I have some big news! I will get right too it. I may be getting married! Can you believe that craziness haha.

I was having a stopover in brazil for 1 hour and I met an american there. Instantly when I looked at her I knew something was different... I was so blown away I cant explain it! well I was going to get all her contact details when we got off the plane but I lost her

I was so gutted that we had 1 great hr together then that was it. But, she remembered my couch surfing profile and she created a profile just so she could look me up and then she found my facebook page via that and she stalked me out! I was so excited when she did!

Since then we have talked every single day (she in brazil on business) and I have grown to realise more and more she might be the one for me. I was going to go right away to teach english in thailand but I realised if I left I would lose her forever!

So I made the decision to stay in america but I didnt want to tell her and sound like a crazy man haha. But finally I worked up the courage to tell her and to my pure amazement she felt the same! We both just realised that we really wnt to be with each other.

So after knowing this girl for an hour I want to spend the rest of my life with her I think. I know its insane but this goes beyond anything I have experienced with girls before.

We do want to be realistic about this though, so I have bought a 2 week return ticket to California (where she is getting transferred for her job) and if things go well then I will just stay in California with her for the entire 7 month contract.

She does really complicated SAP stuff with computers that I dont even understand haha but they pay her a ton of money to do it! Her company is also paying for our apartment,givng us a car and a food allowance too!

I also will never have to clean my room because they give us a weekly maid I am super happy and super super lucky!

Somehow I managed to tell my parents and convince them I am not totally insane although they thought it at first haha. You just dont know when you will meet the one.

Sorry for the novel! Ty

I am just really really happy today. A really great thing has happened in my life in a really unexpected way. I will tease you with it for now but more on it later. -Ty

I will say it involves a random chance meeting in an airport in Brazil and an amazing American girl.

I just had a huge wakeup call in my life not to be so damn stupid! I dodged a huge bullet which I am really thankful for. But also angry that my usual responsible self let myself get in that situation in the first place! I am very lucky and I sure have learned my lesson! One night of fun isnt worth 18 years of parenthood before your ready....

Everyone knows the sayings... wrap it before you tap it and 99.9% of the time I do and the one time I dont something like this happens! Well playing around with a potential human life and the stress of a potential pregnancy is absolutely not fun! So that is the last time I will ever do that.... thank fuck she got that period....

I will try and make a long story short. As most of you know I traveled around the world and had a lot of fun with a lot of girls. Some who I even liked quite a bit. A lot who I had great sex with. But nothing long lasting you know.

Well 3 weeks ago when I had a 1 hour layover in Brazil I met an American girl in the airport. I talked to her in the terminal and instantly I felt something. She was something special. I havent felt this feeling for ANY girl since my ex girlfriend 6 years ago.

I know most of you are thinking are you crazy how can you feel this way for someone you just met! I cant even explain it myself its insane. But she is something special.

After we got off the plane I wanted to get her contact details but we lost each other and I was really honestly sad. Well amazingly SHE found me on facebook without even my name, she told me she peeked at my passport. I was so amazed and happy!

Since then we have talked everyday and she is in brazil on business. She was supposed to actually come to my coming home party and I was so excited! but her company wouldnt pay the change fee of 2000 dollars! So she could come to dallas

I dont know why I am even writing this I know most of you will say oh its puppy love, you will get over it etc etc. I am just hooked on this girl and I know she feels the same because we have talked about it.

But she is looking for a new career, on monday she is talking to an army recruiter.... if she joins the service any chance I have with her is over. she had another job offer in Houston Texas that is so much closer for me!

You know if she took that job in Houston I was honestly considering not traveling anymore and getting a job in Houston. I know all this sounds insane and I certainly didn't tell her that but it is how I feel. I know she has at least some feelings for me or she wouldnt have found me and talk to me everyday either.

If there is a God he must hate me though because it seems whatever chance I had with her is slipping away especially if she joins the service.... I just want to be happy and have this work out and for the first time in a long long time I think I found someone to be happy with and its not working!

They say you "just know" when you have the one and I never believed that until this chance meeting. we may not get married but she is certainly something special.

I just want this to work and im frustrated! We are supposed to meet each other for a proper first date in Florida in July when she has vacation. I will keep you posted if it happens or not.

This is my first night not getting laid in over a month. I was so lucky but now I am having withdrawls lol these first days back home are going to be rough for more than one reason...I do miss her lol thanks for all the good wishes though.

I am home now.

I have managed to have whataburger and a shiner. both were like Heaven, I am surprising my family so I still havent seen them yet and they still dont know I am home. It is strange to be back and feels weird but its home. My first trip to an actual Walmart was seriously very mentally overwhelming for me! There is so much stuff there.

I know I have spoken of this before but I wanted yall to read what I wrote on my blog for facebook that my friends/family read and let me know your thoughts thanks. Sorry if its long.

I know there is culture shock when you go to a new culture (I have even experienced it myself) what I didn't realise until recently is that there is reverse culture shock when you go home! In a short time I will be going home for the first time since 2009. I figured I would write this now while I have a good Internet connection. I wanted to try and explain myself via my blog so please bear with me. I want to be clear right from the very start that I have amazing friends and family who I love very much and who love me. I could have never done this without their support and none of that has ever changed for me nor will it ever.

That being said, I want to talk about what I am feeling. I am slightly scared to come home. Nervous that things won't be the same, people won't be the same (I am not the same person as when I left because I have grown, learning from so many experiences I have had in 2 years) or on the flip side of the coin maybe I am scared everyone at home hasn't changed much and I have.

I am scared I won't be able to relate to people at home, we won't be on the same "level", conversation will be hard because I have been all over the world on this adventure and they haven't. I really have fallen in love with this life style. My life is on my back and I am not tied to anything. When I don't like somewhere or something I get up and go. Sure I have worked and had jobs (and worked hard) but my life has been anything but "routine" for the past two years.

I have fallen in love with the feeling that this world is a big place to explore and that I can do it. I have been to many countries in this time away and I have seen and done many many amazing things and I have been so so lucky to do so. These travels have forever changed my perspective on life and I am so grateful I made the choice to do this because my life is better for it.

When I do get home you might notice some differences, My core personality is the same. My accent is the same but things like my vocabulary and spelling have changed. I am still "American" and certainly a Texan but you are going to have to bear with me. If I say something you don't understand ask me to translate haha. I just worry that being home is going to make me so restless I will start going crazy! I worry that I won't be able to go back to my "old" life and be happy.

For those of you who have seen the movie The Hurt Locker and remember the scene near the end of the movie where the soldier gets home and he is grocery shopping and just walking up and down the aisles staring at nothing. He can't adjust to "normal" life. Life as a soldier is all he knows. Of course I haven't been to war but I feel that I can parallel this feeling.

It is strange to even be writing this. I never expected not to be 1000% ready to come home and be totally happy. I am as surprised as you that I have so fallen in love with my current life style but at this moment in time I can honestly say that I am 100% happy right here right now sitting here in Bogotá Colombia. Basically what I am saying is I need you to bear with me while I adjust back to life of a normal person. I need you to realise that I may have the overwhelming desire to leave again and I need you to realise that I DO care about each and every person in my life back home and abroad this is just a new experience for me. I am trying to deal with this.

If you ask me "What is the best thing you did in your trip" that is going to be very hard for me to answer because I have been lucky enough to see and do MULTIPLE amazing things. If you ask me "how was your trip" you need to be prepared for a long answer! It was two years of my life remember! I don't want to feel like a stranger in my own home and country but right now I do so I am asking for your help to help me adjust.

One last thing, I don't write this to be all "high and mighty" and tell you how amazing my life is and what I have seen and done. I have had shitty days too, normal days, gone to work 9-5. I am still a normal person I just travel. I know your lives haven't been on hold waiting for me to come home. I am quite sure your lives have been great too I just need to get these emotions out the best way I know how. My one year adventure in Australia has turned into a two year multi country adventure so my life is different than I ever expected but I don't regret a thing and I hope you don't either.

This blog may sound very negative to you. It may sound like me whining about coming home but I felt that I needed to write this. I really am looking forward to eating a meal hand cooked by my mother and seeing my family and sharing a Shiner Bock with all my awesome friends back home. I am just not looking forward to everything else that goes along with "normal"" life. I hope yall can understand where I am coming from and I hope I expressed myself correctly. I do feel bad that I don't feel "ready" to come home and I wish I could continue traveling even now but, it is how I feel.

Thanks for listening and I hope you understand. -Tyler

Ok, I know I have blogged alot about this continuing saga but I feel yall need to know the whole story since I started it. So as you know I kinda freaked out when she said "I love you" my mind immediately went to thoughts of her wanting my babies etc lol. I have no desire to hurt this girl and I DO like her but I am leaving and so is she. There is no getting around that.

But I think she knew I was freaked out when she said that so we talked about it. Apparently South Americans have a different usage for "I love you" then we do. In Spanish "Me gusta" means I like you. then there is I love you (Te Quiero) and finally there is I LOVE YOU (like marriage love) Te Amo

She told me I am not Te Amo but I am Te Quiero which I guess is our equivalent of I really really like you. So in reality we both feel the same.

We have been very clear about what is happening here though so when we leave it will be sad sure but we will still be friends and talk and she is a great girl but unless it happens in the future where we meet again then we wont be getting serious.

So now we are back to insanely good crazy sex (we have done so many positions and she does things to my body I didnt even know possible!) Today I used my last condom so we must buy more. I also know all the spanish sex words lol (when she is cumming she slips into spanish and I love it.)

I am very blessed to be happy,healthy,traveling and getting the best sex of my life whenever I want it (sometimes she wants it more than me!) and she even makes me breakfast lol

P.S. She asked my middle name so I told her and it just so happens that my middle name is the spanish word for King. She really got a kick out of that, now she has named my penis Rey LOL (but my middle name is spelled Ray haha)

So our no sex promise lasted about 1 hour after she got home from work LOL. I finally have found a girl who is new number 1 on my sex list!

But, unfortunately the shit has hit the fan. last night she went out with her friends and I went out with mine (yes we stopped fucking long enough to go out lol) Once we got back home she was pretty tipsy and not HAMMERED. I was pretty much stone cold sober.

We start having sex again and then she comes out with it. She said the L word. She said she loves me. Then she started to cry. I made it very clear from day 1 that I was only here for 10 more days. She was fine with it and now this.

I was like wow.... jesus lol what have I gotten into?! This girl cant love me we have only been fucking for a week now! I want to be clear that I DO like this girl. She is pretty and smart and funny. I do enjoy hanging out with her outside of the bedroom and she makes a mean breakfast.

I had no intention to break her heart and I thought we were on the same level. If I was staying around I could see myself dating this girl but I am not. In 9 days she leaves for France for 2 months so even SHE isnt saying around.

So now I am "stuck" (torture I know lol) having the best sex of my life with a girl who says she loves me.

The morning after, she said sorry for all that crying lovely stuff. She blamed it on the alcohol but I know as well as anyone your true feelings come out when your drunk.

I guess sex just cant stay sex huh? Well this is kinda shitty for me now. I would leave straight away if I wasnt having so much damn fun with her lol. I also think if I just up and left it would hurt her more than if I ride it out (pun intended lol) for my last week with her.

Thoughts?

So we agreed not have anymore sex today (after our morning session) and wait until tomorrow. See if this works out! LOL. I think I am close to being sexed out. But I am having so much fun haha. It only took me 2 years of traveling all over the world to find a girl who can wear me out!

Your happy traveling Texan,Tyler