AND PRESENTING!! My first wedding cake =3 I only decorated it. The nice decorator did the base icing for me (because I suck at that) and put the tiers together.

No I did NOT md =P After the wedding comes nights of oodles of wild and kinky sex with all sorts of nifty toys and insane positions and tons of other nasty and wonderful things =P der!

I wanna meet a guy and fall in love and go on tons of really fun dates and kiss and cuddle! And then I wanna be proposed to and have a super fun wedding with a pretty dress and a nifty cake and all my family and friends! And I wanna dance a waltz at the wedding and have pretty flowers and...and... !!! *Flops*

I am so insanely tired. I was fine until 7, and then all of a sudden I was completely drained, with no energy and my head totally hurts. I'm ready to go to bed, and I think I will be going early.

Jessica's being well...super nice to me, which is kind of irritating. She was so snide and upsetting earlier, and then I stopped jumping at the chance to hang and do this and that. Earlier I had offered to go to IHOP with her and she said she couldn't, because the whole family was short on money, and then the next day she told me about all this new furniture the family had bought. Short on money?

Anyway, I kinda stopped getting online for a while. Not to be spiteful, but I'd come home every night from work exhausted and just would check my email then go to bed, no time for msn or anything like that. I just wanted sleep. Then Ash came over, and last night just ended up being the first time in about a week or so that I'd really gotten online. Then Jes is SUPER happy to see me and wants to know if I wanna go to IHOP with her and do I want to rp and how am I doing, and how are things between me and that girl that likes me?

I'm not sure if it's awful of me, but I find myself just reacting blandly. It's all polite answers, but I just have no energy to go an extra mile anymore. Does that make me bad? I just don't want to put forth all the effort of being her 'best friend' again if she's just going to always end our arguments with me having to change something about myself while respecting she is just who she is. *I'm* the confused and misguided one. I don't want to us being totally cool with each other only while she's in college and away from her parents, but whenever summer comes and she's living under their roof she goes back to shutting down and me being considered weird.

I dunno if that makes me a bad person, but I still don't really care =/ I'm too tired. I go to work, I come home, I want to go to bed, not stay up late role playing some boring role play and deal with the fact she thinks my characters are too weird anyway.

Just too damn tired right now.

I did key lime pies allll day today. It sucked. A lot. And I'm sure the amount will only increase in size over the next two days. Bleh. I hate key lime pies.

It was an okay day, despite the fact it started off rough. Very rough. I was sleeping soooo well, until I realized it felt like forever that I'd been sleeping, so I rolled over and checked the time on my cell phone, only to see that it was 6:50, and I was due at work in 10 minutes and was SUPPOSE to have been up at 6:15. Yeeeah... So I got up quickly and asked dad to please call work and let them know I'd be a little late.

Dad felt bad he wasn't keeping watch the time =/ but it's totally not his fault and I keep trying to tell him that. It's my job, I'm an adult, it's my responsibility. I was just so damn exhausted last night I set my alarm for 7, not 6:15. The logic was good at the time. Due in at work at 7, well gee, I should be awake at 7. Der.

Right now I'm just drinking sweet tea and watching Matilda. Tomorrow I get to run to the SanDestin store and pick up a toy for a birthday cake, and some half sheet boxes. I like it. It's at least an hour away from the job lol

Things are going pretty good. Ash is over and we're just watching videos, between her small naps and me waking her up again xD We just watched The Blair Witch Project, which I enjoy, though now I'm all creeped out lol

We've been looking up jobs in Cali, her studios and me bakeries and whatnot, and we looked up apartments a little.

outside that, it's just hanging and eating junk food and chilling. It's nice =3

Finally got my new camera going, and got it all hooked up and the pictures loaded. So~

This is my first groom's cake:





Just something cute I did up today (I HOPE that's the kanji for 'good luck.')









And something I've wanted to try with the spray gun:

So work was all right today. Started off packing, and then after break went to the decorating side. I got to do a groom's cake, and I'll post pictures of it later. I think it came out pretty good. I did most of it myself, though the nicer decorator helped me smooth out the top, because it generally ends up looking rough when I do it and I didn't wanna mess this one up.

Then I got to do my first cake delivery, and the restaurant we went to was just awful. Looked great outside and whatnot, but we got into the kitchen and it was so nasty. Worse off, they were keeping the cake in the same cooler as all this seafood and it stank so bad in there. I can only imagine how the cake will undoubtedly taste after being stuck in there >.<

Then the nice decorator left and I was stuck with CBD, where she did what she does best. *Sighs* I'm so tired. I hope I can sleep tonight. I can't been able to sleep these past two nights, I was almost falling asleep where I stood this morning =.=;; I just wanna get one good night of sleep gosh darnit, because tomorrow ill be insane. But I am leaving at 4 tomorrow, so I can go to church with the rents. I'm really looking forward to it. Mass is surprisingly relaxing, especially after a Saturday at work.

So I'm going to cuddle with my dog for a bit, then go to sleepies.

I bought a new camera. The one I currently own I've had since 9th grade, and it's a cheapo one mom and dad got me AS a cheapo because it was just for a school trip to the Grand Canyon, and they thought I would lose/break it...and I didn't xD

But this new one is nice and smaller. So I've got that now, hurrah! =D A good one to take pictures of when Ash comes over!! In one or two more paychecks I can also afford one of those small super-portable computers that I can take to classes. I like my big one, it's great for gaming, but there's just so many times that I've tried taking it here or there and almost breaking it. A smaller one would be good for notes, and they're so wonderfully affordable.

*does a little dance?*

Yeah I'm super tired, but I got this out today and I'm very proud: