it's driving me crazy. >.< I basically opted out of going to mass with them at the vasilika because I just couldn't bare hearing her cough during the sermons and whatnot.

Also, I'm kinda thinking I might be able to get away from Publix for a bit, because we're having so much trouble with my transfer. So I thought 'gee, maybe I'll be jobless but I got V.A. paying for college and giving me an extra 300-400 to live off of every month until college is over.' So I got some money. I'm only staying at publix because the 'economy is bad' and 'this isn't the economy to not have a job in,' and it'll be easier to have a guaranteed job when I get home after college.

But... to be away from publix, even for only a year or so *sigh* It sounds nice. And if I DON'T work there, then I don't have to worry about that 30 day bullshit during my Christmas break, I can just GO HOME and RELAX. And I don't have to constantly ask for weekends and certain days off, I can just have them already.

But mom's pushing and bugging and bothering and the parents just will NOT let it go. I know they're just trying to help, but I don't think they realize how much I'd love some time off, or some time to look for just a temp job doing something DIFFERENT maybe.

u.u

As for Ash and me. She's feeling a little uneasy about Cali considering the distance and everytime I bring it up my parents give me a half hour long lecture about why it's a bad place to live. So she's found a few interesting places in North Carolina, so we might give that a shot instead, and I think mom and dad would like it better. Not that I've told them I'm going there with her yet. Mom's content with the idea of me living with her and dad for the rest of my life and continuing my career at Publix.

Oi.